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this love i found

day two of @tinycozycomfort and i’s joeltober: fluid exchange

pairing: joel miller x fem!reader

rating: 18+ MDNI

summary: after making a scene in the dining hall over someone who’s been flirting with joel, he takes you back home to remind you who you belong to.

word count: 3k

warnings: smut, fluid exchange, rough piv sex, vaginal fingering, cream pie, come eating, pet names (little girl, honey, baby, etc), daddy kink, dom/sub dynamics, age gap (joel is 56, reader is in her 20s)

For Tonight

(Before outbreak) Joel x Reader (a little bit of Tommy x Reader)

Warning : reader is 22 years old and joel is 32. Handjob, cursing, implied spice, mature content.

Summary : you were hooking up with Tommy for a bit, but nothing serious. Once you met his older brother, Joel….you didn’t want to end things just yet.

Word count : 2.8k words

A/N : I suck at summaries lol. Anyways it’s been a minute. Hope this was good enough. I’m rusty! Lmao feedback is always welcomed! Thank you!

Tommy was just a guy I’d hook up with here and there. He wasn’t anything serious. Just something to get me by for now while I figured out what the hell I wanted to do with my life.

Tommy was only 3 years older than me. He was unpredictable, and low maintenance. It was exactly what I needed in the short span of time. That was until I met his brother, Joel.

One night, about a month or so ago…Tommy had asked for me to drop off his jacket at his brothers house. Apparently he never told Joel so that conversation was a bit awkward.

But when I saw him, I felt something tug at me like an unexplainable magnetic pull. He was definitely good looking if I had to be honest. But I knew I had to shake my thoughts. I was kind of seeing his brother.

He flashed a smile, which almost made my knees melt.

Since then, I had ended up back at that same house to meet Tommy or to hang out with the both of them. I knew my feelings for Tommy weren’t that strong enough for me to meet family and spend this much time with him, but I couldn’t help it. I wanted to see Joel. To be near him. I hated myself for feeling this way to begin with. Using someone to get with someone else ALWAYS ends up bad.

Whenever I came over and saw him, he always made me feel some type of way. He was sweet, and funny, always knew how to make me laugh. Even on hard days.

Joel wasn’t always so chatty with me. He had moments when he kept to himself, I mean—it took a few weeks before he had a full on conversation with me.

But when he finally opened up, even just a bit, I loved every second I had spent with him.

Besides, I was sure nothing was ever going to happen, I just wasn’t ready to end things with Tommy yet, because that meant I’d have to say goodbye to Joel as well.

I sat between the boys on the couch, watching a zombie movie; a new weekly tradition. It was hard to keep my composure every time Joel’s knee brushed against mine.

Tommy hadn’t seem to notice though. He had his arm over me, talking over the movie which irked me more than anything else.

“I swear these movies only ever get worse!” He cackled, pulling me closer to him.

—

Joel’s POV

Sitting on this small couch, so close to her, it made it hard for me to focus on anything but her.

I would be lying to myself if I said I didn’t feel something for her. But I knew my place, she was my little brothers girlfriend for God’s sake. I couldn’t be thinking of her in any way other than Tommy’s girl. So, she was off limits.

She adjusted herself, probably trying to get comfortable in between two big dudes on this tiny ass couch.

But every time I felt her pressed against my side, a sudden electric jolt seemed to race through me. I tried to hold my composure…I tried to seem like I didn’t notice the way she laughed at the awful jokes in the movie or the way she pushed her hair back with her hand, radiating a scent of her shampoo every time she did. I worked hard to keep my cool, to suppress my reaction.

How Tommy ended up with someone as amazing as her, I will never know but damn…was he a lucky son of a bitch.

“Looks like we ran out of beer.” Tommy exclaimed, propping up on his feet. He caught not only my attention but hers as well.

“Need me to get some more—“

“Nah I’ll get it. I need to buy a pack of smokes too.” He looked to her and pressed a quick peck to her lips, and suddenly a tinge of jealousy washed over me.

I shoved my hands deep into my pockets, balling them into fists to help keep my cool.

“D-do you want me to go?” She asked him.

Tommy shook his head, “it’s okay babe. I’ll be back. You look like you’re really into the movie anyways.” He chuckled.

And with that, he grabbed my keys; “hey—“

“Don’t worry Joel, I’ll bring your truck back in one piece.”

I sat back into the couch and groaned, no point in fighting with him over it.

Once he left, tension started to brew or so it felt. I had been alone with her before but this time felt different. This time, I had spent more time with her so my feelings were stronger than all the other times. It wasn’t just pure lust anymore. I was genuinely captivated by her and I couldn’t shake it.

“Your brother is something else…” she drawled out, still sitting beside me though there was more room on the couch now. Not that I’m complaining.

“Yep. That’s Tommy for ya.” I said, trying not to move too much.

“I think he’s cheating on me.” She went on. “That’s why he didn’t want me to go.”

I shot my gaze to hers, furrowing my brows. “Tommy?”

She didn’t seem upset, she seemed sort of relaxed as she nodded. “Yeah, I heard him on the phone the other day. I think her name is Maria.” She said. “I overheard him say he missed her and then called her baby.”

