i literally wasn’t made to work sorry to the freaks who enjoy this grindset shit but you literally have psychological problems. i just want to sit and think and maybe talk and eat and drink
alexandra savior @ sxsw festival (16 march 2017)
THE TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE (1974)
CORALINE (2009) dir. Henry Selick
so i finally got a job and i am so fucking grateful for that, because I need one so badly. But I am ALREADY starting to burn out. And the thing is, I like this job! The only thing I hate is standing for 8 hours and sweating like a pig. Everyone there is great and they all treat me well but when i wake up in the morning my depression immediately starts trying to convince me to call out. Today it succeeded and I did call out and they were so fucking kind about it and I feel like the laziest sack of shit human being in the world. My reoccurring anxiety dreams where I am late or decide not to show up to things have already been ramping up worse than ever.
If anyone with Major Depressive Disorder and/or anxiety has any tips on working long term I would really love to hear them bc I need all the help I can get. I really don’t want to disappoint my family or force myself back into a desperate situation by fucking this up
Halloween (1978) dir. John Carpenter
You know, that moment I scared you in the woods. There was murder in your eyes, but it was like, it was baby murder, you’re not ready to accept that yet.
Creep (2014) dir. Patrick Kack-Brice
Now that’s what I call character development
I really wish i was getting stimulus checks. I got the first one and then nothing after that. I stretched that 1200 as long as i could throughout the year. I make $40 a week working for my mom. I cant get a better job bc i dont have a car and i cant get a car bc i cant save money to buy one. I cant do any remote work bc i dont have stable internet. The only thing that has been saving me is that student loans have been put off bc of covid. Idk what i am going to do when payments start up. I am trying to get my substitute teaching certificate but it will take me a month to save for that and idk if i will be able to bc i have to eat. And now i am pre diabetic so i have to try to buy healthier foods. I've been in a mental and financial hole since i graduated college and i dont know if i'll ever get out.
Hellraiser (1987) Dir. Clive Barker
It’s not the house that is haunted. It’s your son. Insidious (2010), dir. James Wan
“The night has its price.”
Near Dark (1987) dir. Kathryn Bigelow
st_vincent: If life’s a joke, then I’m dying laughing.