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@broodingheroine / broodingheroine.tumblr.com

•eve, they/them, queer, 21• lots of thoughts about gay pining
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rakel-on-ao3

I know we all laugh at Jon for taking one look at the Arachnophobia statement (MAG016) and going "DRUGS. POPPYCOCK. HUMBUG." but like-

This is early s1 Jon who has stated out loud that he believed his colleagues might try to haze him, who is afraid people might knowingly try to get to him.

Jon's prissy, high and mighty attitude after the statement ends might just be him performing confidence to the people he knows has free access to the tape - his fellow archive workers. Especially after his earlier slip ups (wondering about hazings and oh, wanting to personally screen every new statement before the research department can even start working on them).

If you think about the statement as a fake planted by a coworker who wants to humiliate him, it's chilling. It has so, so many details that run parallel to Jon's own life, that we can safely presume nobody at the archives should know about given how private Jon seems to be.

Even disregarding the obvious - that would be the supernatural childhood spider trauma - there's the lonely, workaholic existence, the smoking, the childhood wandering, the feeling of having your body controlled by an outside force, a goddamn cat named after a military rank.

Who knows what other details fit perfectly with Jon's life that we as the audience don't know about.

And the statement giver is looking into getting psychiatric help. He's trying to establish if he's in need of anti-psychotic medication. To the audience this might seem as a pretty grounded and potentially positive way to try to move past the trauma of the spider haunting.

But to Jon? Who is holding a piece of paper in his hand with something that could represent proof that someone is looking into his life? It might as well be calling him insane.

Jon was deeply marked by the Spiral by the end of it all, wasn't he.

Also, like, reminder that Jon, deep down, knew the statement was real because he wasn't able to make a digital recording of it.

His two alternatives in this situation was to be in denial about it and direct his unease and ire at his immediate surroundings... or accepting and internalising that the cause of his childhood trauma is still out there, killing people just like him.

(via @asleeb)

You know what - I read your tags and I could literally hear in my brain the tone of Grandma Sims going "don’t be ridiculous, Jonathan"

The way she might sigh, or roll her eyes, or-

And like

I think that is especially impactful because I absolutely think Jon cared about her opinion, in lack of any other. He didn't rebel like a lot of us do when we're young - he never tried to distance himself from the things his grandmother stood for. He did the OPPOSITE. He tried to emulate her. He tried to live up to her expectations.

He berated himself when he made mistakes, because that's what she would have done. He faked being a full decade older to make himself seem more authorative and experienced, because in his grandmother's home, that's how you got to have a say in important matters.

She worked hard, she pretended to be fine to onlookers, she did things even if they were painful, she didn't ask for help and Jon looked at her and thought "that's what an adult is".

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asleeb

hnghgk. come to think of it, this reading of Jon's grandmother would mean that a lot of his best traits -- his moral sense, his sometimes overboarding empathy, how he handles deep loss and insurmountable odds by carrying on and just trying to do the best that he can with what he is given -- are echoes of her, things he learned and admired about her

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kociamieta

it's been quite difficult to do things lately, drawing included, but making this weird thing was pretty relaxing ^_^ it is a friend

you can certainly try, i don't think this one would mind it. but.. it's pretty difficult to do any of that on a physical level - imagine trying to touch light

you people are going to (hesitantly) give yourselves acute radiation syndrome at this point

