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EATING DISORDER BOOKS MASTERLIST

A Dance of Sisters, by Tracey Porter

A Stranger in the Family

A Trick of the Light, by Lois Metzger

After the Strawberry, by Kathryn Pope

Almost Anorexic, by Jennifer J. Thomas

Anorexic Annie, by Sarah Burleton

Beautiful Me, by Natasha Jennings

Being Ana, by Shani Raviv

Between, Jessica Warman

Confessions of a Failed Anorexic

Confessions of a Teenage Ballerina

Diary of An Anorexic Girl, by Morgan Menzie

Diving in Deep, by Nora Ballew

Dying For the Part: A Novel, by Jessica Ehredt

Dying to be Perfect, by Susan Barry

Elena Vanishing, by Elena Dunkle

Eli’s Wings, by Elizabeth Best

Eve’s Apple: A Novel, by Jonathan Rosen

Fasting Girls, by Joan Brumberg

Fat Chance, by Leslea Newman

Feeling for Bones, by Bethany Pierce

Flowers in Bone Cages, by Sophie Glynn

Frio, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Girl in the Mirror (Carrie Years), by Janet Fiorentino

Girl Interrupted, by Susanna Kayson

Girl Over the Edge, by Amy Z Kinzler

Girls Under Pressure, by Jacqueline Wilson

Going Hungry, by 19 various authors giving accounts of their ED

Hollow: An Unpolished Tale, by Jenna Morrow

How To Disappear Completely, by Kelsey Ozgood

Hunger Point, by Jillian Medoff

Hunger, by Jackie Morse Kessler

Hungry for Change, by Amy Lewis

In Her Shadow, by August Mclaughlin

Insatiable: The Compelling Story of Four Teens, Food and Its Power, by Eve Eliot

Kessa, by Steven Levenkron

Kim: Empy Inside, by Beatrice Sparks

Letting Ana Go, by Anonymous

Life-Size, by Jenefer Shute

Losing It, by Jasmin Dalton

Loud in the House of Myself

Massive, by Julia Bell

My Perfect Little Secret, by Rebecca Coppage

My Sister’s Bones, by Cathi Hanauer

Never Enough, by Denise Jaden

One Wish, by Leigh Brescia

Paint Me Beautiful: a Tale of Anorexia, a Love Story, and the Rebirth of Claire Simone (A Duet), by C.M. Stunich

Paperweight, by Meg Haston

Perfect, Ellen Hopkins

Pretty Bones, by Aya Tsintziras

Purge, by Sarah Darer

Running Lean, by Diana Sharples

Running in Silence: My Drive for Perfection and the Eating Disorder that Fed it, by Rachael Rose Steil

Second Start to the Right, by Deborah Hautzig

Size Zero, by Victoire Dauxerre

Skin and Bones, by Sherry Shahan

Skin, by Adrienne Maria Vrettos

Skinny, by Ibi Kaslik

Skinny: A Novel, by Laura Smith

Slim to None, by Jennifer Hendricks

Spoon Fed - A year in the life of a teenage anorexic as seen through her eyes!, by Jake Jacobs

The Best Little Girle in the World, by Steven Levenkron

The Disappearing Girl, by Heather Topham Wood

The Hanged Man, by Francesca Lia Block

The Hunger Scream, by Ivy Ruckman

The Passion of Alice, by Stephanie Grant

The Secret Life of an Anorexic, by Kristen Noel

The Stone Girl, by Alyssa Sheinmel

The Year We Seized The Day, by Elizabeth Best and Colin Falconer

Thin, by Grace Bowmen

Thin, by Laura Greenfield

Thinspo, by Amy Ellis

Unbearable Lightness, by Portia de Rossi

Wasted, by Marya Hornbacher

Wintergirls, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Zoe Letting Go, by Nora Price

Feel free to add more~ ❤️❤️

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Fanfiction Recommendations Apr. 5- Apr. 12

Some of the amazing things I’ve read and been tagged in this past week. Like always thank you to all the wonderful authors who write for us ❤️

There’s probably going to be some carry over into next week because I’ve still got lots saved to read! Lots of great things posted In the last 24 hours 😀

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“ A wise man once told me, “family don’t end with blood,boy” but it doesn’t start there, either. Family cares about you, not what you can do for them. Family’s there through the good, bad … all of it. They got your back … even when it hurts. That’s family.“ . . This video made me cry Credit to the talented Ivana @nowngen on Twitter X Don’t forget to like the video on Twitter

It’s not about the clothes

Summary- Dean x Reader - based on the prompt  “ Why don’t you model it for me?” Reader struggles daily with self esteem issues and body issues that she is determined to keep away from Dean. But things get complicated when  Dean  joins her on a shopping trip .

AN/  as a side note  very personal side note .. a lot of what i wrote about how the reader feels about herself in this fic . I have felt this way and sometime I still do . so for anyone that reads this and is struggling  just know you are not alone !!!   and  you are beautiful !!

