Just a continuation cause I'm not done talking about them yet 🤧then I'm done for now....but the last one, I highlight peat acting, and here I think fort as well. When Sky is opening up about everything, you see pai intensively listening, not interrupting. Even as Sky is talking down on himself, self depreciating pai doesn't interject he let's sky speak on how he feels what he's been feeling. It doesn't mean he agrees with him, but he can empathize with sky here. As good as pai is being emotionally available, he doesn't judge him here. And so when pai is obviously choked up trying to stay strong for him and pours out this deep sorrow that he wasn't there then, and sky being the one to reassure him after he had Just retold that horrible part of his past, he consoles him here and tells him that it wasn't too late cause look at where they are now. He's sitting with the man he loves, and he just opened up this part of himself, and he's happy that it's with him no one else. He's happy so happy that he doesnt think it can get better or he'll be fearful but pai telling him he wouldn't even have to be scared cause he'll make him happy alwas with no fear in sight! They are ready to live this life to its fullest, and the way this scene was just done in such a sensitive understanding for the person watching it is just 🤧👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

I'm back with another lita post😁, but this time on episode 13 cause I'm rewatching it, and im stunned each time with fortpeat performance in these heart-wrenching scenes. I mean, if you've watched, we've seen Sky's journey of allowing himself to trust and fully love pai allow himself to be happy be selfish and have this, which was the scariest thing to do cause of his past.

And peat wow🤧 his portrayal of Sky here, and later in the next scene when he goes to tell his story of what happened. It is the highlight of his acting! *makes me so excited for Love Sea* but Sky isn't crying. He looks so drained, and Prapai asks for him to cry, not to hold it in, but as he starts to cry himself, Sky asks him why. And then these lines!! If you can't cry, I'll cry for you. If you suffer, I will suffer with you, if your in pain, I'll be in pain too. Let me cry in your stead.

Pai is so emotional here, but he needs to have Sky see him like actually see him! He doesn't want to lose him again he isn't gonna leave him he wants to if anything be barrier for the pain he's feeling right now 😭😭😭😭Yet he's trying his best hold up but can't help but to cry

He doesn't want Sky to think this is something he has to face on his own, and what just happened won't make him change his mind. He's gonna listen and always encourage Sky to feel whatever it is he's feeling to him.

Which is so good cause in the special ep sky does that tho he feels already securee in his relationship with pai at this point of their relationship he says he knows how much pai loves him and knows his heart 🤧,he doesn't feel uncomfortable to express that discomfort of having his exes being around. And pai takes full responsibility for that and acknowledges it. He's sorry his past still is getting in the way of their relationship. And that's something sky shouldn't have have bear with constantly of his ex flings. Healthy communication at it's finest!!!

Even as back in ep 12 for sky to admit to himself that he actually loves pai as sad as it was to see sky break from this wall he was trying to keep up, a wall that protected him and told him that it was too good to be true and pai didnt really love him at all. But i think sky already knew he loved him and he lenaded into it but like i said seeing pai prove his point that made him retreat. But pai being there and reading all the things sky wrote about him making him see that this isnt really what you want and though u cant tell me yet how you really feel about me. It's okay cause I love you and you can too tell me you love me. like 😭😭😭😭😭

l'm probably rambling but like their relationship is just everything to me i can't put into words lol

Prapai’s Past - Character Study with Headcanons

Out of the blue, we had a very interesting convo yesterday at the server. It started with ‘Prapai’s happiness’ and turned into ‘What might have happened in Prapai’s past?’ 

A lot of headcanons came up, halfway turned into a deep character study we want to share with everyone. 

Buckle yourself in, get a drink. This will take some time :3 

A short Prapai Character Study

We often joke about Prapai being empty-headed about anything that is not Sky and Sky's body, but we never think of him as just a dopey guy. He has to be brilliant at his job. His father wouldn't have made him CEO if he were an idiot. He has brilliant emotional intelligence. He just plays the smiley fuckboi, because that's what people expect him to be.

The amount of burden he has to carry on his shoulders must be beyond imagination. 

