Rules [Part 3]
General themes/things included: conditioning, possessiveness, restraints, forced alcohol consumption, referenced noncon touching, referenced noncon nudity, (very light) implied noncon, graphic physical violence/depictions of pain, leg/shin injuries, begging, and plenty of punishment.]
There had been wine over dinner.
Not a lot of it, admittedly, but Lorcan hadn’t been a heavy drinker since his own university days, and he had also spent the last week starving. Despite the fact it had only been one glass, it had gone right to his head, and not in the pleasant way. Rather than a warm, tipsy buzz, Lorcan could already feel the beginnings of a dull headache; his thoughts were sluggish, his words slow, and he was sure Sebastian had done it on purpose. He was sure Sebastian had set him up to fail.
Dinner had been regrettably exquisite. There was no other way to describe it. Evidently Sebastian had used his time well, remote as he said the house was. Even if it had been painstakingly served to him mouthful by mouthful, while he remained tied to a chair and feeling the collar bump against his throat every time he swallowed, it had still managed to be delicious. Every so often Sebastian would raise the glass of wine to Lorcan’s lips and force him to take a decent mouthful of it, not taking no for an answer.
“It goes with the fucking meat,” he had muttered, with genuine annoyance, and Lorcan had felt as though Sebastian thought him some kind of savage for even considering not drinking it.
Now Lorcan was beginning to realise there had been another motive. After a third of the generous glass was gone, Sebastian had began laying the rules down thick and fast, seemingly well aware that there was no way that Lorcan would be able to memorise them all at once. It was a cruel thing – Lorcan knew he would inevitably be punished every time he forgot one, but the cruellest part of all was the fact that Lorcan’s memory, ordinarily, was incredibly good. He was capable of remembering vast amounts of information in one sitting, especially if they were in list form; had he not been plied with alcohol, Lorcan could have probably remembered them all. Sebastian, he thought, had perhaps noticed this about him. It had become evidently clear over dinner that Sebastian was very familiar with him, though Lorcan couldn’t work out how. Sebastian, well aware he looked young enough to get away with it, had already confessed to sitting in on a few of Lorcan’s lectures; he had also hidden in Lorcan’s house for three days, and likely snooped around his possessions, unpleasant as that was to think about. Even so, that didn’t explain how Sebastian had somehow managed to identify him as someone who might be able to remember these things, and deliberately sabotage him. Lorcan was beginning to realise that whatever game they were playing, he was at a bigger disadvantage than he had ever thought.
The dishes had been cleared from the table now, and Lorcan had been left briefly alone. He could think better when Sebastian was out of the room, and despite the wine, the food had returned some of his senses to him. Shame had already crept into him, spreading through him with incessant force; he couldn’t even think about how he had behaved over that damn soup without the colour rising to his cheeks. Had it really been that simple to have him saying whatever Sebastian wanted? To have him begging and clamouring to do the right thing? How had that happened so quickly? Lorcan had never seriously considered a situation like this before, but if he had, he would have liked to think he would be the kind of person to hold out. He had read books where people had ended up in kind of similar situations – tortured by brutal regimes or enemies attempting to get them to betray a plan or confess to fabricated crimes – and he had obviously always told himself he would hold out, or he would at least not break immediately. Now he had to consider what Sebastian had managed to make him do over a bowl of soup; he could have laughed, the situation was so ridiculous.
Sebastian came back into the room, whistling to himself, and Lorcan felt a flicker of anger take hold. It found plenty to feed on, and by the time Sebastian had crossed to the table and pulled his own chair around to place it near Lorcan’s, Lorcan knew he wasn’t hiding any of it on his face. Even as he told himself he would regret it, he didn’t care. He couldn’t care. Sebastian would surely kill him eventually anyway – wasn’t it better to die when he still had some of his dignity intact?