My eyes grew wide. Tommy cheating on her with a girl named Maria? He never mentioned anything to me which wasn’t a surprise. He never really talked to me much about the women he dated. Shit, I probably only ever met two of his girlfriends.

“Probably meeting her now.” She said, snapping me back to reality.

“A-and you’re not mad?” I asked.

She shook her head and a sigh escaped her lips. “Can I be honest with you?”

—

Your POV

My stomach churned with anxiety. I was going to tell Joel the truth and part of me was scared shitless. I didn’t know what he was gonna think or say, and I also didn’t want him to hate me.

Before I said anything, I took a big breath; there was no turning back now.

“I’ve been wanting to break up with Tommy for quite some time now.” I blurted.

Joel swallowed hard once he met my gaze. It was always hard to read him to figure out what he was thinking but it was especially hard to read him right now.

“Y-you—I had no idea…” he said, scratching the back of his head. “Why?”

Shit…he probably hates me now.

“Tommy and I were really just friends with benefits, ya know? It wasn’t anything serious—“

“Could’ve fooled me.” He interrupted.

Yeah—he definitely hates me.

“I mean he’s a great guy just, not for me.”

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Joel’s POV

My head was spinning, different thoughts running through my mind as I heard her talk about wanting to break up with Tommy.

“I mean, he’s a great guy, just not for me.” She said.

No words formed in my mind. I just sat there, silently not knowing what to even say.

I could see that she was growing more anxious as time passed, she had sat up straight, staring at me with furrowed brows. “Please say something.” She whispered.

“Why didn’t you break up with him when you wanted to?”

She looked down quickly…was she—was she flustered? I couldn’t really tell.

“I—I….I wanted to keep seeing you.”

Suddenly it felt like everything had froze in time, only she and I were moving. I never expected her to say this let alone tell me that she wanted to keep seeing me. I couldn’t lie…a part of me felt shitty cuz Tommy is my brother but the other part…that part loved this. My whole body felt like it was burning. I wanted nothing more than to get up and grab her. To taste her and feel her against me. I had thought about it for weeks. Especially at night, when I was alone in bed…she took up every fuckin corner of my thoughts and damn…the things I wanted to do to her.

I adjusted myself, feeling myself grow harder just by the thought alone. I pulled a pillow over my lap, hoping she didn’t notice.

This can’t happen..right? It’s like an unwritten rule to not sleep with your friends or your brothers girl. No matter if it were serious or not. But damn, the longer I stared at her, the more I was ready to lose it all and fold. My body ached to feel her against me.

She reached out and placed her hand on my thigh, making my breath hitch to the back of my throat. Her touch alone made me want to rip my own skin off just to get rid of these urges. She had no idea how close she was to just getting picked up and thrown over my shoulder while I take her to my room.

I wanted her more now than ever.

“Please say something,” her voice was low, almost like a whisper.

Fuck. It’s over.

“You and Tommy—y’all really are just hookin up? It ain’t anything serious?”

Just then she bit on her lower lip and damn if that didn’t just throw me over the edge.

“I’m telling you Joel, it’s not serious at all. I really think he’s out there right now, meeting this Maria chick.”

I took in a deep breath, trying to focus on what I should do rather than just taking her right here and now.

“I mean, he should’ve been back by now. The gas station is literally down the street.” She added.

That was true. It usually only takes about ten minutes to get there, buy what you needed and drive back. And he never took this long.

“Let me call him…see where he’s at.” I say.

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Your POV

I honestly couldn’t believe I told him everything. I told him that the reason I stayed with Tommy was for him.

That’s his younger brother for crying out loud. There’s no way he’d be okay with me now. Why would he?!

“Let me call him…see where he’s at.” He says.

He pulled his phone out and called Tommy right away, glancing at me then straight forward.

I didn’t realize my hand was still on his thigh, and as I was about to move it, I barely lifted it up before he grabbed it with his free hand and held it to his thigh again.

Did he actually want me to touch him? Did he want me just as much as I wanted him??

“Tommy, where the hell ya at?” He groaned, looking at me.

I couldn’t help but glance at his lips, wishing I could taste them, feel them against mine. I bet they feel smooth. Without realizing, I pulled my bottom lip in between my teeth, trying to fight my urge to kiss him.

“Tommy—it doesn’t take you this long to get a pack of beers and cigarettes.” He pulled the phone away and covered it with his hand. “I think you’re right. I don’t think he’s alone.” He whispers.

Tommy wasn’t that great at hiding things. He tried for the life of him, but I knew something was up when he would disappear randomly, leaving me alone with Joel or his friends. Not see me for a couple days then show up out of nowhere. It was obvious.

“Told you.” I said.

This would have hurt me if it were someone I actually cared about, but if I were being honest…I was actually kind of relieved.

This meant I had no guilt to feel this way. But it also meant that I was basically free to do what I wanted.

And I know once I officially break things off with Tommy, I’ll most likely never see Joel again.

So…I needed to make this time count. I needed to show him just how bad I wanted him. I moved the pillow that was on his lap.