The pressure? The expectations? 

Prapai’s family seems to be supportive, but they still loaded expectations upon expectations on him.  

The boy raised his siblings, said so himself. How fast has he had to grow up? How old was he when he lost his childhood?

Where was Pai's mother in this? Why did the responsibility for his siblings fall on Pai? Why not someone else? They are rich. They could have had help. Nannys? Other family members? Literally anyone but Pai? So why Pai?

A possible headcanon:

Pai's mom was there when Phan and Plerng were still small, but when they got older, it fell on Pai. Largely because Pai was always present and wanted to take care of them, loved them more than himself - that's how this boy is, really. In the end, Pai was too protective to let someone else care for them?

In a way, if looked for deep enough, it becomes tragic. Why? Because he had the money for a place to live, all the food and stuff he might have wanted. But he was too young to carry the responsibility of a family, and it led him to make hard choices.

Prapai is incredibly intense in whatever he does.

He was given a lot of responsibility since a young age, not only from his parents because his dad most likely already had the intention for him to become CEO the moment he was born, but also because he cared for his siblings the way he did. It might have ended up coming naturally to him, not only because he IS loving like that, but because he's been slowly put into a position of "taking care of things", whatever those may be. Started off as helping out his brother with a bruise, ended up in making deals and ensuring the status of the company.

On the other side, we see what happens IF Pai stops wearing that mask of smiles, and his charming sunny boy self. It's been a thing when Sky cut him off. But what really got us was the way he looked when he got up to repay Gun’s efforts.  

There wasn’t a trace of a smile. Prapai’s eyes were intense, focused. His stance was tall, grand, room filling. Someone hurt the man who is his heart? His life? 

This is the moment the mask falls completely. What we find is an intense Prapai. A protective Prapai. A Prapai who doesn’t fear to keep those safe he wants to have safe no matter what it costs.

This Pai is the real Pai. 

Why the smiles?

If you have no idea why he keeps smiling and being the sunny boy, it's easy to say that he just is like that because he never had to worry about anything. He's from a rich family. He had his future set out. He's pretty. 

But what does it need to be a young CEO? 

That is what many underestimate. How there's ALWAYS people telling you how you are too young for the job, that there's no way the company survives under your hands. That you only got the position bc of X instead of your own hard work. If you leash out, it's all over. Everyone goes "Told you. He's not made for the position." So what is left? Smile. Be charming. Maybe add a bit of puppy eyes and acting innocent because it always helps. We all see it at Pai. We hc he not only got hurt relationship wise, but also has to take slights on an everyday base. He has a way to cope with it, but it's a thing many people choose to not see.

Inevitable questions we never got answers to:

Why was Prapai ‘raised’ by his uncle?

Why did he end up having to raise his siblings?

Where had his parents been? 

Why had he had to take over the company at such a young age? 

Prapai as a teenager

Prapai wearing his heart on his sleeve is so true and we can only imagine a much younger Prapai, being his lovely golden retriever self trying to give someone his heart, only for it to be stomped on. How long he might’ve been a ‘kicked puppy’, who decided that all smiles, swaggering fuckboi was the mask he needed to wear from then on?

What if this is what happened? Teenage Prapai who lost his heart to someone only to have it crashed...

What made him into the 'fuckboi' we got to know? Did he sit down, over his broken heart, seeing the sadness in his eyes in the mirror, and go "No one will ever get to know about it?" only to adapt a "Single life is best." attitude we saw he had (and conveyed to his siblings)?

What if he tried again, got shot down again, then realized people only wanted him for one thing. 

OR.... Maybe he overheard someone talking about him. Young Pai, pondering on whatever he's pondering on, maybe he's in school or college, he overhears a conversation about him, and as he's about to walk in and say hi, he hears himself described in ways that break his heart.

It's hard to believe he just chose “Single life is the best!” out of the blue and that he always wanted the "single heartthrob" vibe for himself. Prapai is TOO lovely to simply be a player. 

