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all i wanted was to love you

@artsyunderstudy / artsyunderstudy.tumblr.com

Ashton | 34 | She/Her | 18+
Artist, Writer and professional Obsesser. Art | Fanfic | AO3
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Rating: Explicit

Words: 40k

Chapters: 5/5

Summary:

The grounds around the gates of Watford are burnt. The dining hall stinks of magick. It's three months since the tumultuous end of seventh year—one lonely summer, and six more weeks in a lonelier room—and Baz is finally back. And Simon needs to know why.

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“So I want to write this story to take myself out of a life, to live cathartically through someone else, to put to test my grand ideas of how life should work.

“But somehow I can’t escape my own realism…to reveal pieces of myself through writing.

“I think my problem is I want to write about myself even though I can’t find a plot in there…

“And I’m too disjointed. I have too many stories.

“I’m having difficulty staying with one story long enough to take it anywhere.

“Maybe I need to stop trying to ‘say’ something and just write.”

-Note from a past Christina, circa 2010

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dearamleo

Sneak peak of a Snowbaz bind I just finished 😊

It’s not a pairing I typically read but holy fuck was this story just insanely beautifully written. And the art on top of it??? Stunning.

@artsyunderstudy was kind enough to allow me to bind it and I’m so happy to have it on my shelf. Thank you! 💚💚

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I have no idea what fandom you were when I started following you (it was probably supernatural 10+ years ago), but honestly you have the best art and on top of that your fics are some of my absolute favorites. You are so incredibly talented!

I just finished someone wicked and it was so so wonderful. I can't adequately put into words how much I enjoyed it. Also, One December Night!! No thoughts, just brain going AHHHHHH with how good it is.

You were my first introduction to snowbaz and now I'm a quarter of the way into Carry On (I have read on obscene amount of fanfic already though, before even starting the book). I'm really enjoying it. I also really appreciate how you have highlighted other creators in the space, because I've read so much good fanfiction based off of your recommendations.

Just thanks for all you do and sharing your creativity with the world :) I hope you have a great day.

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I knew it was possible that there were people around here that have followed me since Ye Olden Days of Supernatural Fandom but it's always such a pleasure to have people who enjoyed my stuff back then and still do now!

I love that I had a hand in you diving into the wonderful world of Snowbaz fic. We are a small fandom but we have such a wealth of talented writers and I truly don't highlight them enough. And I'm touched that you liked Someone Wicked, that fic is so special to me. (And One December Night!)

I hope you continue to enjoy the series! If you haven't got an invite yet, definitely consider joining the Carry On discord server.

We love new people!! Anyone who's a CO fan feel free to join in.

Thank you very much for this kind message. I really appreciate it.

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Bunday Solar Eclipse Day

Hope you have your solar glasses ready if you’re in the path of totality! I’m not really in the path so I’m compensating with celestial fics. I have a few to recommend to you; would you tell me your favorites?

Under a blanket of stars by @dohrnaira (T, 3500 words, Simon’s an astronomer and it’s as cute as you think that sounds)

I’ll Stop the World by half-witch (M, 49,333)—Simon is the sun and Baz is the human he falls in love with. I’m halfway through and I love it.

Where the Sand Meets the Sea by @amywaterwings (T, 76,287)—if you haven’t read this, drop everything and read (dear). A comet is coming for Baz’s town, and he’s been having these dreams…

Neutron Star Collision by @alleycat0306 (Explicit, 54,880)—lots of star and space facts embedded everywhere, Watford era, my love and obsession for this fic is deep. I think I’ve read it half a dozen times at least. It’s so soft and so sweet and lovely.

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An ask game for writers to procrastinate working on your WIP(s)

1. 🦈Tell us the name of your/ one of your WIP(s):

I technically have a handful of WIPs I haven't given up on posting but I'm not actively working on. Après la Pluie, le Beau Temps is the one I'm actively working on. I'm in the planning stages with All the Lonely People which is a fic I'm planning to cowrite with @cutestkilla my beloved. Then I have Sober, Water Grey, Close Your Eyes, and A Mild Case of Madness (yes I haven't given up on AMCOM I was actually thinking I'd try and finish it up after I'm done posting Après)

I don't actually work on more than one fic at a time but I also had like a flood of ideas once I was done writing Someone Wicked and that's why the pile of WIPs. Also I was trying to do discovery writing and realized that I hate it.

2. 🍄Describe your WIP/one of your WIP(s) in the format of “___ + ___ =___”

Why is this so hard???

Okay. Um.

