angsty i guess, and lonely, despite being social - more driven than last two or so years towards living for sure. love (in it's most general meaning) might be a skill that gets rusty without practice.

wowee my oddly normal asks are back! i thought living in a massive university campus was pure joy despite questionable housing conditions. i was hopeful about certain things back then, things that i no longer feel

emo/skramz: mitsubishi suicide & ostraca & lisabö. ambient: tongue depressor. experimental: circular void. electronic: plasmeed (actually 2024!). folk: paavoharju. bar italia and world's end girlfriend also released albums last year and i really like those acts but i haven't listened to their latest yet.

i have not. i have known true pain though

tbh old pop (in the most classical sense of the word) of theirs is more interesting to me (picky picnic and such are borderline noise, but it`s not the same aesthetic sensibility as 'japanoise') and for current efforts i'd prefer the chinese, so probably this

i am pro-indigenous liberatory efforts wherever they are because i am cynical of current left wing efforts (at their best they are eden-ists utilizing an outdated jargon), and been pro-palestine (and kurdistan) since highschool

having a tiny shop that is so oddly specific and devoted in everything it is selling (like my tiny vintage barrette collection) that it becomes a local curiosity for visitors, is a good dream i can manage (unlike polyamory)

nip tuck is my fav and the hospital thingy trier did was similarly cool and -idk i think i also generally enjoy southern gothic- i also loved the post apocalyptic one where half the population just disappeared