to nic, this one is dedicated to you

the mods do want you kicked, or at least, carly told me, on more than one occasion but i think this one sums it up best.

this one is also how much the mods manipulate what is and isn't evidence depending on what suits them best. they let things go depending on who is the one on the chopping block. i guess, you're protected?

you're still here.

i dont know what they told you, but i felt at least you should know. as carly did feel that my friends needed to know.

and yes, ani, if you're reading. i probably have more for you here buried in my +3,000 screen shots. carly spoke badly of you more than once to me and how she wanted you removed as well. in her role as mod, and at mod capacity.

its good to know who your friends are. i wouldnt believe her apologies or reasons either anymore ;;;

here's a mod, flat out lying to me about accusations of me being someone else. very explicitly saying they had no evidence and that they were essentially using something from 4yrs ago as weight in my trial.

they clearly had evidence as they gave it to my friends. and they were so nosy to stalk things from 4yrs ago.

"pretty sure" i was "kicked" with "no evidence" .

but they were quick to hand it to my friends.

i wasnt kicked. i left. like lots of people in rk do. but this is the rk mod team. considering how much they wont do due to a lack of evidence. their rules change for me.

so i have a question: did they have evidence and flat out lied to me? or did they go find it after i left and for what purpose?

can rk mods stay out of issues not in rk?

i really dont understand why an rk mod is involved in a situation outside of rk. besides to be vindictive and hateful.

this is prob how carly talks about everyone behind their backs.

just a heads up that nic is the one stalking and harassing mc on her seungyoun muse. its because nic and ani had a ship where nic was using seungyoun. they were upset that mc started to use it when literally nic’s muse isn’t even in the rp and therefore, doesn’t have any claim to the fc at all.

still, nic felt it her duty to send an anon and now goes onto seungyoun’s blog over and over and over again. i don’t know why. she’s got serious problems and is obsessional, maybe? so the next time you get an anon and nic is hurriedly trying to comfort you, i’d take a second to wonder if she’s the one sending it in the first place -- because she might be. she is a bit of a sociopath who needs to seem like the ‘good guy’, when she’s the source of problems.

and ani, is a hypocrite. she’s posting starters and harassing my friends. she can’t come into my dms, calling me names and saying she “never writes about anyones muse unless she plots with them”, but then does that same shit to my friends and plays it off as ‘ic’. stop with the bullshit ani and leave my friends alone. they don’t want to be your friend. they don’t. you already called them toxic for being around me, so what do you think you’re accomplishing by this shady ass behaviour?

just fuck off.

you two need to back off and take a hint when people don’t want to be around you, jfc. and leave them alone when they’ve made it clear. the mods won’t do shit, but i can do and say whatever tf i want bc you got what you wanted. i’m kicked. i also have nothing to fucking fear anymore. if you do shit, i will call you out on it. leave my friends alone.

nic, you didn’t get the welcome you wanted, because you bully everyone you interact with. people don’t want to be harassed, called names and have you up their ass, demanding apologies every time they don’t do what you want them to get. get the damn news flash.

no one wanted you in trc but ani.

no one wants to debut with you.

it’s not a secret and it’s not a lie, and i wish you’d leave, so everyone else in rk can breathe easier. same with ani. leave everyone alone. quit. go find something better to do, than lording over everyone in this rp since the mods can’t be honest with you. 

they do think you’re toxic. they do think you’re bullies.

they’re just terrified if they say anything or do anything, you’ll be upset.

so it’s easier to get rid of the people who you’re bullying and hope they disappear, and leave, and then blame them for it bc they couldn’t “handle” it. that’s what rk does. it’s always the answer.

“leave”

that’s the solution.

i’m not a learning curve. i’m not the one who should have been kicked. and i definitely should not be the one who is the person to prompt the mods to actually do something about how toxic and disgusting some of the shit going on in rk is. for a rp that’s existed as long as this one had....

what were you doing why everyone was being bullied in secret?

oh, and lets not forget mei! or rkrome, or rkromeo, or rkmason, or whatever theyre hiding under now. they lied to everyone for 5-6 years, even the mods. that was why they were kicked from convex, since the mods had to do “something” and tbh, its a weak ass punishment for someone who lied and had a weak excuse.