“Tommy—“

He stopped talking the moment he felt my hand at the top of his pants. Our gaze locked, but not one word was spoken. I took his silence and the fact that he didn’t push me away, as a sign that he wanted this just as bad as I did.

“Yea—I hear ya.” He cleared his throat.

I unbuttoned his pants and slowly slipped my hand in, and under his boxers. My hand wrapped around his hard dick and instantly he let out a soft moan. “Oh god dammit.” He exhaled, tilting his head back, taking his free hand and pressing it against his eyes.

I started to pump up and down, still watching him.

“Fuck…”he whispered. “T-Tommy, I—I got to go. I uh—dropped my—my computer.”

I couldn’t help but chuckle at his mix up. I guess he liked the way my hand felt around him.

Joel hung up his phone and tossed it to the side.

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Joel’s POV

The way her hand felt against my hard dick made me shudder. Every nerve in my body felt like it were on fire.

I tossed my phone to the side, not giving two shits about Tommy right now. All I cared about was her.

“Fuck—get over here.” I said with a stern voice.

I grabbed her face with my hand and forcibly pulled her toward me and closed the distance between us. Her lips tasted like her strawberry chapstick and I swear I was so close to just ripping her fucking clothes off. Fuck I want her bad.

I pulled her into my lap, making her straddle me on the couch. My hands quickly start running along her body, feeling her, digging my fingertips into her to bring her closer to me. I needed her. I needed to hear her moan and feel her clench around me.

“Oh god…you’re so…fuck” I couldn’t even finished a fucking sentence. No words could describe how badly I wanted her, how much I wanted to get her out of her clothes, how I just wanted to lay her down in front of me and enjoy every inch of her. I was losing control over myself. I was desperate. So fucking desperate to make her mine.

She nibbled on my bottom lip and slightly pulled back. Making me groan in pleasure. I start to kiss and bite on the nape of her neck, and the moment she let out a moan, I stopped.

She looked at me, confused, her brows furrowing.

“W-why did you stop?” She asked.

I wanted to tear the clothes off her right now but I needed to know one thing. “Are you sure about this? Because once I start this, I won’t be able to stop. I want you so fucking bad.”

I held her gaze with mine. If it were anyone else, I probably would have just risked it all but she was different. I needed her to tell me she wanted this.

She nodded. “I’m sure.” She breathed out.

I shook my head. “No. I need to hear you say it. I need to hear you say you want me to fuck you.”

Her eyes grew wide for just a moment but then softened. “I need you to fuck me, Joel. I need you…now.” She said.

I pulled her back to me, pressing my lips to hers more fervently. There’s no turning back now. By tonight she would be mine, and I will be hers.

I tore her shirt off not giving a fuck about ruining it. “I’ll give you my shirt once I’m done with you.” I said, to reassure her. “But right now, these clothes are in the fucking way.” I snarled.

She let out a soft moan. “I don’t even care about them, just rip it off of me.”

I groaned into her, the power she had over me was almost unbearable. And I fucking loved it.

“That’s my girl.”

I ripped into her bra, and tossed it to the side. The moment her boobs came into view, I felt the blood rush straight to my dick. She was fucking beautiful and I couldn’t wait to show her just how bad I wanted her. My hands lightly cupped her breasts, her nipples slipped in between my fingers. She could only moan from my touch.

“You like when I touch you, don’t you?” I asked her, not once tearing my gaze from hers.

“Mhm.” Was all she could muster out.

“Good, because tonight you’re mine. Got it? All mine.”