He didn’t go through a trauma like Sky went through, but he might have gone through a period of time with someone whom he cared for a lot but who didn't treat him the way he deserved. "Why should I even give my heart to anyone if people just use it however they'd like?"

Considering he was raised to care for everything, he wouldn't just go around "fucking and finding out".

What if we go deeper into this headcanon? 

What if he tried relationships? 

He freaking tried but got so badly hurt he decided he’s either not worth it or everyone is the same so there’s no point in trying. In high school, or while in UK. Being cheated on, being used for money, being a game in someone’s bet (I dare you to get into Pai’s pants and make him head over heels for you kind of bet). A different hurt from Sky’s, but still one creating a huge scar in his heart. 

So many people just go for looks.

And Pai fits in that part. Not only does he come from a monetary background, and social status, but he has the looks as well. 

He is a charming boy, it's hard to not want him. 

Maybe he's how he is because he got hurt. He got used. And to avoid it happening again, he opened a playground where he could live out the frustration his life inevitably brings, while at the same time getting that tad bit of intimacy (aka bedroom activities) keeping him sated enough to go through daily life. 

We think Pai is someone, who IF he had a relationship before, got cut off because he is very caring. And so many out there just aren't able to cope with it. Too many feelings. Too much care. Too much focus. 

It’s easily overwhelming for too many. 

Prapai’s Happiness

We often talk about how Pai made Sky happy, made him feel safe, but we talk way too little about how Sky taught Pai to be happy and showed him that happiness in a relationship is a thing too. Before Sky, Prapai had no idea how real relationships work. He didn’t know the joy that came from it, nor that slightly different feeling of support and feeling home. 

Now, Sky showed him what real, genuine romantic love is, what does it mean to hold someone in your arms feeling content simply because that person is next to you and you can hug them. 

That your love’s happiness is often your happiness. 

Sky showed him that fuzzy warm feeling. He rid him of loneliness and gave Pai stability. The way that boy smiles in EP11 after the NC, when he holds Sky in his arms, and in EP13 when he peppers him with all the kisses?

It’s a totally different smile from all the smiles he showed us before. His eyes sparkle with unconfined joy. 

We think Pai never experienced something like this before. 

It’s proven by how often Prapai says something along the lines of "I've never done this before, you know?" And how it's a sign of the journey of discovery he's in. 

He's finding out all of these new things in his first ever relationship. 

He wants to share them with Sky. And since he's an eager puppy, he’s all happily going "Look! I did this for the first time!" 

In turn for Sky, who has been in a relationship before, but was not cared for during it, all of Prapai's discoveries are discoveries for himself too. He's finding out what real love is like. 

Prapai: You know, I've never cleaned up someone before. 

Sky: You know, no one has ever done this for me before.

They discover and learn together. 

Sky teaches Prapai how a true relationship should look like - the boy isn’t even aware he does, he’s just being himself, but with his feelings for Prapai it’s inevitable. The love he offers Prapai is the guide. 

Prapai teaches Sky how to be happy again, how to love again, how to not be afraid again. 

But who said Prapai isn’t scared himself? The man has all the love to give, he’s a natural caretaker. He’s been born to give. 

But with it comes the inevitable danger of being used. Sky doesn’t use Pai. And maybe, this is the whole point.  

Prapai and Sky

It says a lot that Prapai waited for 3 months before actively going to PhayuRain's place one day to get a hold of Sky’s number. We see he tried before, but got interrupted. But if we go deeper, if Pai would have REALLY wanted Sky's number, he could have gotten it before. He waited 3 months to get it. And we think that's the cue. He'd been debating with himself for weeks, because he couldn't get Sky out of his mind. He couldn't sleep with others anymore because it just didn't bring any joy anymore. It felt wrong. It's safe to say the three times he slept with someone might have happened within a week after he met Sky (because let’s be honest, Pai is on the active side when it's about sex. He doesn't need to wait) It took him approx, a week to realise he wants Sky, and no one else when it's about sexual pleasure. It took him 3 months (!!) to really make up his mind and for SURE get Sky's number. We think this is what says it all. 

