afloat

Up (2009)

I hope 2022 gently kisses your tears away, I hope 2022 raises a glass for all the people you used to be and for all the people you are going to be, I hope 2022 guilt trips you with important realizations but cradles you into moments where you can make amends with it, I hope 2022 is about bone crushing hugs and healthy bodies, I hope 2022 nurtures your heart with so much happiness that you laugh because your body is not an appropriate sizeable container for joy, I hope 2022 wraps you in a curtain where existence breathes peace, I hope 2022 brings wholesome interactions with things you find love shaped; books, animals, music, art, stories, I hope 2022 knits your relationships where you feel at home safe and content, I hope 2022 brings you a suitcase of new memories and I hope 2022 brings you a suitcase of old reminiscences, I hope that during stones of sadness, death and grief 2022 eases the tension of time and timlessness, I am hoping with all your heart and its beats that 2022 houses love, love breathing, love sleeping, love dancing, love crawling, love laughing, love crying, love smiling, love sighing, love yearning, love hoping. I hope, I hope, I hope

~enigma

you’re going to love again, find a job again, create art again, do what you love again, feel powerful again. you’re going to be back on track. i don’t know when, but you are going to feel like yourself again, eventually. this isn’t the end. hang in there.

think of me when you see the moon.

Moonlight in the Adirondacks By Rockwell Kent

you are allowed to be proud of the victories that no one else can see. like showering without completely hating your body, not breaking into tears at the thought of the future, talking yourself out of a dark mindset, calming yourself down in public, or like waking up every single day and choosing life. be proud of the progress no matter if it is visible for others or not. you’re doing great, keep up the good work!

a gentle reminder:

you are still learning. you are still changing. you are still growing. breathe. you will find your way.

a soft reminder: even though you might be disappointed in how you did this year, you still made a lot of progress. you tried and tried again, so many times. every little thing you achieved. every breakdown you got up from. every moment of happiness you encountered. every little act of self care and kindness you did. it all matters. they all helped you grow. they are all small victories to be proud of. it's not always clear to see, because day to day everything feels the same, but I promise you've come a long way since the beginning of the year. so please be extra gentle with yourself when looking back. be proud of yourself too, if you can. you did well.