Walk Along The Street
Request: Hi can you please do one with John pre season 1 and Martha wasn’t around. Reader is super annoying and follows him around every where because she’s in love and she been doing it for a while, John always telling her to leave him alone but reader never does and one day he snaps and is like piss off so the reader finally does and he realizes that he actually likes having her around and stuff. Super fluff
Warnings: Language, alcohol
A/N: I wrote this without much thought so I don’t know how good it is. I’ve kinda given up with school and am just waiting for it to end at this point. Requests are still open and I’ve decided to write for Gangs of London just because I love Joe Cole.
John let out a sigh when he caught a light blue dress out of the corner of his eyes. He didn’t have to turn away from the conversation he was having with Arthur to know who was coming down the street. It was the same person that always seemed to be around every corner and always right in the way. If he were to be honest, it was fucking annoying.
“What are ya lookin’ at?” Arthur barked upon noticing his brother was no longer paying attention, instead staring at the brick wall behind them.
He shook his head, brushing off the question. If he paid any attention to the woman walking toward them, she would only linger longer than he wanted. “Nothing, nothing.”
“Good, Tommy wants ta talk to ya at the Garrison”
Of course, he did. Tommy always wanted to talk to him. It was never about anything important, just nonsense things he didn’t want to do himself. “Alright, don’t wait for me,” he grumbled and turned on his heel.
John didn’t get far, Arthur entering the betting shop behind him, before the blue dress came into view once more, this time right beside him.
“Good morning, John!” Y/n’s cheery voice floated through the air. With little to do that morning, she jumped in step beside him, something that wasn’t uncommon. Her hands held together by her chest, she played with her fingers as she smiled up at him.
Rolling his eyes, John said, “Yeah, good mornin’.” It was clear he wasn’t in the best mood, but that was alright. Y/n was happy enough for the both of them.
There was silence for a while. John wished he could escape the girl, but she was everywhere. No matter where he went, what part of town it was, it seemed she was always there. Y/n was like a lost puppy. It was cute at the beginning, but now… now he wanted to throw her in the canal.
“Don’t you have something better to do?” John questioned, his destination coming into sight, a safe haven in his eyes. She shook her head, smiling at him. He groaned, why would she have something to do? “Can’t you find something?”
“What’s there to do this early in the morning, John? Half the city’s still asleep,” she laughed, playfully hitting him on the shoulder.
He was saved from having to answer her question when they reached the Garrison steps, the place Tommy was having all his meetings for the day. “I have to go.” Y/n wasn’t given time to respond as John fled behind the pub’s doors.
John felt like he could finally breathe, away from her presence, his shoulders relaxing as he entered his family’s private room. He took his long overcoat off and threw it on an empty chair then dropped himself into the chair opposite of his brother.
“Rough morning” Tommy stated with a raised brow.
His brother shook his head, not even sure where to begin. “It’s fucking Y/n,” he sighed. “She’s everywhere. It’s fucking annoying.”
That earned an eye roll from Tommy as he asked the bartender for two glasses and a bottle of whiskey through the small window. When his request was filled and the drinks were poured, he handed a glass over to his brother, who clearly needed it. “What are you going to do about it?” he asked after John had downed all that was in the glass.
The man shrugged. What was there for him to do? He didn’t want to hurt her feelings by telling her to fuck off. By doing that, she’d probably cry and run to her mother, who would no doubt tell Polly. And John didn’t need his ass beat by his aunt, so that was off the table. To him, there seemed to be nothing he could do but let her leave on her own.
“Just tell her off,” his brother suggested.
John shook his head, “No, I don’t wanna hurt her feelings.” Looking up from his empty glass, he glared at the smug smile his brother gave him. “What?”
“You like her, don’t you?”
“No, I-” John grumbled before he was interrupted.
“Your temper isn’t easy to hide when your pissed off,” Tommy commented and took a sip of his whiskey. “If you didn’t care about her, if you didn’t like her, she would be long gone by now.”
His eyes dropped to the ground, perhaps he did feel something for her. John hadn’t realized it was that obvious, but Tommy picked up on even the little things. The one thing his brother didn’t realize, though, was that he couldn’t bring himself to act on his feels. He couldn’t face bringing another woman into his life after Martha. Whether it was love or lust when it came to his late wife was a mystery, but he couldn’t simply let her go. Not when he slept in the bed they once shared and saw her face in their children, who ran through the house like wild dogs.
“Do what you will, John, no one can stop you.”
A few days later, John did the last thing he wanted to do.
He told himself that Y/n would get bored of him and find someone that gave her all the attention she deserved. But there he was, walking home from Polly’s when she appeared by his side.
