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famous first lines of poetry pt. 1: bold the ones that apply to your muse.

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i saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked // tyger tyger, burning bright // i have done it again. // do not go gentle into that good night. // the sea is calm to-night. // let us go then, you and i, // april is the cruelest month, //  pretty women wonder where my secret lies. // there is a place where the sidewalk ends // i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) // two roads diverged in a yellow wood, // whose woods these are i think i know // let us twain walk aside from the rest; // once upon a midnight dreary, while i pondered, weak and weary, // i taught myself to live simply and wisely // it so happens i am sick of being a man // i wandered lonely as a cloud // does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? // o my luve is like a red, red rose // o captain! my captain! our fearful trip is done; // out of the night that covers me, // it was many and many a year ago, // you may write me down in history // do not stand at my grave and weep // some say the world will end in fire // some say in ice. // hope is the thing with feathers // the wind was a torrent of darkness among the gusty trees, // no man is an island, // remember me when i am gone away, // i met a traveler from an antique land // ‘twas brillig, and the slithy toves // this is thy hour o soul, // when we wear the mask that grins and lies, // death be not proud, // and death shall have no dominion. // laugh, and the world laughs with you; // the art of losing isn’t hard to master; // to see a world in a grain of sand // is there anybody there? said the traveller // nobody heard him, the dead man, // that crazed girl improving her music. // come to me in the silence of the night; // where the mind is without fear and the head is held high // when you are old and grey and full of sleep, // in flanders’ fields the poppies blow // i thought of you and how you love this beauty // life, believe, is not a dream // it may be misery not to sing at all, // if tarry space no limit knows // come live with me and be my love, // had we but world enough and time, // my heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains my sense // bright star, would i were stedfast as thou art— // thou still unravish’d bride of quietness // how do I love thee? let me count the ways. // heaven is what i cannot reach // my dear, my dear, i know // in visions of the dark night // shall i compare thee to a summers day? // break, break, break // she walks in beauty, // i had a dream, which was not at all a dream. // he clasps the ring with crooked hands.
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His lips remain in a thin line as steel hues stare at Jihyun with the intensity and sharpness of hawks’ eyes. Jumin’s tolerance was little to nonexistent when his emotions made him succumb like this. For now, he would evaluate and continue to ascertain Jihyun to see if he was worthy of being redeemed for the treats that Jumin was  taunting over his head like a meaty bone to a canine. Although his knees were bent and straddling the slimmer, sleeker lap Jumin was on, the directive made it evident he was in a position of power. Now face-to-face, the Han heir knew that a little teasing hurt no one.  However, his legs remained stoic–solid, even. They would not budge, as if they were made out of stone themselves. Instead, his arms bent back to discard the blazer that he adorned, letting it fold in half before Jumin turned his torso to let the jacket lie there and out of the way. His vest and dress shirt hiding underneath that sleek coat, the CEO lounged a touch longer in the space of V’s lap.Who was he to call of things so preemptively? Certainly not Jumin Han–and truth be told, he’s been yearning for this type of encounter with the photographer for years. There had been some feelings that existed little over a decade that the heir to C&R never got to resolve. 
In the present, he’s doing just that. slow motions hint at V to make the same motions; but of course, he would praise the blind man if he is still able to hold in his restraint. Jumin was aware it had more than likely been quite a while since the former fiance had been touched so intimately, let alone have another partner after Rika had passed away. Let alone it be Jumin, of all people. Even now, he was surprised at the events that unfolded, although could never have imagined this in his dreams ( okay, he did, often, during his school years. But never like this. . ).
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Hands were gentle then, taking V’s into his when hips rolled forwards slowly. The executive’s own eyes were a bit heavy, although he fought to keep himself awake and not succumb to lust. Instead, he would raise V’s wrists up above his head. Slowly, one hand turned to keep their secure grip on them while another hand hooked at the man’s necktie, unloosening it to use it for another function. Jumin was quick on his feet when it came to thinking on the fly during these scenarios, and his creativity had a way of slipping out every now and again.  Snickers came out as Jumin leaned over, with that mirth tickling against the shell of Jihyun’s ear. He changed, his mind–then deciding to bind the man’s arms behind him while Jumin wore a well-satisfied smirk on his lips.

