i usually don’t talk about my doubts, because as a Paranoid Bitch i’m lowkey convinced that the more i talk about them, the more likely they are to become reality, but i wanted to say this:
i doubt, 24/7. it’s due to a lot of things, one of the largest of which, admittedly, is my own inability to trust my own instincts and readings, but there’s a lot more that goes into it. i know what it’s like to become despondent because you think that it won’t happen. i live with that fear constantly. the mildest, least-related things can trigger it to become suddenly much worse, too. early last year, when they were doing setlock, there was some tweet that was sent about tea that for some reason triggered me into having a meltdown + panic attack, because for a few minutes it convinced me that not only that it wouldn’t happen, but they would make sher/o//y canon. over tea. i have crises similar to that usually at least once a week.
to get to my point, though: i’ve come to accept these doubts, and move on and have fun in the meantime. please don’t give up just because your belief isn’t at 100% anymore. doubts are natural, especially in the face of something like this, and you’ve got more than every reason to have them – but at this point, what’s going to happen is going to happen. in my experience, it’s more fun to live at least in tentative hope, rather than complete doubt. hope, at least, helps get me through.
in short, please don’t give up quite just yet. we’ve got three days until we know for sure. let’s make the most of them.
