because tumblr kept eating my asks

@nirvhannahcornell i am beginning the process of watermarking my drawings, beginning from two months ago, i.e., my mermay drawings and the ones you stole from me. i have blocked you from viewing my art blog - i’m sacrificing reblogging art from there onto here and i also am not posting any more art on main here because it’s blatantly obvious to me that you don’t give two fucks about an artist’s well-being. 

if you seriously believe that i’m doing all of this because of “guilty conscious”, to say you are sorely mistaken is an understatement.

i’m doing this to protect myself. my craft. my life’s work. protecting myself from people like you who like to manipulate and play the victim and believe your own petty squabble for absolutely no reason.

i’ve talked about ignoring trolls and cyberbullies in the past but i can’t ignore you. it’s directly threatening me, my livelihood, and my reputation, while taking other souls down with it as collateral damage.

i mean, it’s bad enough that i’m having to go out of my way to make an uproar about art theft when all everyone seems to talk about is anti-bullying (while being inexplicably passive-aggressive about it, what the fuck?), when art theft in this day and age is a very specific form of bullying. but as far as i can tell, the only one i have to make a stink about is you.

i gave you every opportunity to stop this by going quiet and watching to see what you would do in the future, because i’m not going to lie… this terrified me a bit. i started experiencing anxiety this morning because i started wondering what you might do with me and my art. but since you’re choosing to be a complete broken record about everything and spreading lies and cheating by knocking all the pawns over to go after my king and queen, i’m going to make the most out of every bit of this because you are robbing me of what’s rightfully mine all because of my desire to change my main url to something i love with a passion.

like i said, i have a weird respect for people who keep me on my toes. i really do. want an example that doesn’t involve you (unless you really are that deaf)?

last night, almost out of the blue at around the eight o’clock hour, the hit counter in my blog description showed me something… rather interesting: 3 people (not counting myself) viewing my blog in the wake of everything and my talking about it on instagram the other night. someone viewing from the l.a. area, someone from upstate new york, and someone from around the new york city area.

it could only lead me to assume one thing and one thing only, especially in the wake of a certain someone liking my drawings and his following the instagram tag of his own name. if you know anything about them, and i’m assuming you don’t…

i-

i have anthrax on my side. you don’t.

don’t believe me? click on that link and check out the graphs and map trackers for yourself. obviously i don’t direct proof but it’s easy to come to that conclusion given the events that went down this spring and knowing a little about them in the process.

also, don’t forget: you’re making that url name a thing whether you like it or not. it’s a pseud on my ao3. it’s my registered name on the sketchbook project.

that was a name i made up for myself and you took it away like it was nothing. it’s obvious that i mean nothing to you seeing as you have absolutely no remorse for what you’ve done to me.

you want to pose as me and call me a liar, but look at what you’ve done to me. look at what you’ve done to that name. you made it into an interesting subject to talk about over a dinner party!

you could continue to do all these things but bear in mind that the joke’s on you. everyone knows me as both nirvhannah as well as josie.

you forced my hand. you’re not getting away with this. you’re not burying me alive and getting away with it. you’re not giving me a fit of anxiety so intense that i feel psychosomatic pains in my chest. i don’t deserve to lose almost 14 years of cartooning and i don’t deserve to feel pain to a melodramatic, angry person who feels the need to screw me over out of unwarranted spite.

no remorse or not.

look at what you have done to me.

now do me a huge solid and

get the hell away from me and leave my friends alone.

I literally have never stolen your art before in my life how many times do I have to tell you that?? My icon is an example of your blatant racism. I literally don't know where you're getting the rest of this shit from. And everything I've said were definitely facts. Here's screenshots of your racism since you don't remember. :)

@nirvhannahcornell you got some nerve stealing my art - and passing it off as your own no less - and using my old screen name to be rude to people all because i changed my name.

i’m going to tell you this right now: you cannot justify this with “it’s the internet, it’s free.”

no, it fucking isn’t. reposting someone’s creation when you know it doesn’t belong to you no matter how many lame excuses you pull out of your ass is, without question, the worst thing you can do to an artist.

and since you’re being a big baby about all this, i have no choice but to make a metric fuckload of noise about this.

i spent almost 14 years, since i was in middle school, honing in my craft and you’re wanting to take it away from me, why? never mind the crap you’re pulling right now on a social front, you are disrespecting me and abusing what’s mine. you are threatening my livelihood, my job, my passion, the very reason i get up in the morning.

you also can’t be all high and mighty about it with “you shouldn’t post it on the internet then.” yeah, i bet you’re also the type who pulls the whole “she was asking for it” nonsense, too. i bet you’ve never picked up a pencil in your life. i bet you’ve never had debilitating anxiety about your craft before, like you wonder if it’s even worth it and you should just forget about it all and go back to engineering school to kiss some asses. i bet you’ve never had the anxiety of wondering if this next drawing is going to be a dud or take off like a rocket here on tumblr. i bet you’ve never experienced a full-blown panic attack about that sort of thing before.

