Crazy how quickly shit changes Nov 3 2020
3 years ago I was sitting with my therapist and this nigga gon ask me "how do you plan on marrying a woman if you don't date a woman" And while he was obviously making sense, tinder sucked yall! & I sat on this here site whining about how much I wanted a girlfriend. Everything is different, but kinda the same (word to marceline). These were both the longest and shortest 4 years of my life. I lost someone I thought would be in my life forever & I learned that you can be as great a communicator as you want, that'll never change how someone responds to you. I grew so much as a person and advocate and organizer and protester and business woman. Now I get to share my life with this beautiful woman in bed beside me. I knew what I wanfed my life to look like. I didnt even realize I was shaping that world for myself even when I couldnt see the engire picture. Even when I thought I was winging it. Bro, therapy, anti depressants & perspective will really do it for you.
If theres a baby Me out there somewhere struggling to hold on fighting depression with one hand behind your back & anxiety jumping down your throat physical and emotional trauma engulfing you; I want you to know that your struggle is real & it is hard & you are going to feel it. But one day, before you even realize it, it wont feel that way anymore. Those old wounds will heal. Not easily & maybe not quickly but baby, they will heal. Look for free therapy in your area its not a cure all but its a start.