Well, I let my anxiety take hold and messed up my interview for a manager position.

I prepared, I had reference notes, took a few quiet minutes before it started for some deep breaths but it didn't help. Basically handed them reasons not to choose me. The second I open my mouth any confidence i built up is just gone and I can't keep eye contact, blather on and my mind goes blank its literally like that michael Scott gif

Now I have to keep it together for a few anxiety filled days until they officially tell me I didnt get it. I know they aren't actually laughing at my dumb answers and chattering between them at how disappointing I was but thats where my brain focuses. Here's to a few nights of anxious tossing and turning 😫

Work posted a unit manager position they are creating since our team is growing like crazy. Within minutes I had about 5 coworkers asking if it was going for it. Today my current unit manager called to see why I hadn't applied yet and then our team manager did as well both of which tried to gently nudge me in the right direction if I were on the fence.

Definitely flattering! I dont know if I have enough experience to actually get it but I could see myself kicking butt in the role.

My major concern is that I dont interview well at all. I end up sounding like a complete moron. My current position interview went terribly and im either the only person that applied or they looked past my less than stellar interview because they know me. It was laughably bad - at one point the team manager was like what I believe you're saying is... and I was legit like nope! Blah blah blah 😟

Its so weird when others genuinely have confidence in your abilities and push you to be better but you can't see these things yourself.