Clothes for most people were not a big deal . For some people the thrill of shopping for clothes was the best part. For others it was showing off new clothes to their friends trying to look their best.    But for you it was the exact opposite  for someone who struggle daily with her looks and her weight . Clothes were only a way to hide yourself. To keep yourself and your flaws hidden away from the rest of the world.  This was a hidden demon that you were fighting within yourself daily . You  refuse to let anyone else see your struggle. Especially Dean you couldn’t remember a time when  you hadn’t been in love with the green eyed hunter but self doubt you had always kept your feelings to yourself.

******************************  You sigh looking your closet   you had just thrown another pair of jeans away after a particular dirty hunt  and it looks like you would need to go shopping to get a couple new ones because you were low on  jeans.    Hunting was not a easy or clean life and  clothes tended to get ruined in some cases more than others and lately it seemed that  you been running into more of the dirty ones than not. So you were just going to have to face the music and go shopping .  You figure maybe Sam would go with you . It would be easier if he went . Dean would make you to nervous. You grab your wallet and went to find him.    You found Sam in the library reading over some books. “ Hey do you want to run out to town with me for a couple hours I need to grab some stuff at the store ” you asked  . He looked up from his book “ I wish I could but I am doing something for my mom right now she wanted me to  look up  this  spell work she ran into  on this case ” he said indicating the book he was reading “  you nodded  ” Dean in the garage see if he can go with “ Sam suggested  you sigh and headed towards the garage . Where you did find Dean working on his car  the hood up he was bend over the engine  You try your best to ignore the way your heart skip a beat  at the sight.  ” Hey got a min “ you spoke up  ” for you I have a couple “ he said turning around and grabbing the beer that was set off to the side. ” I need to run into town for a few things  " you said  "Can I use one of the spare cars  ?“ you asked   "why I can just take you ” he offered . “ no it ok  you don’t have to I need to go pick up some new  jeans and some shirt and well.. Shopping isn’t my favorite thing in the world so why subject you to the pain as well ” you said    He grinned setting down the beer and turning around and shutting the hood of the car  " I appreciated  the thought but I think I can handle  myself  " he replied  and you sigh.   “ well if you’re sure ” you said “ yep I am ” he said   pulling his keys from his pocket and heading towards the driver door. You headed towards the passenger side trying to keep your emotions  in control.

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   All the way into town you kept telling yourself everything was going to be fine  . Just get in and get what you need. No reason to panic because Dean was with you  . Maybe you could convince him to  look in another shop while you do you shopping   “ You know if you want to  go and window shop or something while I get my stuff you can ” you offer as soon as you got to the mall “ you are not stuck with me  ” you said He grinned  "Who said I was stuck with you ?“ he asked ” and why would that be so bad  ?“ he added causing your heart to jump in your chest.  You didn’t know how to responded to that but luckily you were saved by Dean’s cell.    It was Sam calling with a question about the case he was helping  his mother on with "I will catch up with you "Dean said and you nodded and hurried into the store.  Glad to get a little bit of a break even if was only temporary.    You started roaming  the racks for jeans looking for the brands you normal wear.  It only took you a few minutes to find  a couple that you liked and you knew would fit you .  Then onto your shirts  because of your doubts about your body you tended to stay with what was comfortable with you . Even though you longed to try something different. But the courage never came so you found yourself reaching out for the same kind of clothes that made you felt safe.  You were making you way back up front when you saw the dress . It was a beautiful grey color sleeves deep v neck and the way it look it would fall just right at your knees.  You sigh as you walked up to it.      You would love to try it on but you knew you would never have the courage to wear it out in public.  You were about to walk away when you turned around and literally bumped into Dean.      His hands shot out to steady you "I am sorry ”  you said  " my fault shouldn’t have snuck up on you like that “ he said    ” Did you find everything you wanted ?“ he asked  as he slowly let you go  ” Yeah I got everything I needed “ you said as you glanced as the dress one more time . Dean caught your glance ” You like that dress “ he asked   You looked back at Dean and just shrugged ” it nice “ you replied    ” Then why don’t you get it ?“  he asked as he took it off the rack  and held it out to you . ” I can’t “ you said  ” why not “ he asked "when would I wear it ?”  cant chase monster wearing dresses “ you said    ” I think you should get it I bet it looks good on you “ he said  you shook your head . He was only trying to be a friend . He didn’t understand. ” I can’t .. Dean “ you said and took the dress and  put it back on the rack and headed  to front of the store.  You paid for the clothes you did want and then headed back to the car. Dean appeared 5 minutes later .   He climbed into the car and pulled it back on the road .    For the most part it was quiet except for the radio that was paying quietly in the background . You did notice Dean kept glancing over at you every few minutes . ” what ?“ you finally asked   ” just wondering if your ok “ he asked   You nodded ” I am good “    you said .  ”  You would tell me if you weren’t “ Dean said "if you needed to talk ”  he added.

