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LEO | he/they | stinky little man
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I feel like a huge component of CPTSD from child abuse is learned helplessness.

You are repeatedly put through traumatic situations as a child, and the people who were supposed to protect you are either the perpetrators or bystanders who didn't stop it. As a child, you can't rely on yourself for safety so you have no way out of this cycle.

You may spend years of your childhood hopeful that things will change, because you still instinctively want to turn to your caregivers for safety and comfort - but they fail you again and again.

Eventually you not only learn but fully internalize the beliefs that:

1. You will never be safe.

2. You can not save yourself.

3. Other people will not save you.

Once you hold these beliefs, it can feel impossible to ever recover. You don't know what safety feels like and you almost don't believe it exists at all. You freeze because it feels like you have no control over your own life, but experience has taught you not to ask for help from anyone else either.

You feel like you're out of moves.

All the time.

You've been losing this game since day one.

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pinkmoon888

girls will b like i'm crazy. i'm balls to the wall fucking insane and then spend all their time alone in their room on a dying microblogging platform

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