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JIB14 | Jared Padalecki & Ricky Whittle
How many times has Dean chosen Sam? And I'm not talking about Dean choosing Sam over Cas or any shipper bullshit, but in life in general. Like when Dean chose to go back with his dad in "Bad Boys" after seeing Sam in the window? Or when Dean told Billie that he "had a house full of ghosts and a brother to get back to"? Or when he told Henry that he couldn't go back to save John because Sammy was on the hook with Abaddon? Just curious if you had a tag detailing this phenomenon.
He didn’t choose to go back to Sam in 13.05. He initially said the line about the house full of ghosts and a brother to get back to, and then when she didn’t immediately send him back, he said he was bringing Sam down and if it was his time, it was his time. Which was a choice to stay dead and actively not go back to Sam. But that was still choosing Sam since it was choosing Sam’s well being over his own life
And yep, we saw young Dean choose Sam when he saw Sam playing in the back of the Impala.
He chose Sam over killing the thing that killed Mary in 1.21, giving up on his revenge mission
He chose Sam over John’s last orders in 2.14 when Meg as Sam asked Dean to kill him to stop him from going dark
He chose Sam over his own life in 2.22 when he made the demon deal.
He also chose to stay behind and die with Sam in Croatan
And in 3.16, he refused to let Sam try to get Ruby involved even if it would save his life because he wanted Sam to live
And he chose Sam in 4.22 after Sam chose Ruby
He chose Sam at the end of 5.04 after finding out that staying separated from Sam destroyed the world
Although, arguably you could say he was choosing that for himself too after seeing how different he had become. And he was also ostensibly choosing Cas and Bobby and the world there too. But Sam was certainly a big part of it.
He chose Sam when he went to Stull Cemetery just so Sam wouldn’t be alone when he died
He chose Sam over Lisa and Ben in 6.02.
Again, you could say he was also choosing hunting and the life he was missing but Sam definitely played a huge part in that too.
He chose Sam’s soul over Adam’s when Death told him to pick one
He chose Sam over Benny
He chose Sam over saving the world from demons
He chose keeping Sam safe (or so he thought) over letting Cas stay in the bunker (9.03)
If you want to talk in technicalities, he has chosen Sam over his own mental health too (9.13)
He chose Sam over the destruction he knew he would cause to the world in 10.23
He chose Sam when he begged Billie to take him instead in Red Meat
And in 11.20, he chooses Sam by refusing to leave the deadly fog
He chooses Sam over his own better judgement when Sam lies about working with the British Men of Letters and wants Dean to join him. And Dean doesn’t want to lose him like he feels like he’s lost Mary.
And that takes us all the way through the seasons and back to Dean choosing Sam’s well being over his own life in 13.05
Basically, Dean has chosen Sam over pretty much everything else, a hell of a lot of times.
Gonna get chick-flick-momenty for a minute if you don’t mind!!!!!
Ahhhhh, Ana, I can only agree! Conventions are such a special experience! Memories to treasure. And besides interactions with our dear SPN cast that somehow turn out even better and more special than one could imagine (especially with Jared and Jensen in my experience) what makes cons so special is the people you meet. And meeting you was such a privilege! I hope to see you again in more cons!
That reminds me of how we ACTUALLY met, lol. Let me tell that story:
@trials-era-sam and me knew each other from tumblr. @ghost-go-roasty-mctoasty too, but @trials-era-sam and me had made plans to meet at JiB and thus exchanged pictures, so we would recognise each other and planned on texting till we would find us.
At the convention we hadn't met or texted yet. @takikojou and me were on our way back from the airport where we had lunch. Those two girls were walking towards us in the long airport walkway tunnel, wearing purple dog shirts. As we passed each other I commented:"I like your shirts" and they said thank you.
Later that day we texted and found each other and I realised it was @trials-era-sam and @ghost-go-roasty-mctoasty 's shirts I had commented on, lol. (Or did only you, Ana, wear a purple dog shirt? Can't remember.)
