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i am your demon never leaving

@jsilverhvnd / jsilverhvnd.tumblr.com

edith. non-binary (she/her or he/him) & neurodivergent. slytherin. primarily cyberpunk, sometimes other stuff.
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call me edith or edie if you like. i use she/her or he/him pronouns. my blog's mostly cyberpunk 2077 these days, but i'll reblog shitposts or lord of the rings stuff too. i am nonbinary and neurodivergent, so i'll post about that as well. 💛🤍💜🖤

CYBERPUNK TAGS: my edits × my mods × tag games × ask games × ko-fi valentine voronin (my v's main tag) + answered asksu: runnin' down a dream [nomad!valentine] ✩ u: run like a rebel [streetkid!valentine] ✩ u: new future weapon [corpo!valentine] ♡ otp: electric dreams [valentine/johnny silverhand] ♡ otp: dynamic dorks [streetkid!valentine/arla valenti] ♡ otp: (almost) sweet music [nomad!valentine/velvet valentine] ♡ otp: scarlett cross [corpo!valentine/velvet valentine] ♡ otp: maps for the getaway [valentine/valkyrie]

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i'm going on hiatus until further notice. maybe forever, idk. i'm not really contributing anything around here anyway, and i'm tired of feeling guilty every time i like a post. i don't have the energy - physical or emotional - to keep up this blog and i barely take pictures of my own oc anyway, so what's the point?

it's been fun. i never would have met the folks i count as friends if it weren't for this community. but i'm not really part of it anymore, so i think it's better for my mental health if i stop hanging around. i'll be around on discord, of course, if anyone needs to reach out to me for one reason or another.

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i'm going on hiatus until further notice. maybe forever, idk. i'm not really contributing anything around here anyway, and i'm tired of feeling guilty every time i like a post. i don't have the energy - physical or emotional - to keep up this blog and i barely take pictures of my own oc anyway, so what's the point?

it's been fun. i never would have met the folks i count as friends if it weren't for this community. but i'm not really part of it anymore, so i think it's better for my mental health if i stop hanging around. i'll be around on discord, of course, if anyone needs to reach out to me for one reason or another.

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i'm going on hiatus until further notice. maybe forever, idk. i'm not really contributing anything around here anyway, and i'm tired of feeling guilty every time i like a post. i don't have the energy - physical or emotional - to keep up this blog and i barely take pictures of my own oc anyway, so what's the point?

it's been fun. i never would have met the folks i count as friends if it weren't for this community. but i'm not really part of it anymore, so i think it's better for my mental health if i stop hanging around. i'll be around on discord, of course, if anyone needs to reach out to me for one reason or another.

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I wanted to do this for a while just as a little celebration and gift for reaching 1k followers on this blog (wowza) and i’m just about right there so I’m gonna pull the trigger on it now. I’m giving away a color portrait in the style of the ones shown above of any character or OC. You have to be following me and enter by either liking or reblogging this post (or both! but only one of each will count please don’t spam. new followers also welcomes of course.) I’ll pick the winner randomly through a number generator and contact you via Tumblr DM. (I’ll need reference shots of your character if you choose an OC). Depending on how  things go, I may choose two winners.
Winner will be chosen on January 20, so this has a few days to circulate. And thank you to everyone here for all the support whether it be art or vp, it means so much to me <3
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real-forever

How I find new shows to watch:

  1. Recommendations from friends ❌
  2. Adverts ❌
  3. Netflix recommendations ❌
  4. Tumblr gifsets ✅
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katsigian

The Cyberpunk Fandom on Tumblr

After being away for a while and being able to step back and watch from afar, I can easily say that the fandom/community here on Tumblr is dying. Not surprising when you consider how competitive it's become. Not surprising when you consider how toxic and clique-y it's become.

If you're not in a clique, good luck getting notes.

If you're new, good luck getting notes. This place is horrendous for welcoming newcomers.

If you don't have an elaborately modded character and don't have the VP skills of a god, good luck getting your work seen.