❛ You can speak now: is that too tight, Jihyun? ❜

THERE REMAINS VERY LITTLE SOUND AFTER HIS NOD. yet this time no anxiety rises, no unease begins to taint this union. trust, he reasons, is so absolute there needs nothing more than there bodies connected in this beginning stage of resolution. it consumes his senses, throws off his idea of being until he feels nonexistent, alive yet floating   /   drifting   /   flying   ;   a contradiction living off the fuel given freely by the other. though   ‘   freely   ‘   isn’t the right word for this. conditional is closer, yet there are no stipulations that would result in abandonment   /   anger   /   abuse. jumin would never harm him, never raise hand against him in fury nor anguish. jumin would never force him to partake in something he felt uncomfortable in, would never leave him on a whim because he did not do as he asked. jumin, as he always had, understands the heart within that has been left to wilt & wilt & wilt & wilt. he understands when he flinches, understands when a certain word or phrase sends him into a panic, the dead parts of his soul revived only to torture   /   terrify   /   test. he understands. ( THAT IS WHY HE FEELS NO FEAR, WHY HE ALLOWS HIMSELF TO BE CONSUMED AS HE IS NOW. ) soft sounds draw his attention, rustling and folding evident. he sucks in a breath, options conjured by mind flashing into creation. many things could be the cause of the sound, one in particular causing a low whine to issue forth. it’s cut off a second later, flush deepening upon cheeks. ( HE SEES AN IMAGINED VISAGE DISSOLVED OF BARRIERS BETWEEN. ) arms almost instinctively reach out to touch, explore, claim. it’s moments like these he wishes eyesight still thrived, wishes the darkness he’s enveloped in would fade into colour   /   brightness   /   contrast   /   sharpness. he has a photographer’s mind, can’t help but imagine the white balance, the saturation, the soft features captured beautifully upon canvas. he misses him. he misses him more than he thought he would. ( IT’S TOO LATE TO TURN BACK TIME. )

he’s trying to be quiet, trying to force sounds longing to make themselves known back to where they came from. alas, the pressure   /   heat   /   friction amounts to something he can only describe as frustration. it sings through body, yet isn’t enough to satisfy. ( YOU CANNOT GIVE A MAN A TASTE OF FREEDOM AND THEN SWIFTLY TAKE IT AWAY. IT WILL ONLY MAKE THE MAN YEARN FOR IT ALL THE HARDER. ) hips move on their own accord, the thought of consequences far from consciousness. God above, he nearly weeps with the feeling. that coil tightens again, relaxes with every pull. it builds upon itself, adding a shiver here, a soft gasp there. he should restrain himself, should follow the other’s orders. ( THE COLLAR THAT SITS AT THROAT REMINDS HIM, AS IT SHOULD, OF HOW THE BALANCE OF POWER WORKS. ) he’s already close, already clouded and ready to find release. it’s been so long, too long. he aches, don’t you see? he wants & wants & wants & cannot be held for long, lest he become desperate   /   fiery   /   primal. he stops himself when hands are taken, chest heaving under the weight of lungs crying, crying, crying, crying                    ( HIS SOUL IS DOING THE SAME FOR HE IS A SINNER IN THE EYES OF THE ALMIGHTY. )

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breath against ear, sending a sharp      ah!   ‘   to jump past lips. embarrassment floods him once more, yet he sighs as hands are pushed behind back, bound and tied and ... and ... he can’t think. he can’t. nothing makes sense except that he’s here, that he bares throat in submission. this is all he wants, this absolution only jumin can offer. ( A GOD IN HIS OWN RIGHT, ONE WHOM HE INTENDS TO WORSHIP. ) wrists tug, move, trying to spear apart the bonds. they hold firm, allowing minimal movement but enough to satisfy the other. ( HE COULD CARE LESS AT THIS POINT. MAKE HIM YOURS, JUMIN. CLAIM HIM AS A MAN YOU INTEND TO KEEP. )                               ‘   they’re ...     a deep breath, body strung tight.   ‘   they’re fine, sir.   
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Eyes crinkle when they hear those six words, and it’s enough to make the oft stoic and bitter businessman exude a breath of mirth and life between he and the other panting man. Rosy cheeks start to get slightly sore from all the smiling that Jihyun willed him to do, no better than a puppeteer after the Han’s heart.

