Flowers
- Contains : "Mikey" Manjiro Sano
- Warning : Angst, main character death, mentions of blood, fem!reader, fights, hanahaki disease
- Note : Longer than expected, but I still likes it.
Flowers, you always loved them. Their colors, their meanings, everything. You wished your whole life to be like them. Pure and unique. But how could you ? You always lied. For love, yes, but was it worth it in the end ?
Hanahaki disease, you've heard about it when you were younger. With all the innocence a child can have you always asked your mother : "Why some of them don't take the surgery ?"
But your question was ignored or a "you'll understand later" was thrown at you.
It's stupid you thought at that time.
How pitiful you were right now, hiding your chest with bandages. You weren't a boy, you didn't even wanted to be one. But your reflection was saying otherwise.
You met Mikey by accident, the Tokyo Manji Kai was fighting again, but this time, close to where you lived. He was mesmerizing you thought. Charismatic, strong and fierce. You were in love, "pathetic", indeed, falling in love at first sight was not what you expected that day.
"Manjiro Sano", someone in your class told you his name, you wanted to know more about him.
But, that innocent love grows into something else. White roses, "shiroibara". The first petals leaving your mouth between those painful coughs, were white roses.
Symbols of innocence and silence.
You were afraid, how did this happen ? It wasn't that deep, right ? Just a little crush. Then why were you coughing blood ? And those petals ? You weren't able to tell if they were really white anymore.
A boy ? Yes, if you wanted to be closer to Mikey you needed to be a boy. This way you could join the Manjikai. A great idea, really.
It worked ! You and Mikey were friends now. It was perfect. You talked to him for the first time, how can you be happier ? Camellia, "Tsubaki", the petals were pink this time. You always loved camellias and their scent. But this time the bloody smell filled your lungs.
Symbols of discretion and perfect love.
No needs to worry, everything was going perfectly. Mikey was your friend, it's a question of time until you make him fall for you. Then you'll tell him the truth, that you're a girl.
-" You're really strong, (Fake/Name)."
Compliment like that made the pain more bearable, even though, the petals were still here unfortunately. It's okay. It'll be okay. No need to worry. No need to worry.
"Then why is it that painful" you cried one night. In the cold streets, you couldn't bring yourself to go back home this time. Still disguised as a boy, dried blood on your face and camellias in your hands. You looked so bad right ? It was ridiculous. Why did you thought such a shitty plan would work !? Yeah, why ? Why did you fall for him ? Tears were running down on your cheeks.
-" Here, take this (Name)."
Wait, Mitsuya? He called you by your real name ! This was bad, really bad. Afraid, you looked at him, he was giving you some tissues and water.
-" The others don't know, don't worry. You need to talk to Mikey."
No, no, no, you can't do that ! What, what if he doesn't love you back ? What if he's mad at you because you lied ? So many, what if. But.... The surgery ?
-" I'm afraid Mitsuya, you don't understand, it's so painful."
He was looking at you with sadness. He wanted to help you so much, but even he didn't know if Mikey loved you back.
-" Take the surgery, you can't die."
Yeah, you what ? Didn't you said it was stupid ? Dying for love isn't what you always criticized ?
"You'll understand later"
You did. Oh you wish it was all a dream, that you'll wake up. No, it wasn't. The blood was there. The petals too. Painfully, you stood up and looked at Mitsuya with a sad smile.
Today. Today is the day. You're about to tell Mikey about your feelings ! You told him you wanted to see him. Then why ? Why the hell are you fighting again ? On top of a roof ? Oh, yeah, right, the Manjikai had another fight.
-"I fucking hate it here."
You thrown your fists, again and again. How could you tell Mikey that you loved him if you can't even win a fight like that. You're going to win. Right ?
Purple, why is purple everywhere ? The fight ended a hour ago ! Only Mikey was still here, to hear what you wanted to say. But you were coughing purple and red. Japanese primrose, "sakurasou", a pretty purple. But you always hated purple.
Mikey was grabbing you by your arms and yelling at you. You couldn't hear him right. Your sight was getting blurry.
-"No ! You can't die, you hear me ! Listen to me okay ? It's going be okay."
-"It's okay, you're not dying okay, we're going back to Toman together."
You could feel Mikey's tears on your face. Not like that, you didn't want to die like that. Please, no. Not now, not like that. What if Mikey think that it's his fault !?
-"What are you doing ? Get back here ! No !"
Your lifeless body was lying on the floor, purple petals everywhere.
Symbols of long lasting love.
-"It's not your fault Mikey. I love you."
Hydrangea, "ajisai", pink and blue petals. Mikey was looking at your grave. He started coughing after your death, the flowers growing painfully in his body.
-" If only you told me the truth before."
Symbols of gratitude often used to say sorry.
A/N : Yeah I cried while writing this lmaooo. But anyway, it was my first angst, I hope it's good.