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Even if It's Just Pretend, by nontoxic

“The queen wants to show that the prince and the First Son are still deeply in love and committed to their countries.” Ellen swallows. “They want you to go on a tour of the Commonwealth together, to get the public to see those emails not as a sex scandal, but an invasion of privacy of a wholesome, loving relationship.” “It was an invasion of privacy,” Alex says. He swallows. “Did they say what would happen if we say no?” Ellen’s lips pinch tightly at the corners. “Then they will issue a full denial and Henry will tour the commonwealth himself.” Alex doesn't hesitate. “Tell them we’ll do it. I’m not gonna let him do this alone." It would kill him. Henry hates this shit. The public parading, the judgment. Having to do all of that, and deny who he is? Alex at least wants to be there, to hold his hand through it. Even if it's just as a friend. It might kill Alex to pretend, but that’s a small price to pay to ensure Henry—his beautiful, vibrant, funny-as-hell, brilliant ex-not-quite-boyfriend—isn’t killed instead. --- or, the alex-never-goes-to-kensington-after-the-lake-house, exes-to-fake-dating-to-lovers fic.

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i owe so many replies and reblogs bc ive been kinda offline this week but IS ANYONE GOING TO THE LA SCREENING BC IM LOSING MY MIND AND MAYBE CONSIDERING USING SOME AIR MILES

okay i booked it who’s going 👀

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i owe so many replies and reblogs bc ive been kinda offline this week but IS ANYONE GOING TO THE LA SCREENING BC IM LOSING MY MIND AND MAYBE CONSIDERING USING SOME AIR MILES

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Six(ish) Sentence Sunday

I tripped into a new WIP document again, whoops. This one is even more self-indulgent than usual (which is fucking saying something) aaaaaaaaaaand I already had a wee cry writing the end of it—and yes, the end was almost the first thing I wrote. I'M SURE IT'S FINE. I also made a moodboard for Inspiration Weekend earlier today, and while I think the snippet below will give pretty much everyone a good GENERAL idea of what I'm doing here, the moodboard + a couple of other little meta hints will be enough for those in the know to figure out more SPECIFICALLY what I'm doing here (and therefore why I had a weep writing the ending).

“It’s called NORA.” Henry barely spares Alex a glance, heading straight for the controls; he and NORA know each other well enough by now that she hums to life under his palms. “Navigational Oscillation of Relative Astronomy. And before you ask, no, I didn’t come up with the name. I’d tell you to take it up with the Time Lords, but…” he trails off as Alex gasps loudly, realising too late that he forgot to warn the man before opening the doors.  “It’s… bigger! On the inside! From the outside it looks small, but then inside… all this space!” There’s something odd about the way Alex is holding himself—his too-bright expression as he looks around, the way his palm presses to the centre of his chest instead of over his heart—but Henry doesn’t have time to figure it out, nor to hold this stranger’s hand through a fairly basic level of dimensional transcendentality. His Alex is running around out there somewhere, wearing god-knows-which of his dozen faces and liable to return to NORA at some point. And if he finds out Henry’s here… He knows exactly what will happen if Alex—his Alex—finds him. Henry’s not an idiot, and his diary is almost full.  But that’s a problem for another time. Right now, he has a job to do. And this man who invited himself along, with the right name and the wrong face, is nothing short of a distraction.

Is tagging still borked? Who's to say.

@sparklepocalypse @stereopticons @tintagel-or-cockleshells @welcometololaland @whimsymanaged and, as always, anyone who wants to play! (If you take the open tag please tag me so I can see!!)

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hello friends 💕 thank you to everyone for all the tags over the last few days and weeks (I will tag under the cut). I have not written any words since i posted angel fic because the brain is mushy peas rn. Instead, here are some words I wrote yesterday unrelated to fic but related to me (tw parental illness / mental health).

btw the fic that made me cry was The Impossible Soul by @cha-melodius. Everyone should read it and weep. One of the best pieces of writing I've read in a long while.

