All friends need to read this:
Itās hard for you to understand why I am the way I am. I know you find it difficult to be my friend, I know my mood swings, my bad habits are difficult for you to deal with. I know you donāt understand how I can slice into my skin and still be smiling the next day. I know you hate it when I smoke and I understand why you refuse to accept it. I know when I explained it and said āit will help me die soonerā, āitās the relief I needā, it upset you, and I know you havenāt seen me the same way since. I know when you see a fresh scar that it hurts you, it hurts me too, Iām as disappointed in myself as much as you are in me. I remember when you found my stash of pills, and then you realised I was in trouble. I know you worry about my drinking habits, but it numbs the pain, the pain I canāt describe. More painful than anything physical and always on going. I know Iām a difficult friend, I know I donāt deserve you, but thank you. You really donāt know how important you are too me. Thank you for putting up with the mess that I am, you really have no idea how much I need you. And one day when you need me, Iāll be there for you š¤
