came across one of your posts. idk what you go through or in which country you live. but i just want to say that i had such negative thoughts in the past, for a year. i was crying every day and was thinking that i can't go through every day feeling this way anymore.
one day i read somewhere that "you can choose to be happy or sad" and i thought "how stupid, if it was that easy everyone would be happy". then i decided to try it. i said to myself "you won't label yourself as depressed or hopeless or sad, you will focus on what you have to do and ignore that burden of sadness". i started doing everyday things this way. that feeling of sadness used to return at night when i was overwhelmed from trying to avoid it all day and i would cry. until that sadness stopped coming back. it's been 2 years. there are times when i cry like everyone but i don't feel that burden. it sounds easy but it wasn't. but it wasn't impossible as well.
what i want to say is that many things are not a choice and we are forced to accept them, but many things are a choice. we can choose how we deal with things. you're still here for a reason. find a goal and follow it. whether it is to make people's days better with a compliment or volunteering, study something you love, make a plan on how to leave your country, build a life elsewhere, anything. we can do anything if we try to overcome the restrictions that others or ourselves create. i believe in you! i believe that you can make a difference in this world and you're here for a reason. sending you love! be hopeful and stay safe please π§‘π§‘
Wow... Thank you very much! For this beautiful message and for believing in me! You described exactly how I feel.
I'm trying to find a goal, a meaning, I fail. A lot. But I will try again. Thank you again for kind words! β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