CHAOS   ISN’T   A   PIT ,    CHAOS   IS   A   LADDER   !!     many   who   try   to   climb   it   fail   &&   never   get   to   try   again.    the   fall   breaks   them.    &&   some ,    are   given   a   chance   to   climb.    they   refuse ,    they   cling   to   the   realm ,    or   the   gods ,    or   l o v e.     ILLUSIONS   !!     only   the   ladder   is   real.    the   climb   is   all   there   is  ….

I'm  a  DEAD WEIGHT  now.   I've  done  everything  I  can  do.   I  die  now ,   &&  I'm  a  martyr.   &&  in  a  few  years ,   some  rebellious  little  kid  is  going  to  turn  up  at  your  school  with  me  on  his  t-shirt …   

                                CYCLOPS  WAS  RIGHT

*//  KNOWLEDGE   IS   POWER

• “   Don’t be cautious, don’t be kind.   ”
• “   You committed, I’m your crime.   ”
• “   Push my button anytime.  ”
• “   You got your finger on the trigger, but your trigger finger’s mine  ”
• “   I don’t belong to anyone, but everybody knows my name.   ”
• “   By the way, you’ve been uninvited.  ”
• “  'Cause all you say are all the same things I did   ”
• “   Watch your back when you can’t watch mine.   ”
• “   You better love me, ‘cause you’re just a clone.  ”
• “   You’re italic, I’m in bold.  ” 

• “   My boy loves his friends like I love my split ends.   ”
• “   My boy don’t love me like he promised.   ”
• “   He ain’t a man and sure as hell ain’t honest.  ”
• “   My boy’s an ugly crier but he’s such a pretty liar.  ”
• “   You want me to be yours well then you gotta be mine.   ”
• “   How about someone who might be a type A?  ”
• “   And if you want a good girl, then goodbye.   ”
• “   Don’t love me like he promise.   ”
• “   I mean he said he’d “change”.   ”
• “   My boy’s being sus and he don’t know how to cuss.   ” 

• “   I’ve been watching you for some time.   ”
• “   Can’t stop staring at those oceans eyes.   ”
• “   Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes.  ”
• “   You really know how to make me cry.  ”
• “   I’m scared.   ”
• “   I’ve never fallen from quite this high.   ”
• “  You really know how to make me cry when you give me those ocean eyes.   ”
• “  I’ve been walking through a world gone blind.   ”
• “  He left her lonely with a diamond mind.  ” 

• “   My heart skips eight beats at once.   ”
• “   If we were meant to be, we would have been by now.   ”
• “   See what you wanna see, but all I see is him right now. ”
• “   I’ll sit and watch your car burn with the fire that you started in me. ”
• “   Go ahead and watch my heart burn.   ”
• “   Your lies will never keep, I think you need to blow ‘em out.  ”
• “   If I could get to sleep, I would have slept by now.   ”
• “   When you call me name, do you think I’ll come runnin’?   ”
• “   When you close your eyes, do you picture me?   ”
• “   When you fantasize, am I your fantasy?   ”

• “   I wanna be alone.   ”
• “   Alone with you, does that make sense?   ”
• “   I’ll build a wall, give you a ball and chain. ”
• “  Just let me hold you like a hostage.  ”
• “  It’s not like me to be so mean.   ”
• “  Yeah, you feel right so stay a sec.   ”
• “  You’re all I wanted, just let me hold you.   ”
• “  And let me crawl inside your veins.   ”

mutuals  hmu~

• “I feel like it’s November first, and I’m that discarded jack-o’-lantern whose heart and guts are splattered all over the boulevard of broken promises.”
• “I swear, you are the only person I know who makes decisions based on what will provide the best material for a diary.” 
• “All I really want to do today is go to the book store, drink coffee and read.” 
• “I had chosen the path of the black sheep rather than that of the unicorns and puppies.” 
• “They’re called hormones.”
• “We’d have really pretty babies, huh?”
• “I’ll have to act out by wearing lots of eyeliner and doing the drugs.”
• “In the beginning the Universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move.” 
• “I just wanted…to kiss you good-bye.”
• “Tell me something good about your life.”
• “Don’t judge yourself by what others did to you.”
• “I’m in love. And I like how that feels. And I hate how that feels. Because love is an invention of fiction writers.”
• “Smile. Nod. Say something witty before they find out what an incredible geek you are.” 
• “So you try to think of someone else you’re mad at, and the unavoidable answer pops into your little warped brain: everyone.”
• “Funny how when your life is mostly bullshit, you turn off feeling. Sometimes it’s hard to turn it back on again.”
• “You believe this is a game, and you may be right. But if you think you can play it better than me, think again.”
• “Why does it hurt so much? Why does it have to hurt?”
• “The cure for pain is in the pain.” 
• “That information is classified, I’m afraid.”
• “Don’t forget. Not ever. Not for a second.”
• “I am not interested in emotional fuckwittage. Goodbye.”
• “I’m pretty sure you’re way out of my league.”
• “You’ll NEVER understand that kind of pain.”
• “The wounded recognize the wounded.”
• “Thought you’d be gone by now.”
• “Blood isn’t love.”
• “Do your ears just block all incoming sound waves?”
• “Go make love to a tube sock.”
• “Is that a euphemism for penis?  Please let it not be a euphemism for penis.”
• “He is a pimple on the cock of humanity.”
• “I do not view other boys as threats, and I enjoy making them seem insignificant by calling them the wrong names.”
• “Angry grizzly bears are going to look tame next to what is waiting for you at home.” 
• “I’m going to kill you one day.” 
• “I don’t like it, but my hands are tied. I just want you to know this: if I ever get the chance to betray you, I will. If the opportunity arises to pay you back, I’ll take it. You’ll never be able to trust me.”
• “Of course I’d like to help you out. Which way did you come in?” 
• “You’re mistaking bitter animosity for heartfelt affection.”
• “I don’t know whether to punch you or kiss you.” 
• “You’re hurt…let me help you. Please.”
• “Look at this burn. It’s going to get infected.”
• “It’s blood, yeah.”
• “I know you’re not okay.”
• “Look at me.” 
• “You left me.Without a word.”
• “You don’t…have to leave. Please.”
• “I don’t need the feeling of completeness. I just need the feeling of not being empty.”
• “Do you have a lot of sad things in your head?”
• “How do I share what I’m feeling?”
• “Not your [ boyfriend/girlfriend ], eh?”
• “Are you not happy with me?” 
• “This is love, isn’t it? When you notice someone’s absence and hate that absence more than anything? More, even, than you love their presence?” 
• “I think your [ girlfriend/boyfriend ] is evil and should be destroyed.” 
• “Love me, because love doesn’t exist, and I have tried everything that does.”

*//  smol  starter  call will  be  hella  selective mutuals  only capping  at  6