Writing prompts - 11

1. Do you ever wonder when you became the very thing you’re afraid of? 2. When you love someone, it’s worth fighting for. No matter what the odds. 3. Friends don’t let friends do stupid shit alone. 4. You’re leaving because it’s easier to walk away than to fight for what you really want 5. I really don’t let myself cry in front of anybody 6. I need to learn to stop caring 7. Pretending not to love you was the hardest thing I ever had to do. 8. You took a piece of me and I let you. 9. We’re friends, real friends and that means no matter how long it takes, when you finally decide to look back, I’ll still be here. 10. It wasn’t over, it still isn’t over! 11. So you think I’m broken? Then fix me. 12. If you love someone, you tell them. Even if you’re scared that it’s not the right thing. Even if you’re scared it’ll cause problems. You say it, you say it loud. 13. There is nothing worse in the world than thinking you have a chance when you really don’t 14. Don’t you understand? I can’t leave you, but you’re constantly leaving me. 15. I only wanted you to be happy, I’m just sorry it couldn’t be with me. 16. I’m still in love with you. I tried not to be, but it didn’t work. 17. What if nobody ever loves me? 18. You’re perfect. Which is beyond annoying, I can’t look at you. 19. I love you and I’m always going to love you, but I don’t want to love you. I want to be happy. 20. You don’t destroy the person you love 21. If I murder someone, you are the person id call to help me drag the body across the floor. You’re my person. 22. If there’s no food, I’m going home 23. We should be drunk, why aren’t we drunk? 24. I’m standing here, looking at you and all I want to do is kiss you. 25. I have to walk away from you, I have to for me. 26. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I love you when I knew I did. 27. I can’t imagine a day when I won’t be in love with you 28. You bother the hell out of me 29. All I want is you! 30. Since when do I care about anyone’s happiness but mine? 31. I will always find you 32. If people are suppose to be together, they will find a way. 33. You may have noticed, but I’m not all there myself 34. Come bother me 35. I just want you to be happy 36. How do you begin to explain something that you can’t even understand yourself? 37. Everything around me makes me miss you 38. Nothing about us feels right anymore 39. You have to promise me, you won’t fall in love with me. 40. I don’t want to be just the next girl 41. You wanna dance with me? 42. Sometimes, you fall for someone you didn’t expect but that doesn’t make it wrong 43. Every time I look at you, it hurts 44. Shouldn’t we hold out for the person who doesn’t just tolerate our little quirks, but actually kind of likes them? 45. I’m happy your happy, but dammit what if? 46. You are the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning 47. I shouldn’t be feel this way about you, but I do. And it’s driving me insane. 48. I know you’re mad at me, but I need help with my tie 49. What am I to you? 50. So whose the unlucky girl? 51. I love you so much, I just want you to be happy. Even if that happiness no longer includes me. 52. You are the most beautiful person I have ever met and somehow, I don’t know, somehow you chose me. 53. What I’m about to say is the most selfish thing I’ve ever said in my life. 54. The first rule of truly living, is to do the thing you’re most afraid of. 55. The truth is, I’ve tried to stop thinking of you, but I cant 56. I’m mad at you because I love you! 57. I try so hard and I’m never the one 58. You’re jealous aren’t you? 59. Why are you so annoying? 60. Never in a million years 61. I might have had a few shots 62. I could kiss you right now! 63. It’s your fault we are in this mess. 64. I hate you 65. Just admit you’re wrong! 66. I need you to do me a huge favor 67. Well this is awkward 68. “When you love someone, you just don’t stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. Specially then! 69. “If you’re not scared, then you’re not taking a chance. If you’re not taking a chance, then what the hell are we doing anyway? 70. Those things you said yesterday… Did you mean them? 71. All nighter, you and me. First one to fall sleep buys the other dinner. 72. It’s midnight, what do you want? 73. Okay, am I drunk or did you really just say that? 74. I’m too sober for this shit 75. Just pretend to be my date 76. I can’t believe you dragged me into this 77. Quick, kiss me! 78. Out of all the people in the world, I get stuck with you 79. You’re going to love me. Watch, you’ll see 80. It’s midnight, what do you want? 81. I wish I never laid eyes on you. I wish we never met. If I never laid eyes on you then I wouldn’t have fallen in love 82. I’m not a fantasy. If you want me, earn me! 83. Are you wearing my shirt? 84. Don’t look at me like that 85. Being your friend is basically ruining my life 86. If you leave, I will literally go out of my freakin mind. 87. I just want the chance to be yours again 88. Stop saying you’re sorry 89. I’ve been in love with her/him my entire life! And I think she/he loves me too. 90. It hurts so bad I can’t breathe 91. you’re my best friend. And if anything were to happen to you, I would lose my mind 92. That’s the problem, I don’t want to hate you. Because if I hate you then I’ll have nothing left 93. How about that dance? 94. Hold my hand dammit, we gotta make this look convincing! 95. Wait, am I dreaming or are you actually smiling? 96. Just do this for me and I promise I will make it worth your while! 97. I never had a minute to think about how I feel about you 98. I came here to win you back, and dammit, I’ll do whatever I have to 99. Why do you care? It’s not like we’re friends or anything. 100. Words don’t mean anything to me! You know what does? Taking action 101. The thing is, I can’t pretend we never happened because I’m still in love with you 102. We could’ve had a life together 103. Hold on to me 104. Can you stay? Please? 105. Let’s go somewhere, anywhere in the world. Just you and me. 106. You only get one life. It’s actually your duty to live it as fully as possible 107. I can make you happy 108. Do it, I dare you! 109. I’m not freaking out, are you freaking out? 110. You are never too old for a Disney movie 111. College AU 112. You’re my new dream 113. You mean more to me than anyone in this whole wide world 114. I’ll always catch you 115. Wait, what are the rules again? 116. That’s no fair! You cheated! 117. Neighbors 118. I’ll race you 119. I look at you and I’m home 120. True love is putting someone else before yourself 121. And when I promise something, I never ever break that promise. Ever. 122. I think about you a lot more than I probably should. 123. What do you wish for at night? 124. I told you not to fall in love with me. 125. Coffee shop au 126. How drunk are you right now? 127. Can we just stay in bed and cuddle? Watch some Disney movies? 128. I think I’m falling in love with you 129. This stays between us 130. You have ten minutes, so make it quick. 131. You owe me, big time. 132. If you make fun of me one more time, I’m gonna tell everyone we know that you named your favorite pillow Mr. Puff Puff. 133. If your house was on fire and you only had ten seconds to save something important, what would you get? 134. So I was–don’t move! There’s a spider on your shoulder! 135. How the hell do I end up with hufflepuff!? 136. Okay, it’s settled.you are officially my zombie apocalypse partner. 137. What is the point of being alive if you don’t try to do something remarkable 138. Sometimes you make choices in life and sometimes choices make you 139. When you meet the right person, you know it. You can’t stop thinking about them. They’re your best friend and your soul mate. You can’t wait to spend the rest of your life with them. No one and nothing else can compare. 140. When you find someone you want to keep around, you do something about it. 141. You’re just as screwed up as I am, I like you. 142. Doctor au 143. You’re insane, you know that? 144. But what if we get caught!? 145. Comic con au 146. You are really comfortable. 147. Just kiss me already 148. You made me love you and I hate you for that! 149. Why are you smiling at me like that? 150. I know I shouldn’t but I can’t stop thinking about you

