taehyung’s speech, UN general assembly 2020

THE STAR x ATEEZ

day 21: UNVEIL

 squishy 🐰

• the rivalry between you and felix started when the both of you were tied on 1st place for your biology test paper
• your teacher said “for the next test, i’m looking forward to see who’s the real first place. is it y/n? or is it felix? or maybe it could be anyone else?”
• you remember shooting felix a glare because you! wanted! to! be! the! top! student! alone!
• felix had a mindset like you too so he was already staring at you down scarily too when he first found out that he wasn’t the only first place.
• the both of you had the same thoughts: yes. i’m better than her/him. that first place belongs to me, and only me.
• ever since that, you guys would have a competition with each other on everything. when i say everything, i mean, e v e r y t h i n g
• “oh the freestyle dance battle? felix got first, and y/n was the first runner up!”
• “the swimming competition? y/n was in the first place, and felix got second!”
• it’s like everything is only either you or felix. and of course, because of this the both of you kinda hated each other like uGh WhY iS iT aLwAyS yOuUuU!?!?!?
• also after the other won, the other would always be in denial about everything sjsjsjs
• that time you were on your period so everything was stressing you out™️ so that day when felix got the last piece of pizza instead of you, you legit cried in front of your best friend and kept ranting to her on how you grabbed it first.
• the day you were chosen as miss joo’s favourite student of the month, felix went up to miss joo and went all like “miss joo how is she your fav when i deadass even carried your heavy purse and all your books back to your table. i don’t understand–”
• anyway if there’s one thing felix should know about you, is that you would never give up until only you get that first place on the next biology test.
• that’s also how felix felt.
• but one day the problem was you didn’t understand one of the topics but you knew felix understood it and even wrote notes on it.
• and somehow, you knew felix liked to summarised and simplify everything on every topic so you thought his notes would be easier for you.
• of course you wouldn’t ask him for his notes just like that duHh
• luckily for you, hwang hyunjin aka felix’s best best best friend was also your friend and deep inside you knew he had a thing for you in the past so it wasn’t really hard to convince him to steal felix’s notebook for you.
• “here!” hyunjin exclaimed as he handed you a notebook that you assumed was felix’s. “give it back during lunch time, yeah? felix would kill me if he finds out”
• you winked, “of course, i’ll just take pictures of his notes and i’m done.”
• honestly you did trust hyunjin. you really did. but apparently even though you were his ex crush, he was still more loyal to his own best friend. #belikehyunjin
• it didn’t take you long enough to realise that the book the gave you wasn’t the biology notebook that you wanted, “felix’s diary” was written in front of the cover.
• honestly you were quite disappointed so you decided to just give hyunjin the book back.
• as you were walking your way to hyunjin’s classroom which was on the other side of the school, the wind was strong and your hair was also covering your face and unknowingly the book slipped out of your hands, the book landed on the ground, opened to a random page.
• “so annoying!” you yelled to yourself before picking the book up, checking for any damages because you liked to keep your books neat and in good condition.
• as you were cleaning off some dirt of the papers of the page, you couldn’t help but pause when you saw the word love in among the lines.
• lee felix – the guy who is never in a relationship – talking about love?
• reading someone’s diary was wrong. it was invading someone’s privacy, you knew that but curiousity got you better.
• it’s lunch and now she’s just a few tables away from mine. i could hear her laugh from here – and it’s the most beautiful thing i’ve ever heard this week lol. can you believe, her laugh could turn a frown upside down? i was in a bad mood the whole day, but after lunch, after seeing her, i felt motivated and content. it’s ironic because i don’t show or tell anyone i felt this way. i had to act cold and different in front of her. when in reality i just wanna pull her into a tight hug and tell her she was the best thing that could ever exist. CRINGY and i’ve never been this cringy but i like her. no, i lo–
• “what the fuck are you doing with my fucking notebook?”
• surprised by the sudden growl, you jumped back a little but when you looked at the owner of the voice, you immediately froze in your place.
• felix—and he definitely didn’t look happy about it.
• the first thing you noticed was his cheeks and ears were flushed and his eyes screamed panic as it glared into yours. you never saw him this angry.
• “i– i just–”
• he cut you off by snatching his book back angrily, “why did you do that?”
• his voice was low and it made you scared a lil, but because it was too low, you couldn’t hear what he said. “what–”
• “i said why did you read this!?”
• this was also the first time he screamed at you.
• you didn’t even wanna fight him at that time because you knew you were wrong in the situation. so instead, shamefully, you looked down.
• “don’t fucking talk to me anymore.” he hissed, walking away, purposely bumping his shoulder with yours.
• the night after the incident, you really didn’t get any sleep at all—which is very rare since you care about your skin and health a lot. but that night was different. you felt really guilty, and somehow sad.
• you never witnessed felix that upset and you thought that the girl he loved but have been really special to him.
• the next morning, felix (who also didn’t get any sleep) walked into the classroom and saw a bottle of banana milk with a pink note and he’s like????who
• ‘morning lee felix, here’s to a refreshing thursday! i hope you have a great day today. and i’m sorry :(’
• he scoffed slightly as a smile threatened to appear onto felix’s face when he read the note.
