im so glad to be in therapy again but my problems have become clearer and that's uncomfortable lol.

like maintaining relationships is a big one and coping with asd symptoms and trauma responses n all that and it's just so much easier to stay isolated and full of guilt and lonliness. i still have a long ways to go i just feel like i have to explain myself somewhere a little bit because i do miss talking to people it just feels so hard cuz all the noise in my brain is exhausting.

i really wanna be able to be the person i am on my good days, but im still being overwhelmed by the bad ones. it feels like some of my worst coping mechanisms know they're on their way out so they're advertising a giant bogo sale hm -_-

#s #bogo as in buy one get one not as in binted

dirtmud

photos from the month of november :-)

millie is loving wearing coats these days, I've restarted therapy, and my plant is thriving 😌

#growth all around folks #(gendered)#/s #s #photo journal #top surgery #millie pup #weed #3 months post op #trans

dirtmud

photos from the last week of october (◡ ω ◡)

#s #millie pup

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ovinegirl

hey guys im remaking my donation post, pls read ❣️

so my dad was arrested in december 2020 for something he didnt do. the state knows he didnt do it and they have more evidence pointing towards the ACTUAL criminal but are insisting on prosecuting my dad. he’s currently out of jail on bond (on house arrest) and he needs financial help because he cannot work! please please consider donating. my dad is an excellent father and he has been broken by this whole situation.

prior to all of this, he was a beloved community member and worked as a physician assistant, even picking up cases in the ICU when covid hit florida really bad. hes helped save countless lives. he does not deserve what is happening to him and most importantly… he is INNOCENT! we love him so much and anything you could spare would really really help him out. thank you for reading! 💞

you can send donations to:

v*nmo - @nabic

c*shapp - $nabi97

p*ypal - nboffcial97@gmail.com (note that official is spelled wrong and only has one i)

thank you again!! 💞💞💞

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irul

lichen-thr0pe

Etched in the concrete, Houston TX

dirtmud

lil photo journal of the first week of october :•)

#s #millie pup #one month post op #top surgery #trans #scars

dirtmud

weeping and gnashing of teeth blood and violence die cry hate but im just sitting perfectly still in bed

#s #it's very tiring and I'd like to do an activity i enjoy -_-

dirtmud

i want to be my fun flirty self but i am plagued by visions of horrors unending

#s #the intrusive thoughts and pain never really goes away

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cuntess-carmilla

Every time I think of "disability culture is interdependence" I want to cry like that's so beautiful. We're so beatiful.

cuntess-carmilla

No one is independent, your dependency on others is just normalized and obscured by capitalism.

You're not out there hunting then coooking your food, healing your own wounds or illnesses, building your own house with your bare hands with no help using raw materials you picked up yourself from the earth and weaving your own clothes? Congrats, you're not independent!

cuntess-carmilla

Now let's talk about why abled dependence is seen as a "duh" fact of life and as morally neutral (even when it's not!!!) but disabled dependence is seen as pathetic, a burden, something to overcome, or something that makes you an incomplete human being. >:3c

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ovinegirl

hey guys im remaking my donation post, pls read ❣️

so my dad was arrested in december 2020 for something he didnt do. the state knows he didnt do it and they have more evidence pointing towards the ACTUAL criminal but are insisting on prosecuting my dad. he’s currently out of jail on bond (on house arrest) and he needs financial help because he cannot work! please please consider donating. my dad is an excellent father and he has been broken by this whole situation.

prior to all of this, he was a beloved community member and worked as a physician assistant, even picking up cases in the ICU when covid hit florida really bad. hes helped save countless lives. he does not deserve what is happening to him and most importantly… he is INNOCENT! we love him so much and anything you could spare would really really help him out. thank you for reading! 💞

you can send donations to:

v*nmo - @nabic

c*shapp - $nabi97

p*ypal - nboffcial97@gmail.com (note that official is spelled wrong and only has one i)

thank you again!! 💞💞💞

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vinegartree

Delta Hill Riders by Rory Doyle

This project explores the subculture of African American cowboys and cowgirls in the rural flatlands of the Mississippi Delta — a far cry from the Wild West. Historians estimate that one in four cowboys were African American following the Civil War, yet this population was drastically under-represented in popular accounts. This work sheds light on a band of horse riders historically overlooked

#cowboys