If he hadn't been burned before, he wouldn't have waited that long. He could have gotten Sky's number before through Phayu or Rain. He could have tried to get another night with Sky. Just sex. GREAT sex, but after all, only sex. But no. He decided to ponder over Sky, kept replaying their time. A clear sign he's debating with himself. Should he? Should he not? Pai is a smart boy. Yet, he went to Saifah, “Hey, what's the meaning if I can't stop thinking about him?" A question he could easily answer himself. He got the validation he searched for through Saifah, and promptly went ahead with a plan he surely had in mind for a while.

All the scenes we didn't see, but would have been highly interesting, would have clued us in. 

Aka the drive from the university to Sky's apartment, when Pai "picked up" Sky the first time.What did they do during the drive? Did they talk? Did Pai steal glances?

Another key scene for us is when Sky falls into the memory right in front of Pai before they got breakfast. 

Cards on the table.. 

Who would be able to make sense of the retreat from Sky, who hadn't been hurt before?  

Pai sees the hurt. And for someone to be able to see the hurt, the one must have experienced hurt before. 

He reacts perfectly that moment. He draws Sky out of the building to get food (bc we all know food can help immensely in such a situation bc it changes the body reaction) I don't think anyone would do it/see it, who doesn't have any experience with it.

Again, in summary, and I can’t stress enough about it: Who’d do that if they didn’t know what being hurt feels like?

What does it NEED for someone to see it in someone else? And how much MORE does it need for someone to go "How can I help you?" after recognizing the hurt in the other?

Prapai was genuinely concerned. He dropped all his smiles and playboy-ish ways immediately. All masks fell. 

Another instance is the boardroom scene. 

Excuse me if we go a bit off course for a moment, but there is literally no other way to word it:

The boardroom behind the scenes was very telling.

How Fort and Peat remain in their position on top of the table, not just because they're doing a scene, but we think deep down Fort is caging Peat with his body, he can easily just wrap himself on top of him to protect him if needed. And we think it's something he shows in Prapai too.

When did Pai fall for Sky?

Hard to say. We can’t possibly know. But what we know is:

When Sky kept pushing Prapai away and not falling for his charms/money/sex, Prapai might have hoped that maybe this time risking his heart to love again would not be a bad idea. And maybe this time this "cold" person might be exactly who he's been looking for all this time.

Prapai saw in Sky his own façade. To be a playboy, you also need to play a role. Sky was the ice prince, Prapai was all smiles and charm, but in some of his interactions he's also straight up sassy and cold. We think he definitely did his fair share of "this means nothing, it's sex, just take what you want and leave me be" like Sky did to him. 

It is an instant connection?

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This study is a collab of @fortpeat (who also did ALL the work with the screencaps *smooches*) and @moriano and @akitbeast and @bird-inacage and @mb-praiskyfortpeat and ofc me :3

For me, one of the best things about Prapai as a character is his surprising vulnerability (and this is credit to Fort's incredible performance). There are a handful of scenes where we see this.

1 - FEAR. When he thinks he's about to lose Sky. Prapai's reaction is pure desperation, which is at complete odds with his usual playful 'bravado'. He begs, literally begs for Sky to come back to him.

2 - HEARTBREAK. When the person you love hurts you. The mixture of disbelief, astonishment, and devastation on Prapai's face is so well communicated. Prapai may have never been hurt so badly before because he never cared this much about someone. This is the first and only time we see Prapai cry for himself.

3 - OVERWHELM. When sex is no longer lust but love. This moment tends to be overlooked; but despite being deemed a 'player', and a promiscuous flirt, Prapai appears genuinely vulnerable after sex with Sky. As Sky tenderly sweeps his hair back and kisses his forehead, Prapai looks overcome by the gravity of his feelings. He allows Sky to cradle him whilst his guard is down. This speaks volumes about what this meant to Prapai. That he waited. That he respected Sky's boundaries. That sleeping with Sky again confirmed that physical intimacy could never be the same. We are also used to seeing Prapai play 'protector' and being the strong one for Sky, so it was beautiful to see this reversed.

