Hiya!

Sorry I vanish at random times. I get REALLY distracted with Twitter. I’m trying my hardest to finish the requests that I’ve had in my drafts for MONTHS, which people have probably forgot they requested by now, but hopefully those will be posted soon!

Until then, enjoy some long-haired Ethan aka my baby. :’) (The creds is my Twitter user.)

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Okaaaay, so I miss writing. I don’t really know anywhere else to post imagines & stuff, so I guess I’ll bring this account back. 

Feel free to send in requests/read what I’ve already written in my masterlist. :) 

Since I was inactive for months, I didn’t realize that a lot of brilliant, kind writers have deactivated. While this saddens me, because I loved reading their work, I get it. When I first started this account, I was under the impression that Twitter was where the toxic stans thrived, which is why I changed my user from a Dolan one, but I suppose that they’re everywhere, going against what the twins continue to teach us about acceptance. I missed the drama that went on, but I was filled in that most of it was because of the age of the writers. I would like to say in the kindest way possible that being judgmental & ruining someone else’s good time because of their age, gender, color of their skin, ANYTHING is absolutely disgusting & unnecessary. Now, you have ran off some of the most amazing writers I have ever had the privilege to read, & I hope you’re proud of making this place a ghost town. People like you are the reason fans decide to watch the twins & support them off of social media, because the fandom is too toxic to be a part of.

While I am angry, PLEASE be aware that I know that not everyone in this fandom is like that, nor am I trying to give this fandom a bad name! You must take the good with the bad, & I can assure you, I have met some of the sweetest, best people in this fandom. With that being said, I respect everyone’s decision on being mature enough to take yourselves out of negative situations. I truly hope you guys continue writing, because you are absolutely amazing. Don’t let anyone immature enough to attack you over when you were born change that. I wish you all the best.

This will be my last post here, as well. If you would like to keep in touch, feel free to follow me on Twitter: @oceanmerrell. I will follow back & would love to make new friends. :) Take care, & surround yourself with positive energy!

- A 22 year old who will continue stan Twitter with 0 fucks given.

HELLO, ALL! Sorry, I am terrible with keeping up with Tumblr, but I have been busy lately & not in the best mindset. However, I would like to start being more active again, as I miss writing. Writing really calms me down & relieves stress from things you can’t normally escape from. With that being said, I’m going to start off by writing my last request, (which was MONTHS ago, I’M SO SORRY), then move onto other pieces.

Thank you for not unfollowing me & being patient & stuff! I love you guys! :)

I don’t say this nearly enough, & even though I’m trying to put it into words, I know that no amount of words will ever express how I truly feel. I honestly don’t know where I’d be without Ethan. I remember feeling the lowest I have ever felt in my life & being in a dangerous spot, but then I discovered the videos, the inspiring posts, & so much more that have lifted me up in ways that I never thought would be possible again. Every time I need to be cheered up, I watch my favorite video. Every time I need a friend, I go to his DM’s & talk about anything & everything. (I know he will never reply, but it calms me down just to vent to someone I love most.) Every time I needed to feel important, I listen to him say “people love you, I love you, you are loved”. I always say that I love him, but I don’t exactly go into detail about how much. I wanted to write this because this would be some of the things I would say to him if I ever got lucky enough to meet him & hold him in my arms for a few brief moments, but it just hasn’t happened yet.

On a side note, never be ashamed of who gives you the will to carry on, in person or online. For me, it’s Ethan Grant Dolan. Some of my friends in person know about my Twitter account now, which this will also be posted to, & I know they’ll see it & maybe even roll their eyes or laugh. I can’t stress enough how much I could care less. Think of it this way: two boys on YouTube were there for me more than any friend ever was, so does it make more sense when I put it like that?

Ethan truly saved my life once, & I love him more than words can describe; not a delusional kind of love, but an “I am so thankful that you exist, because you’re the reason I do” kind of love.