Body flush against his partner’s, that sole call of his name is enough to sustain the heir throughout the entire night. He inhales, exhales, and smiles once more.. It’s a gentle cycle that brings relief, and a piece of mind to the businessman. All day today, he’s had his mind on V, and to see him again. Once, twice, not even thrice in a week was enough for Jumin–it never was when it came to the photographer.

Elongated digits curl underneath the jawline of the shorter male, before Jihyun hears that very family groan roll out of his childhood friend’s throat. It’s an unmistakeable one–one only Jihyun would have the pleasure of hearing tonight.

❛ You’re all mine. ❜

Brows rise as his index finger goes to toy with the collar ‘round the cerulean-haired male’s throat–a clear and obvious reminder that the man was taken. No one else could savor such sweet sorrow and compassion from the likes that V could express. 

Deftly did the side of Jumin’s ankle catch the edge of the door before he helped his partner move enough for the door to close. His love for him consumed him wholly and entirely, like a rash that was spreading on his skin–he kept itching–eager to touch and kiss Jihyun like it was their last day together. Safe to say, hardly any words were exchanged but the shared pants and occasional bouts of mirth that came whenever Jihyun or Jumin bumped either their noses or foreheads against each other.

LORD, TAKE HIS SOUL. if there is a God above, a being with the power to judge and forgive, let Him now see the sin he allows himself to commit. no other forces will him to take this action, no other creature other than himself   /   his wants   /   his needs move him forward into the other’s embrace. lips sting, the previous bite leaving him stunned, dazed. he swears his knees are weak, the flush he feels against his cheeks growing hotter the more he thinks about it. embarrassing how much he needs this, needs him. ridiculous how heart speeds up faster & faster & faster &              (   ‘   YOU’RE ALL MINE   ‘   /   TAKE ME, TAKE ME, TAKE ME. ) something within stomach flips, causes breath to hitch and stutter. body moves where commanded through touch, mind already beginning to haze. ears register the soft click of the door, shoulders sagging in relief. privacy is ... welcomed. considering their status, their activities, their environment. it puts that ever present anxiety to rest, allowing a gentle sigh to part through lips.

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BODY SCREAMS IN PROTEST AS HE PULLS AWAY, forehead once again resting again jumin’s. one second, two, three. he craves his taste again, wishes to fall to knees and worship   /   sanctify this perceived HOLY COMMUNION. another beat, another moment where he feels fluttering within frame. say it, jihyun, say it.                       ‘   take me to bed, sir.      he almost wants to laugh, almost wishes he could take back the words. it’s still ... odd, saying as such. but the fire hidden beneath clothing, skin, is driving him mad. ( PUT HIM OUT OF HIS MISERY. )   ‘   i ... have been waiting for you.   
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me and silas have like. 4 threads. 2 of them are sin. we have 50% of our threads as sin. im going to hell.
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There was a pleasant little grin on the executive chairman’s lips when his partner did as he was told. However, Jumin was never one to hand rewards out so freely; even if Jihyun was a bias, he would make the man work for it, so he would appreciate its worth. When Jumin was in a rewarding mood, he could be quite generous, both as a lover and as the one who wields the whip. However, should one misbehave, and the man would be quick to re-educate them on how vital it is to be good for him.

He took two steps and paused, waiting patiently. Lips gradually went back to the firm line before his eyes assessed Jihyun’s state. He would make his partner wait. All in due time, he would fulfill the promise he made to the photographer–but not before he made him work for it.

❛ You don’t speak unless I tell you to. ❜

Words crisp and short, Jumin allows a hand to lightly grip the other’s chin. Digits lightly brush against his jawline, before the man went over to to Jihyun, before releasing his grip. Raising a knee, Jumin paused to unhinge it loose, followed by the right foot. Slowly, as to not startle Jihyun, the older man took his seat on his throne–V’s lap. Jumin had a plan for the night, and was certain in makinh Jihyun work in order to reap his rewards. Straddling him, the heir leaned slowly before a roll of his hips came to tease the photographer. 

