remember when you held my hand for the first time?
i still tell that story to some of my friends.
remember when you let me wear your sweater?
i knew you were cold, you really didn't have to.
remember when we first texted each other?
you got my phone number from one of my friends because you were too scared to ask me. i'm glad you got it though.
remember?
remember when i made the mistake of letting you go?
i thought it was best for me. but you were best for me. i was wrong.
please hold my hand again.
"remember" by @itmakesmyheadhurt
let me be happy
After all this time
I am beginning to be
comfortable.
There's still loads
to be done.
But I'm learning
who I am,
and how to be
comfortable.
"Comfortable" by @itmakesmyheadhurt
this isn't what i normally post but
on june 2nd 2016 i came out as bisexual to my best friend yeet ✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️
i just want SOMEONE TO LOVE
i never stick around
with people long enough
to love them.
that’s my problem.
there’s so many good people i could’ve loved.
instead, i sit here
wondering why i have no one to love and no one to love me.
“it’s my loss” by @itmakesmyheadhurt
do you still play the piano?
i've learned the ukulele since we've stopped talking.
what happened to the blue sweater you always wore?
i still have the beanie you used to love wearing.
are you taller now?
you always said you were taller than i was, but we were the same height.
how's your family?
i remember meeting them, briefly.
how have you been? you okay?
hope you're always happy. i loved your laugh. best laugh i've heard.
do you still have my phone number?
i still have yours. sorry i messed up.
call me, please. i miss you.
"questions i'd ask, only if you'd answer" by @itmakesmyheadhurt
itmakesmyheadhurt-blog reblogged
I think I have commitment issues. Or maybe just trust issues. But theres definitely something wrong here. I never stay with something long enough to get good at it-I never stick with people long enough to love them.
things that have been written on my arm (via imfeelingabitlonely)
is it wrong,
even after all this time,
that i still want
to accidentally run into you
catch up on each other's lives
like nothing had happened
i know we can't do that
anymore
i'm sorry
that something happened,
but i still want to know you.
"Still" by @itmakesmyheadhurt
to all the boys i've loved before
i'm sorry i did the stuff i did
because you deserved much more
i messed up with you,
one of my first best friends.
i should have saved it,
and not let it end.
you were the most loyal
but i did not feel love
on the same level you did
but i still loved you enough
and the middle school boy
with brown curly hair
i'm sorry
that i was so scared
i did not feel like myself
with you in my arms
but sometimes without you
i get torn apart
the boy who came back
it was like you never left
when my heart skipped a beat
and nearly jumped out of my chest
you were the hardest
for my heart
as i thought you were my one
but clearly i was mistaken
because you and i were done
my hopes got too high
for this boy who lived next door
as love was not returned
i was left to hurt
with all the mistakes
i still make to this day
to the boy who was understanding
i never really deserved you
i cant ever thank you enough
for being by my side
as i spent my days upset
and drying my eyes
to the boy in the future
take care of my heart
i hope that we are
never torn apart
i am slowly losing hope
as my fairy tale has fallen
i hope i am not left behind
as the girl who keeps on falling
"To All The Boys I've Loved Before" by @itmakesmyheadhurt
I would really love it if I got a second chance with you. I know you probably don't care anymore, but doesn't it bother you that we ended something so good too soon?
this is so ridiculous it's been two and a half years, you don't care anymore. but it's killing me, so here i am.
i keep thinking about us?? for some reason.
i don't know why i'm doing this i'm sorry i'm bothering you. I just want you to know that when i broke up with you i absolutely still had feelings for you.
i promise i was really happy with you but i felt anxious.
i just want you to know that you were the best for me and to this day i still don't really know why i let you go.
something i wish i had said by @itmakesmyheadhurt
i am so unbelievably tired of thinking about what could've been
it’s not that
It’s not that I still have feelings for you,
I mean, maybe I do.
But it’s more about the fact
that we were
and could’ve been
so good together.
I don’t remember why I left you
Intro
this is my blog. i don’t know what i’m going to do with it. I just need a place where i can say the things i want to. I know its ridiculous and stereotypical to have such a angsty blog on tumblr but i want feedback from people going through the same things that i’m going through.
If I’m honest, i will look back at these posts in a few years and cringe, but sometimes ya just gotta do whatever.
Although i plan on sharing some pretty personal feelings, I hope someone will find me and help me as I attempt to start this blog.