🌟🌸 Don’t let this moment pass by! ✈️✨

;-; dude I'm gonna cry... thank you SO MUCH for saying that 😭😭😭 augh. The mental image of her stepping in front of me to block my view and to protect me. gosh. That means a lot to me ;-;

She's always made me feel really safe and I'm hoping that what happened last night was just a little bump in the road. I love her so much. And!!! I want to love pink again. Especially Barbie Pink™ that's gotta be HER color!!! 💖💖💖

Thank you so much for sending this 😭💙 Man, you're right, canonically she has kicked someone's ass before and she WILL kick someone's ass again 💪✨

OH wow. Thank you guys for all the extremely nice messages when I needed help regarding this post 😭😭

I didn't get sick when I woke up (major accomplishment!!!) but the image I saw last night was the first thing on my mind when I woke up and I was ofc very nauseous and tense and shaky, BUT HEY!!! I didn't frow up!!! 👍✨ genuinely I am over the moon about that!!! I'm nauseous asf but the fact that I'm keeping it together this long is Something, especially since this image is kinda... stuck in my head and I can't stop thinking about it. Hopefully I will be able to shake it off in a few days

The replies/inbox is overflowing with support right now and I really appreciate it 😭 I was doing rly fuckin bad last night but it ALWAYS helps to have other people reassure me that it's still gonna be OK. It was also extremely comforting to have people tell me that my feelings are valid. I'm so used to coping with this every day, it surprised me when people were saying "oh holy shit, what the fuck, what happened to you was really sick and messed up and Barbie would NEVER allow that to happen to you, Barbie is SAFE for you to be around and you should still feel safe with her". I am so used to battling this by myself for the last 18 months and thinking "yeah what I went through was like, normal, I'm just overreacting" it's extremely validating for other people to say "whoa that was not normal, actually, holy shit" it's like a huge weight is off my shoulders when I read your messages/replies so, sincerely thank you so much 🙏

I think today I'm more shaken up from seeing my abuser in a TF commission than I am seeing my abuser with the Barbie Pink color. If that makes sense. like I had three major triggers in one image but the color pink is like... slowly easing into "thing I'm really tense and nauseous around on my bad days but it's not overwhelming me to the point of not being able to function right now" kind of trigger

I still feel really... gross, thinking about [redacted] when seeing pink. but I'm hoping I can eventually shake that off. If I was able to associate this color with Barbie back when my trauma was extremely fresh and really, really bad, then by all means I should be able to do it again when my trauma is still bad, but it's not like, trying to kill me everyday y'know. It always takes me a few days to shake off a trigger and this one was especially Horrific since my abuser was actually in it, and she was in THEE barbie pink color, but,,, I will try to get over it. I don't have a choice. I see this color everyday. it's common. it's a color! I've always said to myself when seeing it, "hey, that's Barbie pink, it's okay" and yeah seeing my abuser in Barbie pink was REALLY horrendous but you know what. it is called Barbie pink for a reason 😤😤 If I keep telling myself Barbie OWNS that color then I think I can get myself back into the mindset that it is Safe to be around, even if it might take a hot minute to feel better