❝ Think you can behave? ❞

FOOTSTEPS INSIGHT SHIVERS THAT DANCE DOWN SPINE, body tensing and relaxing over and over, as if the sound and vibrations themselves were soothing   /   exhilarating.  it forces a small gasp to slip between parted lips, the sensation unlike any other. he wants to beg, wants to ask for something more, more, more, more                the words echo, crashing down onto his frame as if a wave, a whip, cresting over & over & over again. a shaky inhale, still waiting, waiting, waiting. the urge to beg rises again, the silence following his words now eating at skin. it creates a tingling in arms, thighs, neck   ;   a numbness that creates a dimension completely the opposite. ( HE ALMOST WISHES TO KEEP MOUTH SHUT, TO KEEP THOSE PLEAS AT THE EDGE OF TONGUE FROM ESCAPING INTO THE OPEN. HE IS DOSED IN AN ABSOLUTION. TOUCH HIM NOW, AND THERE WILL BE NO REPRIEVE FROM HIS DEMISE. ) no. no, no, no, no, no! he feels the other’s heat before he registers touch, a louder gasp now, teeth digging into lower lip to stifle it. he shakes harder, tries to hide how needy he’s become. ( IS APPALLED AT HIS OWN REACTION. ) breathing is harsh, rapid, as he breathes through his nose, eyes still shut if nothing more than a way to force himself steady. ( BREATHE, JIHYUN. RELAX. 1 PETER 5:7 - CASTING ALL YOUR CARE UPON HIM   ;   FOR HE CARETH FOR YOU. ) 

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a breath in and                    oh. the touch sends mind reeling, the sensation radiating throughout body. heat pools low, something in chest tightening as he huffs out the air he had been so greedy to take in. lungs burn, an ache forming in the pit of his stomach. he wants to grab something, anything. latch clipped nails onto the other’s arms, back, thighs. wants to tell him to stop, that it’s too much for his overexcited form to handle. it’s been so long since he’s been touched like this, been so long since he’s felt the overpowering want course through veins as if that once so familiar ichor. ( HE WAS MARKED FOR CONDEMNATION. THIS FEELING OF HELLFIRE IS THE LESSER OF WHAT HE THUS DESERVES. ) he struggles to be quiet, letting breathing gradually even out one more. a whimper or two escapes, shame quickly corroding the previous pleasure. the fog clears slightly, head nodding in response, too afraid to speak   /   move in case his master deems him disobedient. ( PLEASE. PLEASE KEEP GOING. LET ME FEEL WHAT IT’S LIKE TO BE WHOLE   /   HOLY AGAIN. )
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BOLD ANY WHICH APPLY TO YOUR MUSE. ITALICIZE WHAT THEY LIKE.

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fire. ice. water. air. claws. fangs. wings. gold. diamonds. grass. leaves. trees. roses. metal. iron. rust. rain.snow. lace. silk. cotton. sun. moon. stars. blood. dirt. mud. silver .steel. sugar. salt. lavender. glass. wood. paper. wool. fur. smoke. ash. ocean. bruise. scar. laceration. brand. burn. wind. spices. light. dark. paint. charcoal. wine. hard liquor. sweat. dust. bare feet. canine. feline. coffee. tea. books. scratches. petals.thorns. hay. glitter. heat. cold. steam. frost. candle. sword. dagger. arrow. hammer. shield. spikes. sand.rocks. roots. feathers. pearls. rubies. sapphires. emeralds. herbs. waves. lightning. sunlight. moonlight.clay. stone. brick. marble. fruit. meat. poison. medicine. snake. bird. clock. shell. leather. chain. ribbon. tie. hat. heart. spade. map. boot. love. loss. healer. killer. liar.

TAGGED BY: @corrups aka evil saran wrap  TAGGING: @accruralic, @oceauz, @solelioness, @zenderela

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For V

Dear V,
My daughter, Viktoria, saw your old camera that I kept in the attic. She's in love with it now. I think she got your artistic passion.
Missing you,
Jumin
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Dear Uncle V,
I don't know you but whenever I asked Daddy about you he'll just say 'the man who I will never forgive'. But you know, everytime Daddys says that his expression turns really sad! I think my Daddy misses you.
Sincerely,
Hanuel Choi
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Dear V,
Today I brought my son to the mall to look for his tenth birthday present. I said we could get the game console that he wants. He picked up a camera in the end.
I hate to admit this but I miss you,
Yoosung
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Dear Mr. V,
I wish I could have met the man my Papa looks up to even until today.
Love,
Saeng Ryu
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