“It’s lovely weather today,” Y/n mused, gazing at the clear sky above. “I was told it was supposed to rain. Glad it didn’t.”
Something about the way she talked, how happy her voice was, how soft her presence was, coupled with the stress his family had put him under, set the man beside her off. John couldn’t handle the way his heartbeat around her, the rhythm it created, like a symphony. All he wanted was to feel nothing. He didn’t deserve love after all he’d done, at war and on the streets of Birmingham.
“Would you go home, Y/n?” John asked aggressively. It wasn’t meant to come out so harsh, but the damage was done when he saw her smile fall.
He sighed, “Because I’m sick and tired of you following me around like a fucking lost dog!” His voice echoed between the buildings as he threw his hands in the air. “Go find someone else to stalk!”
There were no tears like the man assumed would be streaming down her face. Instead, Y/n stood a little straighter, giving him a curt goodbye, before she turned in the opposite direction. There would be no tears over a man, no, she couldn’t have that. Not when she’d wasted so many on others that had broken her heart.
John hadn’t broken her heart, no. She’d broken it herself by getting her hopes up. By thinking that something, anything, would happen. What happened, in the end, was nothing but an outcome she hadn’t expected.
Y/n walked home, trying to keep herself together. She never meant to follow John around, it just happened that since they lived in the same area that their paths crossed all the time. After a few interactions, her heart overruled her brain, and she started to develop feelings for the man. Her parents didn’t approve when she’d confessed it to them as the Shelby’s were gypsies but she didn’t care.
So, whenever she saw John, she took it upon herself to get to know him better. Y/n was friendly, polite. Rarely did she flirt with him, believing that it would be enough if they became friends. It was clear John didn’t understand that.
“What’s wrong with him?” Polly gestured to John, who sat in the corner of the Garrison feeling sorry for himself.
Tommy glanced over at his brother and shook his head. “He told Y/n to fuck off and now he’s kicking himself for it.”
Polly scoffed, what idiots had she raised? “Let him suffer then. He deserves it for running a sweet girl like her off.”
And that is indeed what Tommy intended to do.
John sat in the corner all night, a bottle of whiskey by his side, as he tried to drown his sorrows. It didn’t work. With each swig of the bottle, the words he’d said to her blared in his ears. Why was he such a fucking fool? He liked her, he fucking liked her and instead of admitting his feelings, he yelled at her. What was wrong with him?
It had been nearly a week since he’d last talked, more like yelled, at her. Walking down the street was now a challenge as he felt lost without her by his side. His days were darker without her bubbly personality and he didn’t know how much longer he could live without her.
The next morning when John sobered up and downed a pot of coffee, he set out to Y/n’s house. He felt guilty for all that he’d done and knew if he didn’t fix it, it would start to eat him alive. With that in mind, he quickened his pace, practically running between the people on the street. It didn’t matter what she said, whether she accepted his apology with open arms or a closing door, he had to let her know her love was not in vain.
Out of breath, John walked up to her door, hesitant to knock. Just as his knuckles made contact with the hardwood, the door opened. Y/n let out a small squeal, bumping into the man, it was clear she wasn’t expecting anyone to be there. Taking a step back into the house, her eyes were cold as she glared at him.
John swallowed down his pride. He didn’t have to say anything to her, let her feel heartbroken as long as she wanted, but that wouldn’t make him feel any better. “Y/n, I-”
She raised a hand, stopping him before he could start. “I don’t want to hear it, John. I don’t want to hear your apology because you’ll just get annoyed with me later on down the road.” There was no warmth to her as if it’d been crushed when he told her off.
“Please, Y/n,” John begged. When she said nothing in response, simply folded her arms across her chest, he continued. “I know I shouldn’t have said what I did, I’ve been kicking myself for it every fucking day!” She scuffed. “I was annoyed and angry and I’m sorry I took that out on you. I’m sorry, can you forgive me… please.”
Y/n thought for a minute, letting silence fall between them. It wouldn’t be hard to accept his apology, not with the sadness that flickered in his eyes or the way his bottom lip trembled as it waited for her answer. It was shockingly clear in that moment how different he was from the rest of his family. John let his emotions take the reins, controlling his actions. He was human, touched by the tragedies around him, and was unafraid to let the world know how he felt.
Playing with her fingers, she met his eye. “I forgive you, but I suggest you get that temper of your’s in check,” she answered, a slight smile tugged at her lips.
No matter the words, a giant smile spread across his face, eyes lighting up at that fact he wasn’t turned away. “Can I take you to dinner then? To make up for lost time?”
As much as she wanted to say no, the words refused to form. Nodding, she smiled. “As long as there’s no yelling.”
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