there’s just no way the scene in the gym was for tommy’s benefit… like buck is just not aware abt his feelings for eddie yet and it’s so delicious

I feel like the gym scene was Buck trying to get Eddie's attention so he can invited to the Basketball game, ordering a basket ball and everything. When that didn't work he turned to Chimney for help.

Buck has had plenty of chances to meetup with Eddie or join him when he went to those games, but the only time he wants to join is when Tommy would be there as well.

Also, if Buck really had feelings he wasn't aware about what would he hurt the guy he had feeling for when they were playing?

Buck himself said he accidentally hurt Eddie trying to get Tommy's attention.

And when talking to Maddie he didn't specify who's attention he was trying to get, but befofe the kiss with Tommy we learn that he was talking about Tommy's attention. "My sister tells me there are better ways to get someone's attention".

i mean. not trying to argue here, considering that this is my post and also 3am where i am, but multiple things could be true at the same time. he's obviously attracted to both eddie and tommy, but he's known eddie for a longer time so he's more familiar, while tommy's presence throws a wrench into said familiarity.

i dont think it's necessarily one or the other, i just think it was kinda silly to include the gym scene just for the potential of eddie inviting buck to the game. he, like, canonically didnt know that amazon prime would deliver the ball so soon, lmao. so it was just very similar to him showing off in front of eddie in s2e1. like they could have had tommy be over at their gym as well for that scene if they really wanted to emphasize that, but they didnt. partially, i admit, to surprise the audience with the whole bucktommy thing, but also i do think that denying that buck was at least partially doing this for eddie's benefit would be strange.

buck has said that eddie would always invite buck to the basketball pickup games, so why did he need to do the whole thing in the gym to be invited there if he was already technically invited? before, the basketball games meant just something he wasnt interested in - he isnt into basketball and he can hang out with eddie whenever he wants to, but now his place in his friend's life is threatened - the entire conversation abt eddie and tommy "clicking" showed that. so maybe because he wanted to be invited personally, yeah. maybe because he felt jealous that tommy was singled out on the calendar.

and i dont disagree, it is the only time when tommy is there, but the entire basketball game buck is chasing after eddie, only running into tommy a few times. the camera is basically almost always focused on eddie and tommy broing out together and buck being upset abt it, with a couple moments of eddie making faces or joking abt being better than buck at it. they could have easily tried to go for a moment of buck trying to block tommy for like a flirty competition vibe but i haven't seen that there.

and i think buck hurting eddie was def a part of it, and i dont think it negates his feelings for him, ESPECIALLY since he doesn't understand them. again, i think he was a very confused bisexual man this entire episode, not knowing what exactly is going on with himself. like, i don't think he was looking to hurt him, but he did want some kind of interruption to the vibe of the game he wasnt meshing with, and he's always been the kind of guy to just kinda bullhead himself into things, which is why maddie said that there are other ways to get somebody's attention. and, at the very least, SHE meant eddie.

like, i do think that buck is attracted to tommy, i just dont think he knew he was until tommy kissed him AND i think he's yet to process his attraction to eddie EVEN IF he processes his bisexuality first. like, yeah, he asked for a tour of the harbor station bc he wanted to get to know tommy better, and i do think that is coming from a side of attraction, even if he doesn't know it yet, he still ends up bringing up eddie before eddie even shows up on the scene. and then, the scene in the kitchen is also largely about eddie, with even tommy being surprised that it was allegedly his attention that buck wanted.

to kinda look at it from a different point of view - in my personal experience - sometimes when you're jealous and horny and queer-but-dont-know-it-yet, you become kinda obsessed with the person you're jealous of, especially because you start assessing everything that's supposedly so great about them. jealousy is a strong feeling, and buck is familiar with it, so he could tell That about himself. but then tommy was very charismatic and hot and responsive to buck's attention, and so he kinda zeroed in on tommy in the end and put the eddie thing on a bit of a backburner, because, again, a hot man is kissing me? instantly forgetting everything else happening.

so, the thing abt "attention" i think is twofold. i think he was definitely looking for eddie's attention because he was jealous, AND he was looking for tommy's attention because he was fascinated (before he could admit to himself that that is attraction). even in the conversation when tommy says "my attention?" and buck goes "... i guess so" it feels like he's just realizing something there, like right in the middle of that conversation.