Writing Prompt 12

1. “Here, just wear my shirt.”

2. “Okay am I drunk or did you really just say that?”

3. “You’re beautiful, you know that?” 

4. “I know you hate me, but I love you.”

5. “well this is awkward…”

6. “Out of all the people in the world, I get stuck with you.” 

7. “You’re pregnant?” 

8. “A fake engagement? are you crazy?” 

9. “It’s your birthday. I wanted it to be special.”

10. “I’m tired of playing games.”

11. “You bought us a house?”

12. “We have to make this believable, dammit!” 

13. “You will always be my person.”

14. “would you like to order some pizza and get really drunk with me?”

15. “I’ll take you, wherever you want.”

16. “What I’m about to say is probably the most selfish thing I’ve ever said in my life. I love you.”

17. “If you want to forget it happened, fine. But I can’t.”

18. “I try to hide my feelings, but it only gets worse.”

19. “After a while, I just stopped waiting.”

20. “Maybe I missed you a little.”

It has been hard for me to talk about how what is going on with Israel and Palestine is affecting me personally, but I grew up in Gaza and most of my family still lives there. My father did not survive the bombings last week and I have not been able to contact my younger sister in days. I am try to being understanding that most people do not have personal connections to what is happening and therefore are justifying their silence, but is heartbreaking to see this misinformation being spread. What’s happening there is a genocide, not a war. It is not antisemitic to support Palestine, it’s not even antiemetic to criticise Israel. There is no grey area or neutrality regarding this, and it is so easy to find resources that will educate you on the subject. It is my people and my home being destroyed so I will never be silent about this, but I please urge everyone to get informed and start speaking up and finding ways they can help.

decolonizepalestine has tons of information on Palestine’s history/propaganda that has been spread throughout the years

UK citizens can email their MP asking for a ceasefire

US citizens can call/email their local government officials asking for a ceasefire

Jewish Voice for Peace also has many resources for ways for US citizens to get involved, including protests

Donate to Palestine Children’s Relief Fund

Donate to Medical Aid for Palestine

Donate to help get food and hygiene kits to Gaza

Pretty When You Cry

no use of y/n in this fic

Click to read part 1: Dark But Just a Game

Click to read part 3: Let Me Love You Like a Woman

ok y’all here she is!! thank you thank you for the reblogs on part 1! this piece and the last were slightly inspired by the dbf!joel miller drabbles by @anchoeritic, which you can read here. once again, love hearing your feedback, negative and positive, & my requests are always open<3

-em<333

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It had been months since you’d last seen him.

Joel and Tess had a tendency of disappearing for weeks on end, taking the riskier smuggling jobs that nobody else dared to. How they managed to fly under FEDRA’s radar time and time again remained a mystery to all. The pair had to be extremely well connected on both ends of the spectrum.

It was easy to pretend that nothing had changed. He’d left without a word the morning after the party, taking Tess and a great deal of your father’s ammo along with him. It’s not like you’d expected a warning, much less a goodbye, but his departure still felt so sudden, so pointed. The next day, all he’d left you with was a constellation of light bruises between your thighs and a small, white pill in a dime bag tucked under your bedroom door.

So you went on with your life, only allowing your thoughts to wander in his direction when you’d had too much to drink or whenever you heard the word ‘sweetheart.’

Then, this morning—rubbing sleep from your eyes, you’d stumbled down to the main floor in a scant excuse for pajamas, failing to register the multitude of voices at the base of the stairs in your half-awake state.

And there he was, his spread legs taking up half of the shabby couch, one arm draped casually over the back, his other relaxed at his side. A deer in headlights, you screeched to a stop as soon as you were conscious enough to recognize him, frozen in his gaze as he briefly took you in—one hand shifting subtly to pull at the fabric of his jeans. Then, he looked away, his features hardening into a mask of nonchalance and indifference.

No acknowledgment, no greeting, no nothing.

Great. Things were back to how they’d been before he’d fucked you dumb on a wooden desk.

Scampering back up the stairs, you sealed yourself back into your bedroom, doing your very best to ignore the heat building between your legs.

A heat that only Joel-Fucking-Miller could entice from you.

Leaning your forehead against the door, you kicked yourself mentally for running away from the (non)interaction like a scared little kid. Where had that bygone, unchecked confidence gone? Where was that fearless playfulness you’d so often used against him?