A violent reminder 💖💜💙

for all its pink-washing, Israel has shown it will kill your for being queer in Gaza

Israel will kill you if you queer in Gaza, Israel will kill you if you are pro-democracy in Gaza, Israel will kill you if you are Jewish in Gaza and Israel will kill you if you are Christian in Gaza. Israel will kill you if you are pro-Hamas or anti-Hamas in Gaza. Israel will kill you if you are anti-Israel or pro-Israel in Gaza. Israel will kill you Israel will kill you and Israel will kill you. Israel will train the police to kill you if you're in Mexico, in the United States, in India, in France, in Germany, in China. Israel will kill you one way or another. These are the benefits of capitalism, imperialism, and the State. Welcome to the 21st Century.

When Ha Eun Gyol realized how Cheong Ha was treated. Like, way more than just not allowing her to speak, but by putting her in a dark, closed place... how sad he was. And how relieved she was to have someone find her.

This scene broke me.

And I love that Ha Yi Chan was angry at the dad. He's right! How easy for him to act like he didn't know. It was convenient for him not to know!

There’s no scale to compare who’s hurting more. There’s no judge to determine that, either. No one has the right to judge someone else’s pain. You’re not obligated to be acknowledged, either. Just… If you’re hurting, you’re hurting. And only you know how much you’re hurting. I won’t force you to be happy. I won’t measure who’s unhappier with you, either. […] And if you’re able to shine on your own again, I want you to shine with all your might.

—Twinkling Watermelon (2023).

God I really hate the wicked stepmother trope in this show becos the stepmother is solely held responsible for abusing Cheong Ah and erases Cheong Ah's father's own complicity in his daughter being abused and alienated from society. He separated Cheong Ah from her mother, brought the stepmother into the house and put her in charge of Cheong Ah's education, refused to get a private tutor to teach sign language to his daughter, does not allow her to attend dinners with his associates becos he places his own image over Cheong Ah's wellbeing. Am I supposed to root for him just becos he looked wistfully at an old family portrait or becos he looked at Cheong Ah jumping for joy over the fax machine? Like, the way he scolded Cheong Ah's stepmom for "acting like she calls the shots" in ep 11, as if he wasnt the one who put her in charge of taking care of the household?? I really hope there's no redemption arc for this sorry little man.

The writers of Twinkling Watermelon underestimated my obsession with Yi Chan and Chung Ah's relationship. Like, oh my god, they're finally together? Tell me how they that happened! Tell me who asked who! Tell me if Yi Chan was so happy that he fumbled with his signs! Tell me if Eun Gyeol saw everything unfold! Tell me if Chung Ah was giggling after all the crying! Did Yi Chan insist to walk Chung Ah home even though Eun Gyeol was with her? Did Chung Ah tell him "no" and he started sulking? Did they send each other non-stop messages when they got home? What was their first fax exchange after dating? Did they go on dates? What did they do before the music camp? Did Yi Chan finish the song? I need to know!

i am deadass SOBBING

this scene got me crying so hard you guys couldnt imagine how this made me feel,, the way he had practiced the song in sign language for her (who is learning the language just now so she can communicate with the world properly) and was gonna SIGN IT for her in front of everyone at the goddamn festival because he wanted to dedicate it to her and the way he panicked when he forgot the lyrics because he thought he was gonna disappoint her again but instead she hugged him (she was deadass crying because she felt seen, appreciated and included)...... yeah

i am simply at a loss of words like im incapable of wording any coherent thoughts right now

just shin yu being horribly down bad (involuntarily)

Let me ask you a favor. Please don't appear in my dreams. No. Please appear. So I can see you in my dreams. Please. Appear, please don't appear. Appear. Don't.

ROWOON as JANG SHIN YU DESTINED WITH YOU 연애는 불가항력 (2023)

ROWOON as JANG SHIN YU Destined With You 이 연애는 불가항력 (2023) – Ep. 2

no handsome has ever handsomed the way ro woon is handsoming in destined with you

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