tanya belai || @afirelullaby
tanya belai || afirelullaby
tanya b. || afirelullaby
tanya b. || afirelullaby
tanya b || afirelullaby
tanya b || afirelullaby
tanya b. || afirelullaby
tanya b. || afirelullaby
the world is bright and loud and smells like everything and nothing all at once. it was not designed to be kind to those just born into it.
and yet. the very young are always the most beautiful creatures on it.
babies cry first, but they tend to laugh more than they cry if you love them.
a colt with unsteady legs dares to walk anyway.
of course, their size can be a disadvantage. they're easy to cast aside. they can't fight back.
(please don't cast them aside.)
- prompted by igwmh
tanya b. || afirelullaby
the floor of the balcony was wet. it may have rained today. or the plants may have been watered.
we painted the floor brick red three years ago, to match the roofs. it sets off the green of the plants nicely.
there's a bird building a nest in a hanging pot. she twitters red and green, cheerful and bright.
the wind whispers powder blue. it is not dark enough.
the summer sun adds its force to gravity, even as the monsoon clouds attempt to hide it. i know this because it tore its way out from behind a cloud and i couldn't move under its gaze.
i might be hungry. or hypovolemic.
- prompted by igwmh
i was in the house of my dreams once
(in a dream, of course)
the kitchen surfaces weren't clean, for a certain definition of clean. traces of flour could be found in one corner. a cooling rack full of muffins occupied space on top of the stove. a carelessly abandoned kitchen towel defied gravity and stayed on the edge of a counter.
the couch sagged on the left, because it wasn't made to take the weight of two in a space that was designed to fit one.
there were two bedrooms, with two beds, each intended for only one person.
we were in love in a way that my body could hunger for forever and still never find.
get out of my dreams and find your way into my life, damn it.
Tarryn Fisher, F*ck Love (via thelovejournals)
tanya b. || afirelullaby
tanya b. || afirelullaby
words are difficult today.
i’m trying to cough them out with the phlegm that has lodged itself in my throat this monsoon but that’s there to stay.
i’m reaching for them with but they’re just ricocheting off my knuckles and leaving behind bruises.
i’m trying to squint at the ones carved into my skull just so i have something to say but i don’t know where my glasses are.
i’m trying. it’s just that words haven’t been falling into my hands lately, and i’m too tired to fight my way through the exhaustion and get to them.
i’m sorry.