dean should’ve gone to cassie in season six. light and love to lisa, but cassie’s the one dean saw a future with - to the point where he tells her their big family secret

to be perfectly honest i was in love the moment he said “what’s the matter, *head tilt* you don’t think you deserve to be saved”

Watching early seasons is crazy because this man doesn’t know he will get on his knees for this angel and plead he will make a mix tape for this angel he will bury this angel and spread the ashes in a meadow he will hug this angel and say welcome home far away from home he will get on his knees again and say you’re my best friend and I let you go he will plead yet again because cas don’t do this he will scream his guts out and sob on the floor all night ignoring a phone call from his brother while the world ends. He will give up. for his angel. He doesn’t know.

Castiel or “whatever” bitch you don’t even know !

happy 15 years of castiel or “whatever”

I want the markings made on my skin to mean something to me again

does “dont do this” not make WAY more sense between “because it is” and “i love you” .. like look at this shit.

What do you mean this isn't canon dialogue.

"I gather we know each other." ↳ 7.17 - THE BORN-AGAIN IDENTITY

Like. I think there is waaay too much emphasis on the negative emotions Dean might have made Cas feel, and not enough on the negative emotions Cas feels because he was raised in a cult.

For Cas's entire EXISTENCE, his job was to be a good soldier, serving heaven, carrying out heaven's will. He rose through the ranks by being a good soldier—being useful—and we're going to say Dean Winchester, who he didn't meet until billions of years later and who he described as the defining source of love in his life—is who made him feel like he just needs to be useful? Nothing else? No other things ever happened to Castiel that might give him that frame of mind about himself? Yeah okay. Cool.

Oh boy oh boy… so many thoughts on this. Some of which I’ve already talked about… a few things though:

Sam is happy to call Dean a hypocrite, and that’s a very normal, “signs point here” every 1/2 mile reading of season 2 if you’re on a rewatch and hear Dean say “What’s dead should stay dead” in 2.04 and 2.08 knowing he’s going to make a demon deal to bring Sam back in 2.22, and then if that isn’t enough for you to catch on, Azazel and Bobby make this reading very plain in 2.22. The person whose own hypocrisy is allowed to fly under the radar (as usual) is Sam. Sam who was happy to tell Dean more than once this season that Dean was morally/duty-bound to execute his little brother “because dad said so” and “you promised me when I guilted you into trying to console me with lies while I was drunk”. Sam who never spent a single millisecond the whole season thinking about the darkness he was asking Dean to immerse himself in by regurgitating John’s order for Dean to be responsible for the entire course of Sam’s life and off his own brother if needed. It’s even reasonable to conclude the reason Dean came back “twisted and broken”, was only partly because of how he was brought back. It was also (arguably more-so—based on context from Croatoan) the weight of the words “save Sam or kill him”, that ripped Dean apart from the inside out, made him tired and terrified and ready to die in a jarring turn right after the high of 2.01 where he was desperate to live and was an active participant in coordinating with Sam to save himself—we’re a far far cry from that now in 3.01 but Sam doesn’t actually consider why despite “I'm tired, Sam. I'm tired of this job, this life . . . this weight on my shoulders, man. I'm tired of it” blinking like a neon sign in 2.09 just hours before Dean finally told Sam what John asked of him as a dying wish.

As an aside, this squabble started with Sam wanting to take Dean to a hoodoo priest—another faith healing, just like the one that took someone’s life from them in 1.12 in exchange for Dean’s health—the first moment where Dean feels “I’m not supposed to be here and because I am someone else isn’t” and is left to carry that around—a major catalyst for Dean’s actions in 2.22.

Dean claiming an entitlement—a right to be the selfish one—is an unsubtle and scathing commentary on John and Sam consistently being relationally selfish while Dean managed them both and pretended he wanted and needed nothing. It’s also very unsettling that Dean’s idea of a defiant claim where “I get to be the selfish one this time” is one where he gets the short end of the stick—his selfishness is in not allowing himself to be the last man standing because he doesn’t want to deal with the pain, which both Sam and John have cast as his duty—“Sooner or later everybody’s gonna leave me”. It’s also weightily reminiscent of 2.20 “What Is and What Should Never Be” and how Dean desperately wanted to stay in that reality even though he was the family fuck up, his brother looked down on him and viewed him as someone who would steal from his own goddamn mother. It’s also one of the principal reasons the SPN finale will always be vile and abhorrent to me.

do you ever think that maybe dean’s promiscuity wasnt just some kind of heteronormative performance but rather the only way that he could figure out to get someone to be close to him? because he lived a hunters life even as a child he pretty much had to keep everyone at arms length. but like that boy just wanted to be touched. he wanted it to feel like someone loved him. and maybe that was the only way he knew how to meet those needs?????

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Thinking about how everyone always blamed Cas for his choices during the show, but his choices, as dumb or naive or reckless as they were... were the only REAL choices (out of Chuck's control). Cas was learning to excerpt his free will, like a baby learning to walk, and sometimes his choices were stupid, but that's what happens when growing up, you make mistakes and you stumble before you can learn.

And so I'm thinking about how they all made stupid decisions during the years but Cas was always the one blamed for his (more than them). Could this be because the brothers' decisions were actually Chuck's, so he wouldn't let them blame themselves for them, but he would always take the chance to use them to blame Cas for HIS because Cas' choices were out of his control and it was an indirect way to discourage it??? Having Dean excessively blame Cas, so that Cas would feel guilty and stay put. But Cas kept going every time, following his heart as he kept choosing, he really was the key to defeat Chuck, the crack in Chuck's narrative, and it was his love for Dean that made him crack I CAN'T--

if i let you into my ribcage would you hold my insides so gently? would you cradle the deepest living parts of me in your loving hands? 🥺 🥺

pov: everyone around you keeps implying you're in a relationship with angel castiel and you never once denied it

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