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*has a gay little theology question that angers the pastor*
it’s coming up on a year since i was regularly on Tumblr, and i increasingly come back to how there was absolutely a time in my life when Tumblr quite literally kept me going and gave me a social outlet and some form of community when I was really isolated from any irl queer or trans social life, but also how living my life almost exclusively on here fundamentally shaped the way I function and interact with others and even think in incredibly toxic ways. Anyway I guess I just wanted to say that I’m doing well and that I think I’m off here for good. I miss a lot of y’all, and I hope you’re staying well, but tumblr just isn’t it for me anymore.
Logged back on to this godforsaken site at just the right time to see stray cat j make an incredibly aggro response to somebody saying happy pride month because how dare they imply that this cat is not heterosexual, I guess
Anonymous asked:
wait. “famously gave you a breakdown?” may i have some context
yeah it's fundamentally a show about coming to terms with imperfection and understanding that there's worth to doing things even if you're not literally the best in the world at them and being ok with that and if I actually allowed myself to believe that then I would have to stop hating myself for failing to be perfect and I'm not ready to do that lol
the episodes about nationals always hit the hardest bc Yuri messed up so bad but still won, and like that provokes a really strong reaction, like I've fucked up that badly in music competitions and even been stopped from finishing because it was obvious I was doing too poorly, and believing the narrative that Yuri's effort still mattered and was good in that instance would make me have to reevaluate how much I hate what I've done in the past and accept that there was some value in it, and why should I do that when I failed!!!!! Like, when Yuri goes like "oh no don't remind me of my shameful past" and Kenjirou kinda yells at him for calling a career "shameful" when others have looked up to him for it, I'm firmly on Yuri's side bc I've been in that situation so fucking much. Like, at a certain point, it hurts worse when people around me insist on pretending that there's anything of worth in what I can do rather than recognizing that there are so many better people to find inspiration in, you know?
Rewatching the entirety of Yuri on Ice, the show that famously gave me a breakdown when I originally watched it, is a great idea especially now that I’m older than all of the characters and isn’t going to trigger any complexes or anything, right? I’m sure it’ll be fine....
A lil dude we saw
On shr**ms on the top of a mountain and just saw another deer 🦌 and got to look at her through my bf’s binoculars!!!!!!! She still has her winter coat in!!!!!! Fuzzy girl
the-transfeminine-mystique reblogged
Nancy Pelosi literally thanking George Floyd in a press conference for being murdered is honestly infuriating beyond words
like what the fuck
Nancy Pelosi literally thanking George Floyd in a press conference for being murdered is honestly infuriating beyond words
the-transfeminine-mystique reblogged
DEREK CHAUVIN WAS FOUND GUILTY ON ALL COUNTS.
Anonymous asked:
i really want to transition but only when i take edibles
not to be all like "drugs reveal fundamental truths" or anything but in my experience having specific desires repeatedly come up while in the one state where one's conscious, rational, logistical brain isn't running the show can be a very strong indication that there is a disavowed desire tied up in it that one isn't letting oneself name under ordinary circumstances. I'm not saying that you should transition, or that you should regard that desire when it emerges as inherently true on a surface level, but it's worth thinking through under the assumption that there's at least something that you want/need that the way you're currently navigating and living through gender does not provide.
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Waiting for the day when I can actually just highlight PDFs that I stole without having some weird security thing I don’t know how to turn off go like “ok you can have it but I’ll be damned if I let you edit it and save it”
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Hey I’m Weather, I’m a trans woman in my 20s, and I’m going to be houseless at the end of April. Which is not as bad as it sounds - I’ve lived out of my car before, and I drive doordash so I can still work while doing that. But I am hoping not to have to do it for long (it’s harder post-covid) and I do need to find somewhere to live before it gets colder again.
I’m looking for housing which is:
- In the North Carolina Triangle area (Raleigh, Durham, Cary, or Chapel Hill)
- Less than $450 dollars a month in rent and utilities
If you have a space for me or know someone who does, please message me on tumblr or discord (Weather#6893). If not, please reblog this post (and please reblog again if you haven’t seen it for a while - I expect this search to take time. I’ll edit this and mention in a reblog when I do find something.)
Seeing that “wait omfg vegetables don’t exist” tiktok and all of the reactions to it and wishing that I could experience some of that initial wonder abt social construction again rather than it having become so thoroughgoing and so mundane in my conception of reality
I might look like shit but at least these are gonna come out beautiful
I know I should but fuck I have such a mental block abt actually trying to find a therapist bc like even in the best case it sounds fucking exhausting, like over the past 28 years I’ve gotten to be a fucking world renowned fucking expert at like full-on despising myself, like what’s a therapist gonna do that I haven’t already tried, like maybe I’ve thought it through and I’m just not wrong abt this one, like I know myself best and maybe I’m just right abt myself