okay, so here’s the deal:

when i first put my multi on hiatus, i had it in my head that i was going to pick just a few muses and focus on them to see if that helped writing. that worked for, what??? five seconds??? and anyone that talks to me on a semi regular basis knows that i have been jumping around even more now than i was back then. i shit you not, i’ve come up with and/or wanted to bring back at least ten new muse ideas in the last month, if not more.  and because of this, no one is getting the attention i wanted to give them. i just feel like i’m so far away and i’m not writing like i want. and honestly, a big part of me wants to start writing outside of tumblr again, too! i miss it, it’s who i am. i’m a writer.

so!!! i’ve come up with a new way to go through with the idea i proposed back then and try to help me do what i love to do outside of tumblr, too. to start with, all of my current blogs / characters are going on an indefinite hiatus. i will not write them anywhere at all. before i go further, this will not be permanent. i love these guys more than anything. however, i’m still trying to do too much in my head and it is affecting everything. moreover, my muse for these guys just fluctuates far too much and it’s probably a lot to do with my floating brain but it’s no fun to me.

i will still be writing on tumblr, though! i’ve decided that i’m going to make a small multi of characters that i intend to have in the novel i’m going to try to write outside of tumblr. i’m hoping that focusing on them will help my focus in general, help me develop them and, in the end, help me write the novel that i want to write.  i can’t say that it’s going to work and i can’t say that it’s going to last long, but i’ve got to try this for me. it feels like the best option at this point, instead of jumping between blogs and characters, not knowing what i’m going to wake up wanting to do from day to day. 

i’ve still got some work to do on it, but if you’d be interested in following me and continuing interaction, you can find me on DAMAGEMADE.

you’re a MONSTER. act like one.

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okay, this has been a long time coming and i’ve been trying to wait until i’ve had a back up but i’m struggling to put together anything solidly. so! this blog is going on an indefinite hiatus. due to my mental health being as poor as it has been lately among other personal issues that i have to deal with, i just do not have the ability or stability to come on here right now. i have tried multiple times to get on and write but even the idea some nights has brought me to tears because i get so frustrated and i’ve been struggling to find words even when i have the muse and i’ve been trying to force it but that is just no way to run a blog. i don’t want to stop writing, though! so i’ve decided to focus on one to two characters until i can build myself back up into writing, as opposed to 10+. i just feel like that would be very beneficial to me? one of them will be new and is currently in the works, as i’m hoping that that will help me get my excitement for writing back, developing something new. FOR NOW, until i get all of that sorted and what i want to do together, you can find me solely on cursedempathy. i’m so sorry for anyone who’s waiting on things and were/are excited to interact with these characters. and this blog will be back! i’m definitely not about to abandon any of these children, i promise. i love all of them too dearly to leave them behind. i just literally can not be here right now. i have no idea how long this will last, but it’s safe to assume it will be at least a few weeks, unless i magically start to feel better before then ( and considering i have not felt okay since, like, february, i highly doubt it but !! never know with me so lol. ) until then, i will keep you posted about where i am at if you decide you’d like to follow me there as i don’t know if cameron will stick or if i’ll decide to pick someone else and put him on hiatus as well due to some insecurities i have about cameron’s blog. thank you all for your patience. also know that i am always down to trying to write any of these muses as i have muse on dis.cord ( rae of fkn sunshine#0723 ), just please know that this will need to come with patience as well due to the issue i’ve been having with writing. i will be slow. but if that’s alright with you, come at me! and i will be back when i am ready. again, thank you.

okay, this has been a long time coming and i’ve been trying to wait until i’ve had a back up but i’m struggling to put together anything solidly. so! this blog is going on an indefinite hiatus. due to my mental health being as poor as it has been lately among other personal issues that i have to deal with, i just do not have the ability or stability to come on here right now. i have tried multiple times to get on and write but even the idea some nights has brought me to tears because i get so frustrated and i’ve been struggling to find words even when i have the muse and i’ve been trying to force it but that is just no way to run a blog. i don’t want to stop writing, though! so i’ve decided to focus on one to two characters until i can build myself back up into writing, as opposed to 10+. i just feel like that would be very beneficial to me? one of them will be new and is currently in the works, as i’m hoping that that will help me get my excitement for writing back, developing something new. FOR NOW, until i get all of that sorted and what i want to do together, you can find me solely on cursedempathy. i’m so sorry for anyone who’s waiting on things and were/are excited to interact with these characters. and this blog will be back! i’m definitely not about to abandon any of these children, i promise. i love all of them too dearly to leave them behind. i just literally can not be here right now. i have no idea how long this will last, but it’s safe to assume it will be at least a few weeks, unless i magically start to feel better before then ( and considering i have not felt okay since, like, february, i highly doubt it but !! never know with me so lol. ) until then, i will keep you posted about where i am at if you decide you’d like to follow me there as i don’t know if cameron will stick or if i’ll decide to pick someone else and put him on hiatus as well due to some insecurities i have about cameron’s blog. thank you all for your patience. also know that i am always down to trying to write any of these muses as i have muse on dis.cord ( rae of fkn sunshine#0723 ), just please know that this will need to come with patience as well due to the issue i’ve been having with writing. i will be slow. but if that’s alright with you, come at me! and i will be back when i am ready. again, thank you.

ive been coming up with a new muse and im!!! excited

gentle note that when i return to this blog to actually write, its likely to contain incest, toxic relationships, genderbent muses, underage as i do ship my teenagers at the age they are now and many other bad things and thats the tea! if you dont like it you can leave

ive been coming up with a new muse and im!!! excited

2. somewhere in the forest, sparrows take flight. their feathers are soft as dreaming. i am the stranger who stands by the bubbling river, wingless and wanting all i cannot have as they disappear into clouds like porous-boned angels. 3. i just want to play songs that don’t end with my trembling hands. i just want my existence to be more than trembling.