I just want to be held, is that really too much to ask?

Sarah Anderson

I used to wonder how I'd move on.

But today I saw you for the first time since you broke up with me.

You were so different.

The person I loved seems to be gone.

At least now I believe I will be able to move on.

Sarah Anderson

Sarah Anderson

And if this were the movies you'd show up at the airport tomorrow to pick me up. There would be flowers in your hands and I'd approach you with tears in my eyes. You would realize your mistake and I would forgive you in a heartbeat...

But this is definitely not the movies

-Sarah Anderson

Sarah Anderson

Sarah Anderson

Your Move

I made it clear,

Opened the door wide,

Even reached out my hand,

But you didn’t move.

-Sarah Anderson

You know what’s the worst?

When for some reason you have to defend your ex-boyfriend and the relationship you had together. Like for goodness sake we just broke up under very complicated circumstances and I’m still trying to sort out the feelings that I may still have for him. I don’t need some outsider asking questions and trash talking him. Like ya sure we broke up but the person your trashing is a person I chose to have a relationship with. So by putting them down, you’re kind of insulting me too.

Anyone else feel this? Anyways, rant over.

for once in my life

I have always been able to let people go. I’ve left and been left. I played with hearts and broke them. I left family and friends behind. It’s always been about going forward for me.

Then you came, and life turned into moving forward together. We made promises and plans. Finally I found my person.

But then you had to sort out your own life. And you knew that a relationship wasn’t viable. Somewhere you found the courage to let me go. You knew that if you didn’t I’d hold on and get dragged behind and be ripped up beyond repair.

And I’m so mad because in the past there was always anger. There was always something to provoke me to wipe the tears and move on.

But you haven’t wronged me. I’m not mad, I’m just hurting, because for once in my life I’ve been given permission to move forward, and for once in my life I find myself unable to.

Sarah Anderson

Why did you leave?