I hope everyone had a nice week 💕 I have been off grid spending time with friends (irl AND fandom -@wordsofhoneydew , @inexplicablymine !) in an effort to spark joy again! Finding happiness in the little victories can be tough when your goals feel like mountains in the distance. It has been a journey.

also, a sincere and heartfelt thank you to anyone who has read, enjoyed, commented on, or yelled at me about my angel!henry fic. it has been a real light in my life right now to have this community of people engaging with a work that was both meaningful to me and cathartic to write. I am trying to practice what I preach as angel!henry and find peace in the small luxuries of life. Sometimes, this can be hard. For all of my friends who have dealt with mental illness or grief or loss or pain, I am here for you and I am holding out my hand. Much love always. 🤍

Thanks for helping me along. 🥰 Hope you have a good week ahead. I hope my muse returns soon. Maybe when the clouds part eventually! I am slowly chipping away at an angel fic epilogue. Hope you love. 🥰

xoxo roop

+ tags under the cut. sorry if I missed a tag or two, tumblr keeps eating my tags and drafts and it is not on purpose I promise 😭

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I was tagged by the lovely @myheartalivewrites, @kiwiana-writes, and @cha-melodius this week.

And I actually have seven+ sentences? In this economy? I know. I can't believe it either. MJ is working on A Thing and discussing that with him got me opening up my Doctor Who AU doc again... and this scene spilled onto my phone at 8AM this morning for no reason.

Here's just a few more than seven:

“You haven’t just met tonight, darlings.” Pez pauses. “Well, technically, you did—but tonight isn’t the first tonight you’ve had. Based on the time energy wafting off you, I’d venture you’ve had quite a few.” “Quite a few…” “Hundreds,” Pez says. “Quite a few hundreds, I’d say.” Alex wants to argue. He wants to say that’s impossible; he met Henry less than an hour ago. Except, when he looks into those vivid blue eyes, he knows—like a word on the tip of his tongue, a memory that he can’t quite place, an itch at the base of his skull. He can see it: the peeling corner of the wallpaper. All he needs to do is pull.

Tagging some lovelies under the cut. If you have not been tagged and you want to be, consider this your tag!

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some sentence sunday <3

and if i use this to plug my new fic about best friends fake proposing bc i literally just posted it... then what

& @suseagull04 for the tags!

here are six seven eight sentences to the fic that is posted HERE :)

Henry smiles at their waitress and reaches over to hold Alex’s chin gently between his thumb and forefinger. He fixes Alex with a fond gaze and says, “I’m the luckiest man all around.”  And then he leans in and presses a soft kiss to Alex’s cheek, his lips lingering. It makes Alex’s skin tingle, all of his attention zeroed in on those few small points of contact. He can’t help but melt into that touch, the warmth and tenderness spreading through his entire body until it’s all that he can feel—just Henry, his Henry.  That comfort is a steady heat in his body, sparking embers that make the world seem much less cold.  And then Henry nuzzles, his nose pressing into the skin of Alex’s cheek before he pulls away and— Oh.
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Thanks for the tags, @kiwiana-writes @myheartalivewrites @indestructibleheart and everyone else who has tagged me in these writing things lately. I promise I’m still here but things have been rough and the writing is going really, really slowly. So this is, in fact, four sentences, not seven. But it’s something!

“And what are you going to do?”
Henry cups Alex’s cheek in his palm and leans in for a kiss that’s part check-in, part promise of what’s to come and Alex is so fucking turned on already that he might die.
When he breaks the kiss, Henry leans back against the counter and picks up his mug again.
“I’m going to finish my tea.”
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Six(ish) Sentence Sunday

I said I wasn’t gonna share any more of the Anastasia AU considering how much I’ve shared already. Turns out I lied 😂 After publishing two fics in the last week, including the snippet y’all salivated over on Wednesday, I just straight up didn’t have any more new words in me this weekend. So have some slightly older—but I believe as yet unseen—words instead 😉

