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who painted the mona lisa?

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eya. 22, she/her. main acc.
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(does a lamb know it was bred for slaughter? when it finds out, does resentment course through its veins? father does it hope to be of use again does it hope for a better life or does it just wait to die)

inside my soul are the ghosts of abraham and isaac and they are playing out that story, only there’s no ram and no messenger and no god to say “stop, you have proven yourself faithful”. inside my soul is genesis chapter twenty-two verses one to thirteen, only it is just me perpetually offering myself, binding myself, raising the knife and obeying.

i am the sacrifice you raised me to be. i swallow the resentment and let it rust and deteriorate where i think no one can see. i am giving. i am still trying. is that not perfect?

no. my mother and i are sitting in the dark and she is crying and telling me she has failed me. i am twenty-one (xxi) with rage and venom and blood under my nails and she is apologizing for my childhood with closed eyes and her head bowed like she’s confessing in church instead of talking in my room.

for a prayer she says “i’m sorry. i see you, i know you’re struggling. i’m sorry it was all put on your shoulders” and for amen she says “i want you to be happy now, too”.

be happy now, too.

lord what is happiness? is it not to slice my chest and bleed into the soil for their grain lord is it not to eat the rind so there’s enough fruit for the rest lord if that was not right why was i made for this. why have i grown like this why am i me?

my mother says “my love, live for yourself. you deserve to be free.” but god hear me have i proven myself faithful? worthy? perfectly useful?

mother, forgive me. forgive me.

all i know is this cross.

all i know is to live for my family.

andi
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zabiume

i know everyone is sick of hearing me talk about this, but there is something so interesting about this idea that orihime is the one who witnesses ichigo's hollow transformations in all of its stages and that her pov is usually our indicator for whether or not he's too far gone. this is especially interesting when you consider the fact that the heart motif shows up repeatedly in her character arc. what is a hollow, if not a being that has lost its heart? orihime saw this happen to sora, so we can tell why it makes her uncomfortable every time ichigo loses a little bit of his. she is the 'heart' character, after all–the moral antithesis to ulquiorra's emptiness and nihilism. she believes the heart should be the foundation from which one fights, which is why she's anxious when ichigo loses sight of that and acts on his more vengeful impulses. remember, what zangetsu wants to protect is not what ichigo wants to protect, so they are constantly at odds with each other – the selfless, duty-bound human/shinigami side vs the self-protecting hollow/quincy side. it's why ichigo is so ashamed of himself when he wins his fight against ulquiorra. the only reason he even made it back to his human form at all was because he clung to the promise he made to protect orihime (a promise he made as a human with a moral purpose)

by the time horn of salvation comes around, ichigo proudly shows orihime his new form – orihime, who was traumatized by his complete loss of control (his death). orihime, whose reactions had upset him in his fight against grimmjow. he knows how important it is to her that he remembers why he fights, what impulses he's acting on, who is really the king when he wields his weapon. "this time i'm still me," he says, because he remembers how distraught she was when he was forced to throw everything away for absolute power. ichigo had never been sure about himself before, had always feared and resisted this side of himself before, but he's embraced it now and he can't help but tell her – part showing-off and part reassuring her that he will always be the guy she thinks he is (the one who wins fights and protects people and is endlessly undiscriminating about who he shows his kindness to)!!!! i am dead!!!!!

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a man self immolated in front of the israeli embassy in washington dc yesterday. not just any man. an active member of the us air force. he live streamed his death, and said that he refused to be complicit in a genocide any longer. he said that compared to what palestinians were facing every day, setting himself alight was nothing.

let me reiterate. an active duty air force member burned himself alive because he was so disgusted by what the us government was openly supporting. he live-streamed his own suicide, so the whole world could bear witness as a man in his military uniform set himself on fire to protest his government’s complicity in the horrors that we have all been forced to watch happen in real time. he became a new horror. footage of the immolation blurs him out the moment the fire catches, but you can hear him. it is over in seconds, really, but you can hear him screaming. he shouts “free palestine” until his body physically cannot make any sounds other than guttural screams of agony. and then he falls silent. a police officer arrives and points a gun at his still burning body, shouting at him to get down on the ground. and it is over.

his name was Aaron Bushnell. he was twenty five years old. and he isn’t here anymore because the political ruling class has decided that genocide is perfectly fine as long as it preserves imperialism. in the coming days, people will try to discredit him. to say that he was mentally unstable. they will try to bury his actions to save face and defend israel’s propaganda. do not let them. aaron knew what he was doing. he knew what he was doing when he put on his military uniform, set up his twitch stream, and made his final walk up to the embassy. he knew what would happen to him when he flicked that lighter. do not let them forget. aaron’s blood is on the hands of the political ruling class.

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witchywitchy

"B-but Palestinians can get their freedom with peace not violence 🥺🥺" no. Screw your feelings. The armed resistance against colonizers and murderers is what will give Palestinians their freedom and what will eventually achieve real peace.