Roommates who (pretend to) hate each other + alcohol induced vulnerability = publicly getting off with each other on a stranger's couch in the middle of a rager, probably to the dulcet sounds of goosebumps by travis scott.

3. 🌍What tags or warnings will one of your WIP(s) need if you intend to share it?

Amazingly my current WIP doesn't really require much bracing. But I am still intending very much to complete Sober (working title) which I talked a lot about last year. That would come with warnings for grief, alcohol and sexual assault. Which makes it sound so much worse than it is, but then again I always think that my writing isnt actually that sad but then i have people telling me i ripped their heart out of their chest and chewed on it so im not a good judge of that. i will say it definitely has more jokes than my usual fare.

4. 🧭An alternative title to one of your WIP(s)?

I am very decisive when it comes to titles, so I genuinely cant think of anything. I guess Sober, because I'm not sure that's the right title for the fic because it's not about addiction. It's about drunken hookups (and like, definitely some alcohol as a coping mechanism but like, mostly just uni students partying and going too hard as they are wont to do) so I was thinking of making it longer like "Kiss Me When You're Sober" but I dunno. It's not even close to done so I don't have to decide yet.

5. ⚠️Which WIP you're most likely to finish or update next?

Après la Pluie, le Beau Temps is the fic I'm actively working on and I'm going to post this guy next come hell or high water. It's just taking me a while, I'm a bit burnt out. But things they will come.

6. 💾What is your document of your WIP/ a WIP called? (not the stories actual title but what you’ve saved it as)

All my documents are the fic titles so nothing really fun there.

7. 🖍Post Any sentence(s) from your WIP.

“If you’re going to do this, do you actually trust him? After everything he’s done to you. Everything you’ve done to each other.” I sigh. “I don’t know.”  All the things I’ve always believed I hated about him feel different now, filtered through a new lens. His relentlessness, his sharp edges, his poise. The way he moves across the pitch, and plays his violin, sweet-toned and sorrowful. The singe of his magick.  “I just … see him,” I say quietly. “And I know I want him. The way I’m supposed to.”

8. ♻️A scrapped idea for your current WIP.

I don't know, I don't think I've scrapped any ideas for this WIP yet? Actually, I think earlier on in the planning I had wanted to have Niall and Dev being absolutely gross with their PDA through the whole thing, but I ended up writing a completely different side-story for them that's genuinely a ton better. Basically, they were a gag, and now they have an actual arc.

9. 🤔What’s a story you’d love to write but haven’t even started yet?

Gonna mirror Dre here, we have been planning a fic to cowrite but we both have other fanfic obligations to fulfill first, so it's a little bit on the backburner until we are both freed up. Again, to parrot her, it's a canonverse AU based on a movie we both adore, older (late 30's) strangers to lovers, a ghost story but in a cathartic way, not a scary way, developing relationship. We have a shared trello and I can't help but daydream about it. I am so very very eager to start working on it in earnest.

10. 🤡How many WIPS are you actively working on?

One, actively. Two if you count the fic with Dre which we occasionally can't help but get into long discussions about.

11. 🛠Is there a scene or anything in the WIP you are struggling with right now?

I am currently writing a genre I've never written before which has just been a little daunting. As well as this first chapter has zero simon or baz, probably, and THAT is hard too. But it has to be that way. For the setup. It just means I'm having to learn how to write a lot of side characters in a way I haven't done before, like Niamh and Niall (since i have a bit of experience with agatha and dev)

12. ❤️Not a question, just a second Kudos to send.

Everyone deserves so many many kudos.

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swanparties

"____ fell first but ____ fell harder" to YOU. personally i cannot like a ship unless they are both equally obsessed with each other

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monbons

The Eternal Life of Baz Pitch

Rating: M

Chapters: 2/15 (expected word count: ~41k)

Summary: England, 1708: a young man risks everything in exchange for the chance to love and be loved—and is cursed as a result.

Thus begins the heart-wrenching and epic story of Baz Pitch, who will suffer centuries in search of a life and love for the ages.

Posting Schedule: New chapter every Friday.

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emeryhall

After Simon dumps Baz in the San Diego airport, Baz tries to be normal about it. He finishes up at LSE, gets an MSt in poetry from Oxford, dates a few men, fucks around. Then he gives up and retires to the Scottish Highlands to cultivate his “Rick Rubin beard” and “Unabomber vibe.” Everything is going just bloody brilliant. That is until Fiona shows up with some unexpected news. Oh yeah, and a porno mag featuring his ex wearing nothing but wings and a tail. 

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