commission + tattoo study i did with her awesome oc for @charmspoint !

thank you for commissioning lucy <3

according to wikipedia there are 44-50 countries in europe so i just went with 50. have fun!

he was so real for this

it's so fucking frustrating to be in college and know everyone uses chatgpt and to be tempted by it constantly while also knowing intellectually that it doesn't work and it's a bad idea. like, i hang out in the library a lot, and i see people using chatgpt on assignments almost every day. and i know it isn't a good way to learn, because it's not really "artificial intelligence" so much as it is an auto text generator. and it gives you wrong information or badly worded sentences all the time. but every week i stare down assignments i don't want to do and i think man. if only i could type this prompt into a text generator and have it done in 10 minutes flat. and i know it wouldn't work. it wouldn't synthesize information from the text the way professors want, it wouldn't know how to answer questions, it just spits out vaguely related words for a couple paragraphs. but knowing my classmates get their work done in 10 minutes flat with it while i fight every ounce of attention deficit hyperactivity disorder in my body is infuriating.

i think one thing that's been really helpful in keeping myself from using it is thinking about Why i have to do the specific assignments i have. like what is the actual goal. like some assignments the goal isn't "share a story about parenting styles in ur personal life" so much as it is "show you understand the concept of parenting styles thru a story". or it's not "how do hormones impact teenagers' decision making abilities" it's "can you understand, reword, synthesize, and explain the information in the text and videos to explain how hormones impact teenagers' decision making abilities". and looking at it as "this assignment is asking me to read some words and then understand and explain them, which is a skill i want to have" rather than "i have to answer these stupid questions that seem really obvious because all my professors want me to die forever" has helped. especially in a world where everyone uses chatgpt i want to know how to read with my own brain

for some reason i thought both of these were the same post and i sat for awhile trying to figure out which ice cream face was the weak bitch

"ummm you know the writer only included that because they have a FETISH right?" is always so funny to me as a disparaging comment, because imagine if people spoke that way about nonsexual interests. "the lord of the rings? didnt the author only write that because he was interested in linguistics? thanks, i'll pass" "yeah, i used to love spongebob as a kid, but i can never see it the same after finding out stephen hillenburg is a marine biologist :/"

my controversial opinion is that sexualizing fat bodies isnt a bad thing bc a major part of fatphobia and self hate is this idea that fat people are ugly and unfuckable

like we can talk all about tolerance and respect but like, if people are still commonly believing that being fat makes you less desirable, that matters whether we want to acknowledge sexuality or not

like, I've seen various people in fat fetish communities ask the question "why does this make me feel better about my body but normal body positivity doesnt?"

and its bc a lot of normal body positivity is framed as "its ok that your body is terrible. we can lower beauty standards to the point where everyone is hot. obesity is a deformity and i have sympathy for you the way i would for any sick or disabled person."

and no one is actually inspired by that! No one can live with that kind of apathy and hopelessness. People don't just want to exist, they want to live, they want to live in bodies they can embrace and be proud of instead of being told "its ok to not be attractive or desirable."

desire matters, pleasure matters. "tolerance" is not something that inspires hope and happiness, love is.

This starts out as a nice gesture, then quickly becomes absolutely ridiculous.

1,024 dice. Man.

The transition from innate human kindness wanting to pass something forward and monkey brain want make chaos is really sharp and sudden.

Me sexting: what would you do if you found me with my hands tied ;) My feminist bf: I Would Free You

my first favorite hobby is yapping. second is being extremely quiet and not talking ever at all ever.

Really hate that the queer community's response to the creation of a gender trinary (girl, boy, and nonbinary, which is still not all-encompassing) was to... reinvent the binary. We just started grouping all genders into "masc/male-aligned" and "fem/female-aligned" and it's so fucking stupid. Even with the occasional allowance of "neutral/unaligned" it still maintains the binary as the standard. And then they don't let you use certain labels if you don't have the "right" gender alignment. The fuck.

Bad Space Comics: The Suit

Hey, PSA for younger/newer transmascs:

Tumblr has been showing targeted ads for "FTM binders" off Amazon. They look like this:

Do not buy these.

A binder is a piece of medical equipment. If you use one incorrectly, or use a poorly made one, you can really fuck up your ribs. This article from the Cleveland Clinic talks about how to bind safely.

A $14 binder is guaranteed not to be safe. There's a reason reputable companies charge more- sometimes a lot more. They have to carefully design binders so they don't crush your ribs or make you sick.

You know how everyone says Don't Bind With Duct Tape? Don't bind with Amazon binders.

this morning when i woke up i had sleep paralysis so to pass the time i pretended that i was battling an invisible wizard who had cast an immobilising spell on me, and i focused on this wizard and thought at him "YOU HAVE NO POWER HERE" in a really loud mental voice, and as soon as i did that the paralysis went away like literally immediately

I defeated the wizard

[Image ID: Tumblr reply from crumbPrince reading: You defeated the wizard /End ID]

My boyfriend prefers his mattresses firm, and I need a soft mattress. He prefers his food temperate while I like my food hot and spicy. This is another good reason to not have a kid, because even if the kid averages out and prefers everything in the middle, there's the risk of some blonde bitch breaking into our house to rummage through our stuff.

reverse gaslighting where i pretend to know exactly what you are talking about

academic conferences

Work meetings

Interviews

Auditory processing disorder

conversations with my cats who are yelling

Me letting that little kid with their hyper fixation tell me every single fact they know about it

Goncharov (1973)