An enemy that bombs and uses white phosphorus against civilians doesn't know nor practice what your broken moral compass describes as "peace". Freedom was proven throughout history not to be achieved through kneeling and asking the oppressor to kindly stop. Freedom needs to be taken by force. Your little Utopian way of thinking doesn't work in the real world. Your feelings don't matter because you're not the one living under occupation. Your feelings don't matter because you're not one of the thousands of children who lost their limbs. You're not one of the children who became orphans due to this genocide. You're not the mother who lost her child to the carpet bombing. You're not the father carrying the remains of your child in plastic bags. You're not the newlywed woman who lost her husband. You're not the one at risk of either getting killed any second or losing your loved ones in the blink of an eye!

"Peace" is not really a thing you see during a live ethnic cleansing!

PEACE is a WHITE MAN's WORD. LIBERATION is OURS.

Reblogging this as a fuck you to the previous person who opposed the resistance.

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heyftinally

Peace will never liberate oppression. It just won't, and if you think it will, you're too ignorant of history to be involved in this conversation.

Not once has "please stop oppressing us" made an oppressor go "aw, shit, my bad, sorry bro". Oppressors want power. They don't want equality. If someone is willing to murder in order to prevent you from having equality, they won't care if you ask from that equality "peacefully". They'll take it as an opportunity to murder you and make an example of you to make everyone else fear the same fate, thus allowing the oppressor to keep their power.

Equal rights are taken, not given. Peace was never an option, and that was decided the day Israel first began displacing, oppressing, and terrorizing Palestine when they took over and colonized the country for their own Zionist views.

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taviamoth

This is not a natural disaster. This was not inevitable. They didn't grow up like this. It was inflicted on them by the vilest sadists on earth.

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skate-high

To me, songs are kind of like bookmarks. Have you ever listened to a song that you haven’t heard in a while, and all of a sudden, all the memories of that time period come back, and you remember what your life used to be like. They’re like milestones in your life.

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doberbutts

That nb kid that got beaten to death in OK looks so much like a long time friend of mine that when I first saw the picture I was like "whoa that's [redacted] as a teenager" and then when I sent it to my friend her reaction was also "whoa that's me as a teenager???"

And that's the problem, isn't it. That kid looked identical to a cis friend of mine who is barely, barely, BARELY any amount of GNC. She's not hyper fem but she's also not particularly masculine any more than a typical rural Alabaman woman with too much shit to do to spend all day dolling herself up would be.

And that kid got beaten to death.

And buried under dead name and pronouns.

And I'm just kinda. Wondering where the safety and privilege is in that.

As I've said many times, I'm perfectly willing to talk about the areas in my life that have become safer as I pass with lore and more regularity. Now when are we going to talk about those who can't, or those whose gender expression isn't in passing, or those who have just begun their journey and haven't yet been able to do anything about it.

This kid looked just like my cis friend. They're dead now. If "looking cis" doesn't save you, what does?

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take a jacket just in case

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spritespi

[ID (copied from alt text): Digital painting of hands on an abstract laptop. Words say, "even though we don't talk anymore, I still call you my friend in stories, I still check the forecast for your town." End ID]

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So not only we have Steam Babies (the fanon nickname for Zutara children) but also Dune Babies (a fanon nickname for Taang children) and I'm feeling so much joy rn

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Friendly Reminder of Snow's inner monologue in the book:

  • He thought of people putting a price on her. With her long, pointed nose and skinny body, Tigris was no great beauty, but she had a sweetness, a vulnerability that invited abuse.
  • What was Sejanus up to? Was he trying to outdo him and steal the day’s thunder? To take his idea of coming to the zoo and then dress it up in a way Coriolanus could never compete with, because he could never afford to?
  • His filly in a race, his dog in a fight. The more he had treated her as something special, the more she’d become human.
  • Lucy Gray was one thing belonging to Coriolanus that he would never, ever get.
  • The thought of blackmailing old Strabo Plinth had definite appeal.
  • Someone suggested that he cared for her like a sister, and although he’d done nothing of the sort, he allowed it. No need to disrespect the dead.
  • Even his encouragement to sing for sponsors was an attempt to prolong the attention she brought him.
  • His girl. His. Here in the Capitol, it was a given that Lucy Gray belonged to him, as if she’d had no life before her name was called out at the reaping.
  • Even if Lucy Gray was confused on the issue, in the eyes of the Capitol, she belonged to him. What point would there be in crediting a district tribute?
  • If no one else seemed to be bothered by her questionable past, why should he be? (Questionable past being the fact that she had a love life before him)
  • A second-class citizen. Human, but bestial. Smart, perhaps, but not evolved. Part of a shapeless mass of unfortunate, barbaric creatures that hovered on the periphery of his consciousness. (Thinking about Lucy Gray)
  • “Sejanus Plinth,” said Coriolanus. Not that they were actually friends, but that wasn’t any of Dean Highbottom’s business.
  • Mrs. Plinth shook her head. “No. No. Your cousin’s his only friend.” How sad, thought Coriolanus. To have no friends.
  • Coriolanus couldn’t help feeling embarrassed for her. If you ever needed proof of the districts’ backwardness, there you had it. Primitive people with their primitive customs.
  • “Oh, yes?” said Coriolanus, only to be polite. Honestly, who cared? His entire future was on the line because of her wayward son.
  • But playing on that might be the way to manipulate him.
  • Coryo was a nickname for old friends. For family. For people Coriolanus loved. And this was the moment Sejanus decided to try it out? If he’d had the energy, Coriolanus would have reached over and strangled him.
  • “Superb,” he said. “Like everything you cook, Mrs. Plinth.” It wasn’t an exaggeration. Ma might be pathetic, but she was something of an artist in the kitchen.
  • The conversation wasn’t going the way Coriolanus had imagined. Where was the talk of reward money?
  • ...but the point was, he got to keep her. And he wanted to keep her. Safe and close at hand.
  • Perhaps there was a way out of his predicament after all? Another path to influence and power?
  • He’d been broke most of his life, but the Snows had always worked hard to maintain decency. These people had given up, and some part of him blamed them for their plight. (Thinking about District 12 people)
  • “No escaping that.” He leaned over and kissed her, flushed with happiness, because although he did not believe in celestial writings, she did, and that would be enough to guarantee her loyalty.
  • In some ways, it had been better to have her locked up in the Capitol, where he always had a general idea of what she was doing.
  • Oh, a ghost story. Ugh. Boo. So ridiculous. Well, he’d try hard to love it when he saw the Covey tomorrow.
  • “Guns? Not that I know of. How would he get guns?” Coriolanus was beginning to enjoy himself a bit. (During the interrogation after Sejanus' execution)
  • She wouldn’t be thrilled, obviously, when he told her there’d been a change of plans. That he was returning to the Peacekeepers and heading to District 2 tomorrow at dawn, essentially leaving her to her fate. (As soon as he realised that he wouldn't get caught, he immediately thought of going back to District 2 with no concern for Lucy Gray)

As good as the movie was, I do think that it's at fault for so many people falling for the idea that Snow wasn't always bad. He was, but it wasn't so obvious at first. As you can see, he always thought of himself and how things would benefit him. He looked down on Sejanus and his ma even though they were nothing but kind to him. He saw Lucy Gray as his possession. He was greedy and selfish, always trying to come up with ways to manipulate whatever situation he was in to his advantage. I really wish the movie showed that more.

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Coriolanus: no I do love Lucy Gray I do but where are we supposed to live??? a cave??? 🙄😵‍💫🤢

Katniss: 🥹 one time Peeta and I lived in a cave 🥹

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I know we all love to relate to Katniss and the people in the districts who are oppressed by the capitol, and if we only ever look at the power structures within our own countries many of us are like them, under the boot of oppressive capitalist governments; however. Our countries do not exist in a vacuum separate from the rest of the world. If we want to make comparisons between our current world and the world in the Hunger Games we need to understand that we live in a global economy where the exploitation of the global south maintains the wealth and power of the global north.

The lifestyles and wealth of people in the US, Canada, Australia, and Europe are maintained by the neo colonial relationship these countries have with the countries of South America, Africa, and Asia. The same way the lifestyle of those in the capitol is maintained by the exploitation of those in the districts. We are the capitol citizens. The natural resources we use don't come from our (in some cases stolen) land. They come from the global south. These resources are mined and extracted by exploited workers in the global south. Our products are made by exploited workers in the global south. Our food is grown by exploited workers in the global south. And every time those people elect a government who promises to nationalize these resources so the people can actually benefit, our governments in the north swoop in and coup democratically elected leaders. We replace them with right wing politicians who will maintain the current order in our favour, with no regard for how those politicians will treat their citizens. There are decades of examples of this, and it is ongoing.

The poverty in the global south is not 'naturally' occurring; it is maintained actively by our governments for the benefit of the global north. 75% of the worlds mines are owned by Canadian corporations, and most of these mines are in South America and Africa. It is South Americans and Africans who are forced into back breaking labour, sowing seeds whose fruit they will never reap. These countries are rich in resources they are kept from owning. You don't go to poor countries to make money.

And when I say 'the lifestyles and wealth of people in the north' I'm not just talking about the rich and famous, I mean all of us. I know there is vast inequality here, I am part of the working poor, believe me I know many of us still face immense oppression. However the majority of us, including the poor and working class, still benefit from this exploitation. The clothes we wear, the electronics we use, the cars we drive, the food we eat, all of that comes to us through the exploitation of people we rarely see.

In a real world comparison to the Hunger Games, citizens of the global north are the citizens of the capitol. There is inequality, just like in the capitol, however we are often protected from the worst sides of our governments. That brutality is reserved for those living outside of the imperial core, outside of the capitol.

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