Fine. If Joel wanted to pretend that nothing had happened between you two, he was leaving you with two options.

The first was to ignore him back.

No, you decided. That would be exactly what he’d want of you—what he’d expect of you.

To make things easy for him.

Conveniently, your second option was to make things really, really hard for him. To make it impossible for him to ignore you.

This was too good!! 😩😩

Dark but Just a Game

no use of y/n in this fic.

Click to read part 2: Pretty When You Cry

Click to read part 3: Let Me Love You Like a Woman

ahhhh this is my first time writing for joel so any and all feedback is super appreciated. i was slightly inspired by the amazing dbf!joel drabbles that @anchoeritic writes (seriously, if you enjoy this fic, go read them). as always, my requests are open !!

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THEN,

It started out so innocently.

Your dad often helped Tess and Joel smuggle contraband in and out of the QZ, sometimes by keeping the right people quiet, other times by offering the pair a place to lay low at. You got accustomed to the sight of them passed out on the floor, the glow of the sunrise illuminating only their sleeping faces, or else a murmuring trio of hushed voices in the middle of the night.

Soon, however, you began to notice the way Joel’s eyes seemed to trail on you, often catching his hardened gaze in yours. Still, he rarely spoke to you and when he did, he mostly just grunted a “hullo” or asked if your father was around.

But you suspected that he noticed you.

Especially when your old clothes got too tight, hugging your skin and leaving little to the imagination. You observed his breath hitching the very first time he saw you in a skirt.

So, naturally, you played into it. You started sneaking downstairs in the morning wearing only a t-shirt and your underwear, feigning innocence at the way (you imagined) he tried, hard, not to look at your ass as you sauntered back up to your room.

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For Tonight

(Before outbreak) Joel x Reader (a little bit of Tommy x Reader)

Warning : reader is 22 years old and joel is 32. Handjob, cursing, implied spice, mature content.

Summary : you were hooking up with Tommy for a bit, but nothing serious. Once you met his older brother, Joel….you didn’t want to end things just yet.

Word count : 2.8k words

A/N : I suck at summaries lol. Anyways it’s been a minute. Hope this was good enough. I’m rusty! Lmao feedback is always welcomed! Thank you!

Tommy was just a guy I’d hook up with here and there. He wasn’t anything serious. Just something to get me by for now while I figured out what the hell I wanted to do with my life.

Tommy was only 3 years older than me. He was unpredictable, and low maintenance. It was exactly what I needed in the short span of time. That was until I met his brother, Joel.

One night, about a month or so ago…Tommy had asked for me to drop off his jacket at his brothers house. Apparently he never told Joel so that conversation was a bit awkward.

But when I saw him, I felt something tug at me like an unexplainable magnetic pull. He was definitely good looking if I had to be honest. But I knew I had to shake my thoughts. I was kind of seeing his brother.

He flashed a smile, which almost made my knees melt.

Since then, I had ended up back at that same house to meet Tommy or to hang out with the both of them. I knew my feelings for Tommy weren’t that strong enough for me to meet family and spend this much time with him, but I couldn’t help it. I wanted to see Joel. To be near him. I hated myself for feeling this way to begin with. Using someone to get with someone else ALWAYS ends up bad.

Whenever I came over and saw him, he always made me feel some type of way. He was sweet, and funny, always knew how to make me laugh. Even on hard days.

Joel wasn’t always so chatty with me. He had moments when he kept to himself, I mean—it took a few weeks before he had a full on conversation with me.

But when he finally opened up, even just a bit, I loved every second I had spent with him.

Besides, I was sure nothing was ever going to happen, I just wasn’t ready to end things with Tommy yet, because that meant I’d have to say goodbye to Joel as well.

I sat between the boys on the couch, watching a zombie movie; a new weekly tradition. It was hard to keep my composure every time Joel’s knee brushed against mine.

Tommy hadn’t seem to notice though. He had his arm over me, talking over the movie which irked me more than anything else.

“I swear these movies only ever get worse!” He cackled, pulling me closer to him.

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Joel’s POV

Sitting on this small couch, so close to her, it made it hard for me to focus on anything but her.

I would be lying to myself if I said I didn’t feel something for her. But I knew my place, she was my little brothers girlfriend for God’s sake. I couldn’t be thinking of her in any way other than Tommy’s girl. So, she was off limits.

She adjusted herself, probably trying to get comfortable in between two big dudes on this tiny ass couch.

But every time I felt her pressed against my side, a sudden electric jolt seemed to race through me. I tried to hold my composure…I tried to seem like I didn’t notice the way she laughed at the awful jokes in the movie or the way she pushed her hair back with her hand, radiating a scent of her shampoo every time she did. I worked hard to keep my cool, to suppress my reaction.

How Tommy ended up with someone as amazing as her, I will never know but damn…was he a lucky son of a bitch.

“Looks like we ran out of beer.” Tommy exclaimed, propping up on his feet. He caught not only my attention but hers as well.

“Need me to get some more—“

“Nah I’ll get it. I need to buy a pack of smokes too.” He looked to her and pressed a quick peck to her lips, and suddenly a tinge of jealousy washed over me.