alright. fine. this site is on life support. i hate where it’s at now. i hate going onto art blogs like snazzy starlight and seeing great and interesting work only for it to garner a few measly little notes, and if they do get a bunch of notes like some of the stuff on the radar, they’re mostly likes. i also don’t like how genuinely great work is going virtually unnoticed whereas garbage is getting all the attention. it’s like nobody wants to aim high and improve themselves anymore. i fucking hate it, it frustrates to no end, so… i feel you on that.

but don’t think for one fucking second that you’re giving me exposure by reposting and then being a prick to people about it. if anything, it’s making you look bad and it’s giving MY ART and that name a bad reputation.

i had one option left and that was to talk to you straight-up: people rally around causes they support, that’s just how social groups work; i have absolutely no control over that. what i do have control over is my name and the way i appear on here.

you have no right, none at all, to steal my old name and then pose as me - and lie so much to the point you actually think you’re me - when i have no idea who you are, other than an art thief who’s using me as a phantom limb to bully people while also screwing me over out of spite when i did nothing to you. you have no right to steal my art and claim it as your own all because i changed the screen name of my main blog. i sincerely hope what you’re doing is all a joke and you’re trying to keep me on my toes; i have a weird, undeserved respect for people like that, who keep me from getting too comfortable. but i can do that to the end of the year and hope only does so much.

and like, do you not see anything wrong with what you’re doing at all? do you not have any sort of sense or self-awareness or anything to make you question your own behavior, that maybe, just maybe, what you’re doing is wrong?

because if you don’t, you’re the one with a problem, my dear. not me.

I’ve literally never once reposted your art as mine. I have no desire for people to believe your art is mine. In fact, quite the opposite. This picture is my profile picture (the only thing I can think of that you might be referring to when you speak of “stealing”) because it’s horrifically insensitive and encapsulates your tonedeafness, your tendency to claim races that do not belong to you, your tendency to stereotype, etc. The reason I’m using this art as my profile picture is because my blog is a callout blog, and this art was racist. I’m not reposting your art or stealing it or taking credit for it. Period

anxiety.

it’s a normal, natural human emotion that afflicts us all at some point or another.

it was a problem for me back in early 2014, to the point i had to take a sabbatical from school. it has given me trouble, from losing friends to keeping ben shepherd from forming a rapport with me (but then again, he’s a big pansy, so what do you want). it started going away later that year and it hasn’t been an issue for me since then, except for my family members acting strange towards me in 2015, telling me “it’s just all in my head” when a.) i hadn’t been feeling it for months on end; and b.) fuck you if you think it’s just all in my head.

but it came back last night, and the only way i can make it right is if i create. i’ll be back here with a technicolor dream world so don’t fret.

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Okay, so I don’t know who @nirvhannahcornell is but it is NOT @josiebelladonna and apparently the person hiding behind her old name has a wee but too much time on their hands.

So, how ‘bout we all join in in reporting the fake account?

Again, @nirvhannahcornell is a fake.

Schmuck. If there’s one thing I can’t stand it’s a fucking bully.

I've literally stated that I'm not the real Hannah a million times so that should be known.

It's really funny you call ME a bully when Hannah is the actual bully, guilting her followers into reblogging her stuff and coming for people who also like her faves.

Haven't you called her out before? Hypocrisy at its finest.

Okay, so I don’t know who @nirvhannahcornell is but it is NOT @josiebelladonna and apparently the person hiding behind her old name has a wee but too much time on their hands.

So, how ‘bout we all join in in reporting the fake account?

Again, @nirvhannahcornell is a fake.

Schmuck. If there’s one thing I can’t stand it’s a fucking bully.

I've literally stated that I'm not the real Hannah a million times so that should be known.

It's really funny you call ME a bully when Hannah is the actual bully, guilting her followers into reblogging her stuff and coming for people who also like her faves.

Haven't you called her out before? Hypocrisy at its finest.

i’ll be posting my art and my writing, but… meh. i think i’ll take a page out of their book and step in the shadows more often. if you see joey or a brightly colored cartoon, think of me.

how the fuck can you all be so nonchalant about this

how can all of you just sit there and do absolutely nothing (defend them all you want, at the end of the day likes are nothing; they’re more throwaway than i am) even in the face of me begging you to help me and support me. you followed me for a reason.

do you want me to delete? because i will do it. i will delete.

i’ll leave you all to this site and never return. as i said, this hiatus could very easily be permanent. you won’t see me again. you won’t see another drawing or piece of writing from me because as far as i know, none of you deserve it.

you all need to realize that content from content creators, and a variety of creators no less, is a privilege, not a right. you’re not entitled to any of it.

lmao