IT

FUCKEN

WIMDY

"I want to stay."

FELLOW TRAVELERS 1.02 x 1.08

FELLOW TRAVELERS + Hawk taking care of Tim

FELLOW TRAVELERS + Hawk coming home to Tim

And if I could give you the moon, I would give you the moon.

if any of you are bored you could try taking this color oracle assessment. it’s interesting

this shit dragged my ass within the first two lines of text, I’m done!

me as well

How did it know I have been maticulously watching my finances?  How did it know that I hate my roommate and am in a stressful situation because she is the dirtiest person I’ve ever met?  How did it know that I’m a year into a long distance relationship/ have constant feelings of loneliness??  

Holy fuck..

Yoooooooooooooooo

daMN

sorry for not making you my centrefold, over and over

FELLOW TRAVELERS 1.08 // MIKKO HARVEY, from For M

Hawk leaving all of his things at the hospital when Skippy was sick because he stayed there with him full time. The same Hawk who after Lucy had Jackson, went home to shower and was not present like that for her. If he wanted to he would, but he never had that love for Lucy even when she gave him a child, so he never did.

—lessons in listening to your heart, and not your head.

for a lot of scenes between lucy and hawk there is a parallel scene between tim and hawk that shows how surface level the relationship between lucy and hawk is. a few examples:

lucy was gifted a tiffany bracelet by hawk for christmas while a few scenes before we saw that tim was gifted hawks cufflinks with the initials h.f. on them. hawk gives tim something personal, a part of him while he gives lucy, while expensive and beautiful, something materialistic with no personality attached to it whatsoever.

episode six was full of these parallels. we see lucy and hawk having sex. they're both fully clothed, it's quick and unpersonal. hawk seems to have sex with her that night for two reasons: one, he wants to prove to her that he is, in fact, aroused by her. that he can be the man she needs. he wants to prove to her that he can be that man because he saw her flirting with Chet Stover. he saw them coming out of the house together during the firework scene. hawk is, after all, a jealous man that likes to claim his property. he does not want to be ridiculed by his friends and least of all by his wife.

if we compare that to the several scenes where we see tim and hawk being intimate, we can see a very big difference. first of all they're never fully clothed, this symbolizes that they're open with one another. there are no secrets between them, no barriers holding them back when it's just the two of them. secondly, they don't just "have sex" they're intimate. they play with their kinks, they tease each other; it's about pleasure between them, not about performance, like it is for hawk with lucy.

in episode six we also see lucy and hawk struggling with raising jackson. neither of them know how to talk to him, which results in frustrations on both sides. then we're shown jackson interacting with tim. tim understands jackson, he knows what the boy is going through (because he's been through the same; not feeling loved by hawk the way he wanted to feel loved by him). we get a glimpse of how happy a family tim, hawk and a child (jackson in this case) could have been. how great a team they would make if given the chance. the way hawk shows up differently for his son after his talk with tim, the way jackson opens up to tim and feels understood by him.

lastly, another lovely detail to show the personal relationship between hawk & tim vs the impersonal one between hawk & lucy. hawk gives tim the nickname "skippy" after 0.001 seconds of knowing him, while he keeps referring to lucy as "lucy smith".

i love how fellow travelers shows the hardships queer people had to face in the past. especially because it doesn't show just one story but different one's and includes poc voices!!

alex and henry + love languages