I shoved my hands deep into my pockets, balling them into fists to help keep my cool.

“D-do you want me to go?” She asked him.

Tommy shook his head, “it’s okay babe. I’ll be back. You look like you’re really into the movie anyways.” He chuckled.

And with that, he grabbed my keys; “hey—“

“Don’t worry Joel, I’ll bring your truck back in one piece.”

I sat back into the couch and groaned, no point in fighting with him over it.

Once he left, tension started to brew or so it felt. I had been alone with her before but this time felt different. This time, I had spent more time with her so my feelings were stronger than all the other times. It wasn’t just pure lust anymore. I was genuinely captivated by her and I couldn’t shake it.

“Your brother is something else…” she drawled out, still sitting beside me though there was more room on the couch now. Not that I’m complaining.

“Yep. That’s Tommy for ya.” I said, trying not to move too much.

“I think he’s cheating on me.” She went on. “That’s why he didn’t want me to go.”

I shot my gaze to hers, furrowing my brows. “Tommy?”

She didn’t seem upset, she seemed sort of relaxed as she nodded. “Yeah, I heard him on the phone the other day. I think her name is Maria.” She said. “I overheard him say he missed her and then called her baby.”

My eyes grew wide. Tommy cheating on her with a girl named Maria? He never mentioned anything to me which wasn’t a surprise. He never really talked to me much about the women he dated. Shit, I probably only ever met two of his girlfriends.

“Probably meeting her now.” She said, snapping me back to reality.

“A-and you’re not mad?” I asked.

She shook her head and a sigh escaped her lips. “Can I be honest with you?”

—

Your POV

My stomach churned with anxiety. I was going to tell Joel the truth and part of me was scared shitless. I didn’t know what he was gonna think or say, and I also didn’t want him to hate me.

Before I said anything, I took a big breath; there was no turning back now.

“I’ve been wanting to break up with Tommy for quite some time now.” I blurted.

Joel swallowed hard once he met my gaze. It was always hard to read him to figure out what he was thinking but it was especially hard to read him right now.

“Y-you—I had no idea…” he said, scratching the back of his head. “Why?”

Shit…he probably hates me now.

“Tommy and I were really just friends with benefits, ya know? It wasn’t anything serious—“

“Could’ve fooled me.” He interrupted.

Yeah—he definitely hates me.

“I mean he’s a great guy just, not for me.”

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Joel’s POV

My head was spinning, different thoughts running through my mind as I heard her talk about wanting to break up with Tommy.

“I mean, he’s a great guy, just not for me.” She said.

No words formed in my mind. I just sat there, silently not knowing what to even say.

I could see that she was growing more anxious as time passed, she had sat up straight, staring at me with furrowed brows. “Please say something.” She whispered.

“Why didn’t you break up with him when you wanted to?”

She looked down quickly…was she—was she flustered? I couldn’t really tell.

“I—I….I wanted to keep seeing you.”

Suddenly it felt like everything had froze in time, only she and I were moving. I never expected her to say this let alone tell me that she wanted to keep seeing me. I couldn’t lie…a part of me felt shitty cuz Tommy is my brother but the other part…that part loved this. My whole body felt like it was burning. I wanted nothing more than to get up and grab her. To taste her and feel her against me. I had thought about it for weeks. Especially at night, when I was alone in bed…she took up every fuckin corner of my thoughts and damn…the things I wanted to do to her.

I adjusted myself, feeling myself grow harder just by the thought alone. I pulled a pillow over my lap, hoping she didn’t notice.

This can’t happen..right? It’s like an unwritten rule to not sleep with your friends or your brothers girl. No matter if it were serious or not. But damn, the longer I stared at her, the more I was ready to lose it all and fold. My body ached to feel her against me.

She reached out and placed her hand on my thigh, making my breath hitch to the back of my throat. Her touch alone made me want to rip my own skin off just to get rid of these urges. She had no idea how close she was to just getting picked up and thrown over my shoulder while I take her to my room.

I wanted her more now than ever.

“Please say something,” her voice was low, almost like a whisper.

Fuck. It’s over.

“You and Tommy—y’all really are just hookin up? It ain’t anything serious?”

Just then she bit on her lower lip and damn if that didn’t just throw me over the edge.

“I’m telling you Joel, it’s not serious at all. I really think he’s out there right now, meeting this Maria chick.”

I took in a deep breath, trying to focus on what I should do rather than just taking her right here and now.

“I mean, he should’ve been back by now. The gas station is literally down the street.” She added.

That was true. It usually only takes about ten minutes to get there, buy what you needed and drive back. And he never took this long.

“Let me call him…see where he’s at.” I say.

—

Your POV

I honestly couldn’t believe I told him everything. I told him that the reason I stayed with Tommy was for him.

That’s his younger brother for crying out loud. There’s no way he’d be okay with me now. Why would he?!

“Let me call him…see where he’s at.” He says.

He pulled his phone out and called Tommy right away, glancing at me then straight forward.

I didn’t realize my hand was still on his thigh, and as I was about to move it, I barely lifted it up before he grabbed it with his free hand and held it to his thigh again.