“Do you have any idea,” Alex starts, no greeting or acknowledgement that these are the first words they’ve exchanged in three years in sight as he runs a hand through his curls, “how many James Smiths there are in the DMV?”
“A great deal, I should imagine.” James’ eyes absolutely do not follow the way Alex’s fingers run through his hair before disappearing into the pocket of his chinos. He’s well aware that his name is nothing special; he’ll never know if the choice was a deliberate on, picked to ensure that he would be lost in a sea of anonymity.
“About 738, according to my friend Nora. It sure fucking felt like it when I was combing through social media profiles to find out where you worked.” He glances over at Tiff, whose gaze is flickering between the two of them; James can now more easily interpret the expression he couldn’t before. It’s something that’s half holy hell, he’s even more attractive in person and half what does the First Son want with you?
James can’t bring himself to disagree with either assertion.
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I find myself in a kind of funny place this Sunday, having just posted a fic, and sitting on two completed one-shots (fandom fest fills) just about ready to dole out this week. One is a secret. Here are seven sentences of the other.

The eyes are the hardest part, or so Nora says. All the Secret Service agents’ eyes have a kind of strange metallic glint behind them. Often it’s not even noticeable, but if you look too closely, it becomes obvious. Prince Henry’s eyes are flawless, though. Just endless, perfect blue. Really, the only flaw Alex can see in this model is that they made him inhumanly beautiful. No real person has lips like that.

I'm thinking about trying to bang out some more short fandom fest fills before I dive into something more substatial (which should be my RBB fic).

Thanks for the tags today @kiwiana-writes, @suseagull04, and @cricketnationrise. I'm leaving my traditional open tag, and also tagging... eta: wow the tagging is really fucking broken today. I even tried to type y'all's usernames in manually and tumblr just said no to most of them. 😢 eta2: ok, so it's limiting me to 5 tags per paragraph break? Oh, tumblr...

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Seven Sentence Sunday

thank you @suseagull04 and @heysweetheart-writes for the tags and here's hoping tags work now? if you tagged me and I didn't see it bc of tumblr glitching I'm so sorry!! feel free to send it to me or tag me in the comments or something <3

Working on another rizcriz prompt this week - this one is best friends fake proposing to each other at restaurants to get free desserts! But, of course, those pesky feelings just always tend to get in the way, don't they?

“Why did you do it?” Henry's voice shocks him, fracturing that silence with its sharp edge. Alex already knows, but he still asks, “Do what?”  “Kiss me.”  To sell the bit gets caught behind Alex's teeth, the words too heavy on his tongue to slip past his lips. His instinct is to deflect, to toss his vulnerable heart into a locked box inside his already cracked open chest. It's a defense mechanism, a desperate desire to protect himself from giving too much away, from admitting that he's fallen in love with his best friend so irreversibly that he'll never recover from a rejection.
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@strandnreyes @kiwiana-writes and @sznofthesticks - can't wait to read your snippets!

i'm back on my eurotrip bs (aim is to make it to 100k this week!) and i tried to actually make this 7 sentences:

“I’ll try my best not to kiss you.” “I think we might be asked to leave.” Alex shrugs. “If we didn’t burn in the Vatican, sweetheart, we’re not going to burn here.” “That was before I got you off in the shower,” Henry murmurs, watching Alex’s head snap towards him at a speed that might make someone suggest he undergo an exorcism. “I’ve really ruined you now.” “Confessional sex is definitely off the cards then.”

open tag for anyone who would like to participate and some rwrb-centric tags below since it's been a while since i've roped in the firstprince baddies.

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WARM LIKE THE GLOW THAT YOU FEEL HEAD TO TOE

[rated E; 5,131 words]

Alex swallows audibly, eyes darting all over Henry’s face. “Your Ro— Henry.” And oh, that’s the timbre with which Henry wants to hear his name come out of Alex’s mouth; it’s low and a little frantic, and it tugs at something in Henry’s navel. “I’m twice your age.”  “Do you think I’m twenty?” “Jesus Christ, I rounded for dramatic effect.” Alex fixes him with a look that’s half frustration, half something Alex is trying very hard not to let show. The thing is, though, that Henry became an expert at covert glances and hidden signals during his time at Oxford, and he’d bet his entire ridiculous Crown allowance that Alex wants him as badly as he wants Alex.

Or, Alex is a senator; Henry is a prince who knows exactly what he wants.

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