So, I’ve seen loads of posts about Julian & the latest book. I’ve seen people ripping his choices, saying they’ve ‘unstanned’ because he leaves, and I just wanted to give my two cents about it (if anyone cares).
He’s (clearly) had his memory wiped in some shape or form. He’s been branded, imprisoned, hunted, cursed. He’s been in love with someone who couldn’t (wouldn’t?) love him back. In his own words he says; ‘I’ll give you all of me, if that’s what it takes.’ I mean… ouch. Asra does take, through no fault of his own, but it still does some damage, clearly.
Now, he finds someone who possibly loves him in return, someone who would clearly do anything for him, to help him. Of course that scares the shit out of the guy. He wants to protect them, to keep them safe. He’s conditioned to think he’s unloveable, that he’s dangerous and everyone would be better off without him around, messing up their lives. He’s wrong, but no ones ever told him that… I think that much is clear (apart from Portia, but who ever listens to their siblings?). He’s dramatic, we know that, but that doesn’t mean his feelings aren’t valid.
The Apprentice is someone he wants to cherish, to protect. He believes he’s poisonous, that they’ll be burned if he sticks around. He might be right, but he’s also probably incredibly wrong. I’m sure we’ll get the chance to show him that, to show him he deserves love and everything that comes with it. Boy just needs time to realise that. Yes, we’d all love to grab him and shake him and tell him he’s being silly, but that isn’t always the best way forward. Plus, he’s probably still lingering outside the shop wondering if he’s done the right thing, poor lamb.
In short, Julian is important, his feelings are valid and should be respected, and I hope he sees how special he is… and soon. ALSO I love Asra, and I see both sides of the ‘Asrian’ story. So… no Asra hate here, just Asra confusion.