Did he actually want me to touch him? Did he want me just as much as I wanted him??

“Tommy, where the hell ya at?” He groaned, looking at me.

I couldn’t help but glance at his lips, wishing I could taste them, feel them against mine. I bet they feel smooth. Without realizing, I pulled my bottom lip in between my teeth, trying to fight my urge to kiss him.

“Tommy—it doesn’t take you this long to get a pack of beers and cigarettes.” He pulled the phone away and covered it with his hand. “I think you’re right. I don’t think he’s alone.” He whispers.

Tommy wasn’t that great at hiding things. He tried for the life of him, but I knew something was up when he would disappear randomly, leaving me alone with Joel or his friends. Not see me for a couple days then show up out of nowhere. It was obvious.

“Told you.” I said.

This would have hurt me if it were someone I actually cared about, but if I were being honest…I was actually kind of relieved.

This meant I had no guilt to feel this way. But it also meant that I was basically free to do what I wanted.

And I know once I officially break things off with Tommy, I’ll most likely never see Joel again.

So…I needed to make this time count. I needed to show him just how bad I wanted him. I moved the pillow that was on his lap.

“Tommy—“

He stopped talking the moment he felt my hand at the top of his pants. Our gaze locked, but not one word was spoken. I took his silence and the fact that he didn’t push me away, as a sign that he wanted this just as bad as I did.

“Yea—I hear ya.” He cleared his throat.

I unbuttoned his pants and slowly slipped my hand in, and under his boxers. My hand wrapped around his hard dick and instantly he let out a soft moan. “Oh god dammit.” He exhaled, tilting his head back, taking his free hand and pressing it against his eyes.

I started to pump up and down, still watching him.

“Fuck…”he whispered. “T-Tommy, I—I got to go. I uh—dropped my—my computer.”

I couldn’t help but chuckle at his mix up. I guess he liked the way my hand felt around him.

Joel hung up his phone and tossed it to the side.

—

Joel’s POV

The way her hand felt against my hard dick made me shudder. Every nerve in my body felt like it were on fire.

I tossed my phone to the side, not giving two shits about Tommy right now. All I cared about was her.

“Fuck—get over here.” I said with a stern voice.

I grabbed her face with my hand and forcibly pulled her toward me and closed the distance between us. Her lips tasted like her strawberry chapstick and I swear I was so close to just ripping her fucking clothes off. Fuck I want her bad.

I pulled her into my lap, making her straddle me on the couch. My hands quickly start running along her body, feeling her, digging my fingertips into her to bring her closer to me. I needed her. I needed to hear her moan and feel her clench around me.

“Oh god…you’re so…fuck” I couldn’t even finished a fucking sentence. No words could describe how badly I wanted her, how much I wanted to get her out of her clothes, how I just wanted to lay her down in front of me and enjoy every inch of her. I was losing control over myself. I was desperate. So fucking desperate to make her mine.

She nibbled on my bottom lip and slightly pulled back. Making me groan in pleasure. I start to kiss and bite on the nape of her neck, and the moment she let out a moan, I stopped.

She looked at me, confused, her brows furrowing.

“W-why did you stop?” She asked.

I wanted to tear the clothes off her right now but I needed to know one thing. “Are you sure about this? Because once I start this, I won’t be able to stop. I want you so fucking bad.”

I held her gaze with mine. If it were anyone else, I probably would have just risked it all but she was different. I needed her to tell me she wanted this.

She nodded. “I’m sure.” She breathed out.

I shook my head. “No. I need to hear you say it. I need to hear you say you want me to fuck you.”

Her eyes grew wide for just a moment but then softened. “I need you to fuck me, Joel. I need you…now.” She said.

I pulled her back to me, pressing my lips to hers more fervently. There’s no turning back now. By tonight she would be mine, and I will be hers.

I tore her shirt off not giving a fuck about ruining it. “I’ll give you my shirt once I’m done with you.” I said, to reassure her. “But right now, these clothes are in the fucking way.” I snarled.

She let out a soft moan. “I don’t even care about them, just rip it off of me.”

I groaned into her, the power she had over me was almost unbearable. And I fucking loved it.

“That’s my girl.”

I ripped into her bra, and tossed it to the side. The moment her boobs came into view, I felt the blood rush straight to my dick. She was fucking beautiful and I couldn’t wait to show her just how bad I wanted her. My hands lightly cupped her breasts, her nipples slipped in between my fingers. She could only moan from my touch.

“You like when I touch you, don’t you?” I asked her, not once tearing my gaze from hers.

“Mhm.” Was all she could muster out.

“Good, because tonight you’re mine. Got it? All mine.”

VS

Summary: Yours and Joel’s newest patrol task is exploring the old mall not far from Jackson. You learn what Victoria’s Secret really is. (She was NOT having an affair with former president of the United States Colonel Sanders) AKA grumpy cranky joel and you get down and dirty in an old Victoria’s Secret.

A/N: @gracieispunk believed I could so I did. This is my love letter to her <3 she helped me out big time. She knows what she did 😉

Edit: this is part 1 of my new series “Mall Rats”

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