Please help a queer black woman leave an abusive household
Trigger warning: Abuse and Rape and mention of cancer
Hi everyone, my name is Chelsea and throughout my life I have been living with my narcissistic parents who are frequently abusive (both emotionally, physically and homophobic) and it has taken a toll on my mental well being as I've been diagnosed with chronic anxiety and undiagnosed adhd. My parents continue to speak negatively to me and they have a tendency of using personal hardships that I have been through to belittle me. In 2018 I was raped by someone I knew in highschool. That incident made me ill and I had to be treated for vulvar intraepithelial neoplasia which is a precancerous skin condition. I was getting therapy while I was at university due to this incident, it helped me heal and further helped me speak about what issues I was going through at home as well as ways to cope with anxiety, which was very helpful however my mother forced me to stop going to therapy because she didn't want me talking about what happened to anyone and she feared i was talking about what was happening at home with my therapist . Both my parents use this incident to gaslight me and they are rape apoligists so it makes it very difficult for me to find healing. They also constantly speak down on the queer community and say hateful things, which suggest that they would be physically violent towards any queer people. They are unaware of my sexual orientation and I've been hiding that from them to keep myself safe
It has become extremely difficult living with them,especially because of the pandemic forcing us to be quarantined with them.
It has always been difficult for me to gain my own independence due to my parents not allowing me to get a job or go out to do general things that one would do.
For the past 4 months of 2021 I've been looking for work and I've been invited to quite a few interviews, some of which have expressed that I already had the position but my parents physically stopped me from going to the interview, even if I could take my own transport to get to the location of an interview they'd make it impossible for me to get the opportunity. I am unable to gain any freedom if I continue living with them, and I'm very concerned about how damaging the financial abuse they are putting through will worsen the state of my mental health.
What makes matters worse is that my rapist lives in the same area as me, so not only am I not safe when I'm at home, I'm also constantly paranoid during the few occasions that I'm allowed to go out. I feel extremely trapped and stagnant in this situation.
I'm raising money so I can move out and afford a one bedroom flat and start healing in a safer environment and to gain financial independence. I have a Badmin degree in Public management and International relations, and I have 2 years of experience in the work force, once I have my own place I can freely look for work and with the donations I gain through this funding I will successfully be able to live in a safer environment and become financially independent.
I will be extremely grateful to anyone that donates any amount at all. It has taken a lot for me to ask for help. I am very appreciative to those that have taken their time to read my story and I thank everyone that can help. If you have any questions or enquiries feel free to email me at Chelseasummer777@gmail.com.