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Retroactive | By nyxocity | A J2 Story | NC-17
Two assassins on opposite sides of a silent American war, Jared is a time traveling spy working for the CIA; Jensen is a traitor terrorist known as the Jackal. Jared is the CIA's golden boy agent--until the Jackal gets in his way on a time-travel mission. The most skilled and dangerous agent to ever exist, the Jackal is the biggest obstacle in the way of the CIA's plans, and Jared is assigned to get close to him. Is the Jackal what he seems, or is there more to his mysterious past? Drawn down a deepening well of secrets and half-truths on a journey that will take him to the edges of his loyalties, Jared finds himself at the center of a time event bigger than anything he could have imagined. To complicate things even more, his fate seems to be tied to the Jackal by something more than the feelings stirring inside him--by something bigger than either of them; time itself. And time, is running out.
JIB14 | Jared Padalecki Saturday Panel | Reaction gifs
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Not sure what prompted this but glad for whatever it was lol.
I think Ricky Whittle made a lot of new fans this weekend! Me included!
Question: I want to know what was your most favorite unscripted scene or your least favorite scripted scene or moment?
Jared: Oh wow. Great question. I'm thinking about a moment where -
Jensen: Wait, let me guess - I punched you?
Jared: Yep, where Sam gets possessed by the Meg demon and finally gets exorcised, but he had been like, kinda torturing Dean? And so Dean reaches over, after Sam is back to Sam, like 'What happened?' and just punches him? That was in season two, Jesus.
Jensen: That wasn't scripted.
Jared: That wasn't scripted. There's so much that wasn't necessarily scripted, you know? Certain moments - one of my least favorite things, maybe my least favorite thing that any writer can put into a script? Is like, Dean cries, Sam breaks down, Dean tears up, Sam and you know, whatever, do this. 'Cause there were so many, if you were to go through all of the scenes of Supernatural, which there are many? And then watch the episodes, rarely was there a sequence where it was like they get emotional where we did and there was so many where they don't even mention that we get emotional, but you just feel it. You're just there and you're like - I hate it where it's like, this is where I'm supposed to cry [derisive noise]. 'Cause sometimes you don't even know, you'll go through a scene and you'll go, like, oh shit, like, that's hittin' deep. And it's not because it's scripted. So offhand, God -
Jensen: I think there's a lot of moments, especially some of the emotional moments. One comes to mind, which is the barn scene -
Audience: Which one?
Jensen: [slightly incredulous tone] Which one?
Jared: The most recent one.
Jensen: Yeah.
Jared: Genius.
Jensen: Where I'd be interested to go back and look - and I can't remember if - maybe they didn't use it, go back and read that scene on the script and see how word for word it was on the performance. Because I feel like there were takes where I know I would maybe repeat myself, or I would say some things that I thought were, you know, dove into the emotion even more. And it wasn't something I'd planned, it's just like - felt it, you just feel something and if - when you've worked with somebody for so long, and you're so comfortable with the character, and you know the story so well, you can be available for those things to hit and you can act on them, and you can say those words, and you can say something that just makes it feel more real. And I feel like we did that in that scene, there was some dialogue that maybe was added -
Jared: It's a lot. I know, yeah.
Jensen: or massaged, or you know.
Jared: I don't know if it was ever added to a revision, or if we just did it, but the callback of, like, I can't do this alone, yes you can, well I don't want to? It's the exact same words that Dean said to Sam and vice versa. So there was stuff that wasn't scripted initially - and that goes back to an earlier question, about if there's stuff like Jensen do whatever you want. Like the feeling of that scene was like, here guys, we know this intense -
Jensen: Here's the template.
Jared: here's the template, make it y'all's. Like, y'all know Sam and Dean more than anybody ever will, you make it yours. And so he and I had a couple months because then COVID happened, the pandemic, and so we made it ours. It was so hard to rehearse that scene.
Jensen: Well, even the - like it was scripted where I was on the ground. [Jared: Yeah.] And Jared comes up and kind of cradles me and I'm, you know, like, effectively dying in his arms.
Jared: Which would have been so long to try and carry your ass.