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tmagp 11 thoughts

  • ITS CALLED MARKED?????
  • oh scary noises.
  • not again???? wtf is happening
  • jack?????
  • "or any other world" shut up.
  • sam uses oat milk confirmed.
  • celia AND gwen are missing? don't like! do not like!
  • glancing at the door....
  • I don't like alice being nervous. she's been very unmoved this whole time and now she's all uneasy???
  • oh boy human remains
  • ship tattoo???
  • is the tattoo like a prophecy or smth?
  • TATTOO???? INK5OUL!!!!!!!
  • I don't like the way he's talking abt the sea 🤨
  • CONDOLENCES?
  • THE MEDICAL EXAMINER?????
  • THE DEEP WILL CARE FOR HIS BONES????
  • the passive aggressive response to apparently being told to stop being unprofessional in his emails is so funny
  • "I need to know what's in the water." no! no you don't!
  • chesters voice changing is NOT something I'm enjoying
  • random noise after alice told sam not to think
  • alice being a tsundere is so funny
  • RANDOM NOISE WHEN CELIA LIED OUT OF HER ASS
  • "she's not as laid back as I am" gwen oh my god
  • "dont let me keep you" "I'd like to see you try" jesus that tone alice
  • that's not my mr bonzo! gwen didn't vote for him
  • why is the only issue she has with this is that she doesn't like what he looks like
  • okay so they're definitely like organizing Incidents
  • jesus there was so much here
  • I'm sitting here trying to figure out why the hell celia would randomly wake up in the middle of nowhere but I can't so. crack theory: she's like a werewolf mr bonzo. she randomly turns and BAM get bonzo'd
  • me and sam have very similar coffee orders and I love that for us
  • I feel like the casement this ep was very spiral with a little sprinkling of the end
  • I'm so glad the hiatus is over guys I missed my horror fix

okie dokie that's all my thoughts for today. brain not working.

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zoestorm

Hey real quick, I wanna check out something. I've been talking to a few friends who live in a different country and they told me it's normal for houses to have bedrooms with en-suite bathrooms over there. (Not saying where.)

[Definition in case it's needed: an en-suite bathroom is a complete bathroom, with at least a toilet, a sink, and a shower, which is accessed directly from a bedroom and is usually only used by the people who sleep in that bedroom.]

So here's my question: in your country, in normal dwellings (i.e.: houses, flats, apartments, etc, not hotels and such), is it normal to have en-suite bathrooms?

As usual, reblog for reach, and tag with your country / area and yes or no.

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reblogged

You know what? Fuxk it, I'm starting a reblog chain.

Reblog this post and tag your friends to do it too!

What is your "grandma hobby"?

I'll go first, mine is sewing. :)

i knit, sew, and embroider!(there's a difference between sewing and embroidery i swear)

Does baking count? I’m counting it. I also draw but that’s not really grandma like.

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nerdofspades

Uh. I think the closest I get to grandma hobbies are reading and taking walks. Not like hikes deep in the woods. Literally a walk down the street.

I got my love for cooking from my grandma, so I'm gonna count that LOL

Otherwise, sewing

probably also cooking, very infrequently… my grandma also likes reading a lot so i’m counting that a little bit too :)

For me it is probably baking (specifically baking and not cooking though) and also gardening. I also tried both crochet and knitting but could never do either

i like making tea! i have a whole mug and tea collection.

^this is one of my favorites (cause when ever my dad sees it he side eyes it and scoffs *cue hellmo meme*)

that’s an absolutely excellent mug

two people tagged me for this which i find hilarious because i have a lot grandma hobbies. i like making tea, i knit, i embroider, i sew, i walk around my neighborhood, and if collecting odd trinkets from thrift stores counts as a grandma hobby then that too. this guy is one of my favourites:

his name is darcy

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oxthemoron

Darcy is so cute I love them!!

Ok so I read Jane Austen. I sew stuffed animals (sometimes). I wear long patch skirts. I make a hell of a lot of herbal tea

SEW STUFFED ANIMALS???? I need to see one

Hmmm I used to do a lot of embroidery but I don't as much anymore...I make unnecessarily loud sounds whenever i stretch/get up/move in any way if that counts

well i crochet ( been doing it a bit less this year cuz life ) and used to knit when i was younger but not that much anymore. also i bake a lot and share it with as many ppl as possible wich is very grandma of me i think

tagging @broodingheroine no pressure tho <3

I also crochet! my yarn collection is mildly concerning lol

once again tagging @orangexmachina bc I have like no moots anymore rip

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