• “as if her handwriting isn’t obvious.” he muttered, glancing at you who immediately looked away when he caught you staring.
• felix nodded to himself, chewing his inner cheek so he wouldn’t smile. cute, he thought.
• lowkey he felt bad for yelling at you too yesterday. he was just panicking that you were reading his confession about you. it was a great decision of him to not write your name smh
• he took the banana milk and inserted the straw into the bottle before taking a sip.
• “hey y/n,” he called out from across the classroom, causing everyone to look at him in surprise, especially you.
• felix sat down before looking at you, trying to maintain a serious expression, “i like cola better.”
• you couldn’t help but roll your eyes when he gave you his remark. but also, you couldn’t help but to smile a little.
• everyone witnessing you two were confused on how today you guys weren’t bickering as usual – but somehow they felt happier seeing how the both of you are calmer than the other days.
• the rest of the week was you trying to get felix’s forgiveness and you knew you were almost there.
• every time he sees the same banana milk with a note every morning, you noticed how easily he smiles at it but when he realised you were watching him, he immediately made a poker face.
• honestly speaking felix actually liked the fact that he already told you he liked cola better but then you still gave him the same banana milk every day.
• he was really whipped for you.
• and secretly, you were also whipped for him.
• and everyone could see that – everyone except the both of you who are truly in denial. hyunjin and chaeryoung gets frustrated every time the both of you deny having feelings for each other lmaoo
• the both of them really wondered until when will you and felix act dumb like¿?just fucking confess
• that one day, felix walked into the class and didn’t see any banana milk and he was iNTERNALLY CONFUSED don’t even get me started with his confused face–and you weren’t even in class so he was worried because you? skipping class?
• “chaeryoung, where’s y/n?” he asked your best friend, who unknowingly smirked.
• “our felix is searching for his girl. anyway, she’s sick at home. i’ll text you her address, you want to go during recess right–”
• “no. give me her address now, i’m going to check on her right now”
• chaeryoung was surprised because the first subject was biology and didn’t felix say he would do anything to get the first place?
• anyway, felix immediately went to your house because really, he was worried.
• “y/n!” he exclaimed, barging into your room, immediately causing you sit up from your lying down position because of the sound. “felix? what are you doing here?”
• it was kinda awkward, but felix cleared hid throat, looking at everywhere except you. “i-i wasn’t worried, i was just wondering why my banana milk is not on my table this morning.”
• you smiled cheekily, “nobody asked if you were worried but okay.”
• felix rolled his eyes playfully before sitting next you on the bed, placing his hand on your forehead, feeling your fever.
• “you’re pretty hot — did you check your temperature already?”
• your eyes widened slightly as you let out a giggle, “did you just call me pretty hot?”
• felix looked at you blankly before his cheeks started to flush into bright red, “you know what i mean!—hey, you’re so evil!”
• again, you laughed and this time felix laughed along with you out of embarrassment.
• after that, the air was filled up with silence, but not awkward silence, it was a comfortable silence, where the both of you are just sitting there, with the shy smiles on your faces.
• “by the way,” he murmured , “i forgive you.”
• you grinned at him when he said that, obviously relieved that you were officially forgiven. “thank you, felix-ah.”
• felix nodded shyly before he decided to stand up, stretching before turning to you again, “i’m going to bring you some water. wait, okay?”
• when he was gone for awhile, something bothered you and you couldn’t seem to get the thoughts away.
• why was he so caring? why do you feel like your heart is bursting from its’ cage every time you see him?
• honestly, you weren’t that naïve and you knew somehow you had feelings for felix – but there was no way he had feelings for you.
• he was truly in love with the girl he wrote about. but who was the girl?
• “hey you okay?” he interrupted your thoughts as he softly shoved the glass of water in front of your face.
• of course you said you were fine and you took the glass and drank a little of it as you watched felix walking around your room, exploring it like it’s a room tour.
• felix spotted a photo frame on your study table and immediately approached it and held it up to see closer. it was an old family picture and you were still like seven in that picture.
• he chuckled, his heart fluttered. how could you be so cute?
• “hey felix, can i ask you something?” you finally decided to ask, placing the glass on the side table of your bed. hearing him hum, you nervously played with your fingers, “who’s the girl?”
• felix froze, almost dropping the frame as he quickly put the frame back onto the table. he knew exactly what girl you were referring to – and he wasn’t sure if he was ready to tell you or not.
• “the girl i’m in love with?” he started, felix turned around slowly to face you, “she’s a beautiful lady. a goddess-like. her humour is amazing and she has a big heart. she isn’t an empty talker, her brain is always full with ideas and she isn’t afraid of speaking out. she can be dramatic sometimes, but she’s always honest. i don’t know, she just seem so perfect.”
• honestly speaking—your heart broke as he kept talking about how flawless the girl was, and you could only bite your lower lip, trying not to break into tears.
• felix took a deep breath before walking closer to you and again, taking a sit beside you on your bed, leaning closer and closer until your faces were just a few centimeters away.
• “the girl i’m in love with,” he whispered, “she’s right in front of my eyes. so close to me. i love her, so much. and i hate that i love her.”