i will say, i do think that tommy was flirting with buck even back at the tour, but buck immediately started talking about eddie, so tommy didn't really continue with that until the conversation at buck's place, so it would have been interesting to see what the basketball game had looked like if tommy had more overtly flirted with buck earlier or even had kissed him.

ultimately i do like buck/tommy, they ARE cute, and im very interested to see what they are gonna do with this relationship later on, but i still do think buck has some things to realize abt his feelings for eddie. basically it's a very fun episode, and the next episode also adds to it, and i think it wouldn't be a complete analysis to only focus on tommy just because buck says that in the end.

blogger obtains long-coveted zero note post: "I just kept talking until I hit upon the shit no one cares about"

hmmm why does my uterus hurt and why do i feel kinda off. weird. surely these are not the warning symptoms of a predictable biological process that occurs on a regular schedule. anyway. im going to wear white pants today.

by talos this cant be happening

the idea that restrooms, locker rooms, etc need to be single-sex spaces in order for women to be safe is patriarchy's way of signalling to men & boys that society doesn't expect them to behave themselves around women. it is directly antifeminist. it would be antifeminist even if trans people did not exist. a feminist society would demand that women should be safe in all spaces even when there are men there.

btw this is maybe the single most key distinguishing feature of the terfy strains of radical feminism, the seed all the rest of it springs out of: they have absolutely no faith in the ability of feminism to actually destroy patriarchy. they do not think feminism can truly build a better world. they cannot really even imagine that possibility. they think patriarchy is an inevitable natural consequence of unchangeable biological facts, and therefore the goal of feminism can only be to mitigate the worst effects of patriarchy, not to get rid of it.

they can imagine a society where women get some designated safe spaces without men around. they cannot imagine a society where the presence of men is not inherently a danger to women.

fandom tumblr was another casualty of streaming services. we used to be on here posting about the episodes that were coming out weekly and posting gifs and writing insane shit about the tv shows we liked. now a new season of a show will drop and we’ll talk about it for a week. two weeks tops. and then that show will leave collectively conscious for 1+ year till the next season drops. there’s a reason succession sundays was a blast on here

we used to have real television

hi everyone <3 i havent seen this one shared / reblogged in a while so here is that huge google drive full of pdfs and ebooks about palestine. seriously its huge. not mine & i have no contact with the owner so id recommend downloading what you can to have permanent access to it. i tested the link in a private browser so it should work but let me know if it doesnt and ill try to figure out what the problem is

Hii, the library moved and it's pretty accessible through the above link but just to make it even easier this is where it's at now!! I believe it's being updated still..? But either way, still huge & incredibly useful if you are not able to purchase the books or find them at all <3

we LGBTQ people, or those LGBTQ people who haven't already done this, must stop insisting on the framing of LGBTQ-ness as essential to a person in the sense of essentialism---an "essential truth" about a person that must be discovered, stumbled-into by that person, revealed to that person as an essential truth about them that was secret from them---and become comfortable with the idea of becoming LGBTQ, developing LGBTQ-ness. if "natural" means "what occurs in the absence of a human acting with intentionality", which is a way that some people mean "natural", then we must become comfortable with the idea that LGBTQ-ness can be intentional and we must not be afraid to be perceived as "unnatural" therefore.

I say this because "essential self" is a ghost and framing LGBTQ-ness in its terms is part (not all) of the reason that people go chasing this ghost to find out whether or not we are "really" LGBTQ when alternatively we could decide to pursue LGBTQ-ness and navigate our pursuits according to what we find fulfilling in a process totally separate from the "essential self" concept. I say this because when anti-LGBTQ people frame LGBTQ-ness as something that a person can inspire in another person, we can't win by responding that LGBTQ-ness is limited to a population of essentially-already-LGBTQ people. when anti-LGBTQ people frame LGBTQ-ness as something that a person can inspire in another person, I say "there's nothing wrong with that!".

You guys rlly don't realise how much knowledge is still not committed to the internet. I find books all the time with stuff that is impossible to find through a search engine- most people do not put their magnum opus research online for free and the more niche a skill is the less likely you are to have people who will leak those books online. (Nevermind all the books written prior to the internet that have knowledge that is not considered "relevant" enough to digitise).

Whenever people say that we r growing up with all the world's knowledge at our fingertips...it's not necessarily true. Is the amount of knowledge online potentially infinite? Yes. Is it all knowledge? No. You will be surprised at the niche things you can discover at a local archive or library.

watching an actor's soul leave a television show five seasons before their body does

songs should be 7 minutes long minimum & blow your dick clean off every time