if you wanted to see who would plot with you, you don’t wait years to be caught? and you only rp’d with the same 3 people anyway. but ofc, she’s friends with the mods, she’s got a ship with a mod. she gets away with this weird ass thing. i don’t even know the point of it, and she blocks me bc she plans to “reveal” herself, but lbh.

how many people actually knew?

she didn’t reveal herself, she moved twitters and hid, and the mods just let her continue to be in the rp. she likely broke numerous rules during her time, she probably had more than 3 muses at some point. and she’s been rewarded more than she should have been for her behaviour. because she knows we dont get along, but she followed my twt acct, to do what?

see what i twt and write threads, pretending to be a saint and pretending she cares about problems. you don’t do that. if you know we don’t get along, you stay away from me. like a normal damn person.

in trc, there is half a dozen people who are uncomfortable with nic. i know for a fact, i know their stories, they have come to me on numerous occasions, and since the mods were just, “well, she deserves the contract” and nic has this delusion that i’m the only one who doesn’t like, she forced her way in and i had to buffer between those involved so they wouldn’t be, outed to nic and suffer, and save them from being cornered in chats by her. why? 

guilt tripping behaviour, 101. emotional abuse, 101. gaslighting, 101.

i was doing it because the mods did nothing, and i actually gave a shit about other people enough to take the hit. if nic was actually capable of not harassing people when she finds out they don’t get along, maybe i wouldn’t have had to. since, she would have left them alone.

and if i really gave her panic attacks, lbh. she wouldn’t have signed to trc or kt. but she did.

don’t even get me started on her twisting it as, “someone blocked me from chat to start drama”. i blocked from chat bc i panicked, and wanted to talk to the mods, to hopefully convince them not to put nic in trc, where she wouldn’t be welcomed. and within a couple weeks, what happened? 

she was complaining bc she was not welcome. it had nothing to do with me.

my friends went to the mods about issues with ani and the mods couldn’t protect them, at all, from being trashed by ani. i can’t imagine why people don’t want to talk about what is happening and how ani and nic treat them. the mods dont do anything, and throw you under the bus

i ask nic nicely not to mention my muses, she loses her shit. this also shows the blatant way she makes herself the victim in every situation

honestly, you don’t have heavy hearts. if you actually cared about anyone in this rp, you would have taken the time to deal with nic and ani years ago. even you guys admit, you weren’t proactive and didn’t do enough. but you decided to blame me, because i wouldn’t take it. you kicked me, because i wouldn’t shut up and let people bully me or my friends. you allowed that behaviour to grow and you even excused it as “personality”, you can reason “ani is an asshole” but only on incidence of bullying. you dont even excuse nic’s behaviour, all you do is coddle her and her mental issues tbh. 

she can write a whole letter, calling everyone out and what did you do?

gave her what she wanted.

when ani threatens not to debut her muse if she’s not leader, what do you do?

give her the leadership position despite knowing she has a history of intimidation and causing discord.

i was never the source of the rumour that the mods do nothing. that was already in place when i arrived. there were already numerous people who said not to bother, just ignore it, that it isn’t worth it. 

and they’re right.

it isn’t worth being degraded as a person, it isn’t worth being labelled as the villain and the toxic one, and to have the mods throw me under the bus when it’s not even a secret that ani and nic are the two most manipulative people here. just because you mods are scared. you’ve admitted it to me, you’ve admitted it to my friends. you don’t even want to go tell them and scold them, you tell my friends to go do it bc they’re not “talking” to you right now. how can you call yourself mods?

i’m not a warning not to cause drama. i’m a warning to take the bullying and to shut up about it, or you’ll be kicked. that’s what the mods have made me into. as if i want to be some bullshit martyr. you let people lie for five years, and think its a funny joke. you let them bully you and other muns, you let them destroy and scare people off. YOU let them. and you kicked me, for not wanting to. you wanted to hide this was going on, pretend it wasn’t happening, because it’s easier for you to pretend rookies is a “welcoming” community.

it’s not. it’s never been. it was tolerable.

it’s the people like me, who made this a welcoming community, who helped out anyone, who offered to plot with everyone, who went out of their way when it looked like someone was struggling. and you leave us to suffer at the hands of two bullies. if you’d done your job before, this wouldn’t have been how it went – but you all failed. you can carry that around. because i’m not carrying around that i was some bad guy here. i wasn’t.

no matter how many times you tried to tell me i was, especially at the end.

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