Better watch your step or else you'll start an argument. Whether that's about mods or an NPC or headcanon. Better yet, don't share mods or headcanons at all. You will draw the wrath of somebody out there.

But make sure that you're posting new content every three days or else people will forget about you.

And don't make it too creative and different or else people won't like it. Just remix the same old picture in a new way over and over again.

And don't even think about sharing things other than VP of a hot person because nobody cares. All everyone wants to see is a hot person for 5.5 seconds. Put months and months of effort into developing a character? Too bad. Put a lot of love and time into developing lore and writing for your character? Better save it for yourself. No one on this app cares. Your character will be whittled down to how hot they are or not. That's a toxic community.

You have people who've been in this community for months that are hurting. There are people who are losing something they love when their work that they put effort into isn't being noticed. It stings when they're overlooked because they don't meet the ridiculous criteria in this community on this app. You have people that are scared to share their work. You have people that are struggling with their mental health because of this community. Because it's a toxic community. How do I know this? Because I've seen it happen, I've heard them say it aloud.

You have some people here who managed to make it to the top and the rest struggling to keep up. Do you really think it's healthy to have that kind of structure? Do you really think it's healthy that people are buying entire PC set ups just so they can take modded pictures and feel like they belong? That's a toxic community.

Do you really think it's a good thing that those who don't have elaborately modded V's and high end PC set ups aren't getting seen? 30 notes is hardly enough for some of the talent that I see around here. But they're overlooked because they aren't in the right clique or don't create the content that the fandom is demanding or don't use every mod in existence. That's a toxic community.

So what can you do to make it better? Share work that doesn't belong to only your friends. Leave nice notes on shares even if they aren't in your clique. Take a moment to appreciate it when people share something other than VP. Take a moment to appreciate those Vs that aren't elaborately modded. Take a moment to appreciate the talent of people here. Everyone here, not only the same 20-ish people.

This is something that is happening even on Discord servers. I've watched it happen, watched the interaction fade away. But it can be fixed if enough people put an effort into it. That means a real effort, a genuine wish for this community to continue on. If not, then we'll just have a handful of people sharing their VP into a void and nothing more. That isn't a community.

Put an effort in. Look beyond the scope of only what is in arms' reach. Appreciate what people create. Appreciate the effort that is put into their characters. Share things. Reach outwards and see the good in what people create even if they aren't what you've been brainwashed into thinking is good. Because we have been brainwashed. We've been brainwashed into thinking that we can't interact with anyone outside of our clique. We've been slowly made to think that only one set of criteria for VP and OCs are "good" and that is hurting so many people. Simply announcing that you 'think all work is good!' or 'I just do it for myself!' won't mend the hole that's being ripped into people when they aren't acknowledged.

Who is going to share your work when everyone is gone? Who's going to like your work when there's nobody to like it anymore?

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vintar

i had a meet n greet with the anaesthesiologist for my top surgery and he said it’s his favourite procedure to work on because everyone who wants it is just so truly happy to be there, and i can’t stop thinking about this career that is 99% attending to various sadnesses miseries and woes and 1% having funny little dudes in dangerfield buttonups throwing themselves on the operating table like YEEHAW LET’S GOOOO

i don’t normally add to people’s posts, but i’m an OR nurse who specializes in gender affirming surgery, and this is totally correct. when we bring the patient into the OR we always ask them what surgery they’re having (to make sure there are no oopsies) and more often than not, my top surgery patients will say “YOU’RE CUTTIN’ THESE BITCHES OFF” or “YOU’RE GONNA YEET THE TEATS” and i know i have the best job in the world.

thank you for the support, big dick wizard

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i truly believe that a lot of what gets labeled as “yearning” on here is actually deep & profound & excruciating loneliness & i really think we would have more productive discussions about it if we could just call a spade a spade

like loneliness is an incredibly serious mood state that has major implications for your physical & mental health & the pain it causes is far more intense than simple “yearning.” a deep, agonizing longing for human connection is actually a really really big deal

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