 You nodded “of course” you said  earning  a  nodded  from Dean who turned his attention back to the road. Once again the car settled into silence for the reaming of the trip . **********************

   You had pushed the dressed to the back of  your mind  after you got back to the bunker you  put up your clothes and offered to cook dinner for the guys . Sam was still neck deep in research and Dean was going to see if he was going to help him    It wasn’t until much later after diner you headed back to your room  to get ready for bed.  When you walked into the room you stop short when you saw it on your bed .  The same dress that you had saw at the store  But how did it get on your bed ? Why don’t you model it for me?“ you spun around to find Dean staring at you from the doorway.   "What ? You asked  ” go ahead put it on and let’s see what it looks like “ he said ” why did you buy it ?“  you asked him  "Cause you wanted it  ” he said  "Question is why didn’t you buy it yourself ?“ he asked  ” I told  you  before  I wouldn’t have much use for it “ you said He step closer   ” yeah   you told me that but I don’t think that was the only reason “ he said .  He reached down and picked up the dress . "go try it on I want to see on you ” he said handing it to you  .    You looked down at the dress in your hand and then back up to meet Dean’s gaze  .  You sigh and nodded  he grinned “ I will wait outside open the door when you  are done  ” he said  walking out  and closing the door behind  him .    With your heart racing nervously  you slip out of your clothes  and slowly slip into the dress . It fit better than you though  and you held your breath as you turned to face the mirror . Letting out that breath as  you got a look at yourself.  It had been many years since the last time you had seen yourself in a dress and even then it hadn’t been a dress like this.  For  a split second you almost look pretty . Then you remember dean waiting out in the hallway  and your heart flip in your chest

   You took  a deep breath and decided to do this like anything else head on . You walked over to the door and open it up . You watched his reaction as he took you in  . You watched as his eyes ran  you up and down   you saw the way his vibrant green eyes darken slightly with some unnamed emotion you weren’t use  seeing from him.   “wow  ” he said  clearing his voice and step forward putting himself even closer to you  " Not even close to what I had imagine “  he said softly as his hands  softly landed on your hips .  "Beautiful ” he said as he met your gaze  and held it “ Really ?” you asked  softly  .  He gave you a look “ You don’t see it do you  ?” he asked   and you shook your head making him frown slightly .  he took your hand and led you over to mirror in your room he turned you to face it and he stood behind you  . Hands still on your hips  but beginning to  moving around to your front . They were warm and comforting.    you met his eyes though the glass. “ I wish you could see  what I can see  ” he said as he lifted a hand up and brushed some hair  away from the side of your neck . Your heart  was racing as he slowly lowered  his head  to pressed his lips to the sensitive skin of your  neck.  You bit your bottom lip to keep  the moan from leaving your lips . He moved  up  your neck until be brush your ear ..this time your eyes flutter  shut and you did hear  the slight moan as you leaned back up against him.    " I know you don’t think you’re beautiful that you don’t have the perfect  body “ he said ” But  I want to show   how  beautiful you are.. How  much  I love your body .. “ he as he slowly turned you in his arms. His words were slowly  melting  you  so the moment his lips met yours  everything seem to click. You pushed forward to deepen the kiss. You  heard him groan as his arms slip around your waist pulling your body up against his.    "So beautiful  ” he murmured “ in between kisses  nipping at your bottom lip little moans  slipping out in between your lips.    ” It the dress “ you said softly as he pulled back to give each of you a chance to breath .    he looked at you  ” No it not  " he said “ I have seen you in jeans and a t-shirt and covered in dirt and muck . I have seen you at what other would consider  your worse  and I still think  You’re beautiful and I  still want you ..  ” It not about the clothes  it about you “ he said as he pulled you into his arms again his  lips finding yours once again  .

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Just An Act

Summary: Dean is the new kid at your school and takes a liking to you, finding you interesting. 

Warning: language, abusive father, deceased family member. 

Word Count: 1,174

A/N: This is a Dean x Reader fic only it’s in first-person, I find it easier to write this way. Message me if you would like to be added to the tag list for future parts. I hope you enjoy!

I glanced over at the new kid to find him staring back at me, it was the first day back at school and we somehow managed to have every class together. He looked rough, but I was used to rough given my family history.  He had a strange vibe about him, almost like his whole bad boy act was just that, an act. 

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Hey I'm loving this can you tag for the next parts ? ❤️ I would love to read the rest

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Fluffy Fics Master Post

Hi lovelies! I made up a Masterlist post below the cut of some fluffy one shots, imagines and series for if any of you are ever feeling down and need a pick me up. Enjoy <3

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I know the quality is shitty but still

As much as I love Dean Winchester, Jensen Ackles holds the title of being his number one fan.

I just love listening to Jensen talk about Dean and thought a few of you might enjoy it as well =D

Also tomorrow is the last day to VOTE for Jensen! Let’s get this man, who has dedicated 11+ years of his life to this fandom and to creating this truly iconic character, another PCA!