Jensen: And I just felt really strongly, and I've told this story before, and I went to Bob Singer, who directed that episode, I went to him a couple days prior just thinking about that scene, because it was a monster, and it was looming. And I just - it didn't feel right, to die laying down. And I said, hey, is there any way - because they were still building the set - I was like, is there any way, can we figure out a way for me to die on my feet? And Bob was like, [curmudgeonly voice] how the hell are you gonna do that? Who dies on their feet? And I'm like, Dean Winchester dies on his feet. And he made it work brilliantly, because he came, I think he came up with the idea that the impalement was so severe that if you removed it - and then we had to add that dialogue in, so it made me stay there on my feet and I think it was just such a much more powerful visual, to see these two brothers face to face in that moment. And so, you know, that was certainly one big thing that was totally unscripted that I fought for and I'm really happy I did, because -
Jared: Hell yes.
Jensen: I think it just made that scene that much more powerful.
Jared: Also I'm grinning to myself because I've watched a lot of the 15x20 reaction videos, the finale? And there's some really savvy tv viewers out there who've seen a lot of different television shows, a lot of different episodes of them. And you'll watch some and they'll be like, 'Oh, yeah, oh Sam's takin' on the big guy, oh yeah take that blah blah blah!' And then when Dean goes to the post and then runs out where it shows, they'll be like, 'Yeah - oh no. Oh c'mon now, no no no, they just showed that for too long - Oh shit! And then, like, turn it off because I'm crying.
Jensen: I still love the fact that the stunt guy, who is awesome, he's like ex-military, giant, one of the biggest guys we've ever had on our show, his name was Heidi. And he killed Dean Winchester [laughs]. But he's an awesome guy and in fact I was just in Vancouver and working with Jesse and Jesse and Heidi are like super close buds now, so it was good to kinda reminisce with those guys a little bit.
Jared || Jib 24
Sorry for being so absent here right now. Something terrible happened and I need all my time and energy to help a family member.
Sam may have been fed demon blood as a child and thus felt like he was tainted with evil, bound for a dark, demonic destiny. But his blood was pure enough to turn a demon human. And isn't that a beautiful 180° turn in that story? Rather than succumbing to the demon blood fed to him Sam turned it around and gave a demon his humanity back.
(At least almost completely.)
Such a lot of misplaced hope and faith, and disappointment in that short ‘me too’ (15x03)
reblogging this post from 2011 to add a high resolution version of this wincest fanart
i’m “house phone” years old
i'm "computer room" years old
I'm "mechanical typewriter" years old
semirah! i know you have a lot of meta on sam and his issues with food and eating and everything you write about it is super insightful and lovely, and i wanted to share some info i found out today-- there's this thing called orthorexia nervosa, which isn't yet officially classified as an ED and is seen as more of a symptom of disordered eating? but it's when an individual has an obsession eating "pure" healthy foods and "detoxing" when they eat "bad" foods, and it instantly reminded me of sam
Ahhh, this is such a wonderful observation?Thank you!
It really does fit Sam, and not only in terms of food. He swings hard to opposite extremes as if to counteract real or perceived flaws. As you said, he believes himself to be unclean and seems to lean really strongly toward “pure” foods because of that. (The tragic bit, though, is that he doesn’t so much want to clean his body of toxins from unhealthy food as much as he wants to clear himself of some soul-deep impurity.) And it extends to other aspects of his life.
He perceives himself as evil so he treats others with understanding and kindness. He believes he is “angry” so he reacts almost always with patience and self control, to the extent that he doesn’t even get angry about things he should be angry about.
Especially in later seasons, it’s like he has surgically removed anger from his arsenal of emotions. It’s so freaking rare for Sam to get genuinely angry for or about something that was done to him.
He swings straight to acceptance or shame.
MoC!Dean tells Sam he should die on the pyre? Of course he should. Sam feels the same way. MoC!Dean beats Sam to the ground and tells him he needs to die? Yeah, absolutely, just wait a sec while I show you some pictures in hopes that one day they might return you to yourself. Lucifer blames Sam for not looking for Dean in s8 even though Sam canonically thought Dean was dead (and follows it up by brutalizing Sam and trying to kill him)? Sam is fine, but he’s gonna feel ashamed about “abandoning” Dean and apologize for it.
There are so many things I love about Sam’s forgiveness, but the alarmingly extreme way he deals with “negative” aspects of himself is dangerous beyond description.
People talk like Dean has problems with repression, but when Dean is angry or broken or faced with something he doesn’t want to acknowledge, he hits. He yells. He drinks. He seeks company. He enunciates his displeasure.
Sam goes in with a scalpel and excises that shit.
