I will also step out of the line to give you some advices, you can accept them or just ignore them, it doesn’t matter to me, I just want to help you feel a little better because I like you as a person even though we didn’t talk much and it makes me sad to see you having an hard time over stupid drama (sorry but dramas on the internet always sound crazy stupid to me because it explodes like a shitstorm and then litteraly NOTHING constructive comes out of it, just a big mess of angry screams and tears … I just don’t see the point of it)
A french streamers talked about that fact yesterday and I whish you could speak french to hear his experience and take note : people working on social media are exposed to depression when all their sense of self-worth regarding their job revolve around likes and shares and comments and subscribers and all those virtual yet concret numbers. When you’re a Youtuber or a Streamer or wathever, you have to pay attention to those numbers because it says a lot about your income and it’s simply part of your job but we will not talk about that subtility because your ARE NOT in that situation. And you shouldn’t forget that. Don’t forget why you’re doing this : it’s not for fame, it’s not for money, it’s not to prove your self-worth to the world, it’s just for FUN and to train your skills. Everything else doesn’t deserve your concern, just you having the time on your life and getting better at what you’re doing. Honestly, what’s the difference between 100 and 10.000 likes for YOU irl ? Will 10.000 likes make you a better artist or a better person ? Will likes help you pay your bills and feed something else than your broken ego ? Every person on this damn net will tell you that their video/art/post that got the more views isn’t their best shot. So fuck all that shit, just be yourself and that’s it. Your goal isn’t to be forged by your subscribers, it’s your community that have to be forged by your content. Those who don’t like you and your art (is impossible to please everybody, it’s a NORMAL thing and you shouldn’t be afraid of being hated by someone, especially if you don’t know them irl) will look away and …. That’s it …. You won’t die from it and it doesn’t mean your art is bad just that someone didn’t like it which is totally not the same thing. So here are my advices, feel free to ignore them haha :
1. Stop watching your subs and unsubs … personnally I can’t see when someone unfollowed me (I don’t know where to look at and I don’t care lol) and I feel like it’s saving me from so much stress haha It’s like admitting I’m just being myself and if people don’t like me then they are free to leave
2. Stop trying to be loved by everyone. Some people don’t care about loving you or discovering new perspectives for them to like … they just want everything to be the same, they are like the Procustes of the internet haha But all those Procustes don’t have the same mould so trying to fit into every single shape will just drive you crazy and you will lost yourself in the process. Not every love is worth your attention, especially when love and hate are mixed together. If you’re confronting a toxic person who just wants to fuck you up because you’re their target of the day and they’re doing all this shitstrom for the sake of bringing you down and not to help you rise as a better person, then you should learn how to let it go and leave them in their own mess. Stay strong and know who you are and where you’re standing. Don’t let random people on the internet define you
3. Learn the difference between constructive and malicious criticism. Take a step back and ask yourself why this person is saying this ? What’re their real interests ? Are they qualified/pro/have experiences in editing ? And, the most important part, do YOU agree with them ? (when you study art, the first thing you learn is EVERYTING is debatable so you shouldn’t feel bad because you simply don’t agree with someone else point of view even if it’s about your own art. You make choices constantly when you create, so you shouldn’t be afraid to own some of them). Criticisms are a blessing from your subs … when they aren’t made to destroy a part of you or just to make you look bad without any contrast
Good luck dear @aizawashoutta <3 take care of yourself and have fun godamnit ! Sorry if it’s confusing, my english doesn’t seem to be working correctly today hahaha