Dr. Helen Sharpe in 1.05 ‘Cavitation’

What If | (2013)

• I’m rough on the surface, but you cut through like a knife
• If it was an open-shut case I never would have known from the look on your face 
• Lost in your current like a priceless wine 
• The more that you say, the less I know 
• Wherever you stray, I follow 
• I’m begging for you to take my hand 
• I’m begging for you
• I can feel you sneakin’ in 
• There was one prize I’d cheat to win 
• They count me out time and time again 
• Anywhere else is hollow
• That’s my man 
• I come back stronger than a ‘90s trend 
• Wait for the signal, and I’ll meet you after dark 
• I’ll meet you after dark 
• Show me the places where the others gave you scars 
• This is an open-shut case 
• I should'a known from the look on your face 
• Hey, that’s my man 
• Yeah, that’s my man

• You booked the night train for a reason
• Your heart was glass, I dropped it 
• You told your family for a reason 
• You dropped my hand while dancing, left me out there standing 
• Love slipped beyond your reaches and I couldn’t give a reason 
• This dorm was once a madhouse
• Well, it’s made for me 
• Soon they’ll have the nerve to deck the halls that we once walked through 
• I never was ready so I watch you go 
• She would’ve made such a lovely bride, what a shame she’s fucked in the head
• Sometimes you just don’t know the answer til someone’s on their knees and asks you 
• You won’t remember all my champagne problems

• I don’t like a gold rush
• I don’t like that anyone would die to feel your touch 
• Everybody wants you 
• Everybody wonders what it would be like to love you 
• What must it be like to grow up that beautiful? 
• I can’t dare to dream about you anymore 
• My mind turns your life into folklore 
• I won’t call you out on your contrarian shit 

• If I wanted to know who you were hanging with while I was gone, I would have asked you
• There’s an ache in you, put there by the ache in me 
• But if it’s all the same to you it’s the same to me 
• You could call me “babe” for the weekend 
• We could call it even 
• Remember how you watched me leave
• You can run, but only so far 
• And the road not taken looks real good now 
• Hear me out, we could just ride around 
• The road not taken looks real good now and it always leads to you in my hometown 
• I won’t ask you to wait if you don’t ask me to stay 
• I wonder about the only soul who can tell which smiles I’m fakin' 
• The heart I know I’m breakin’ is my own
• Even though I’m leavin’ and I’ll be yours for the weekend 
• ​'Tis the damn season

• I notice everything you do or don’t do
• You’re so much older and wiser 
• If it’s all in my head tell me now 
• Tell me I’ve got it wrong somehow 
• I know my love should be celebrated but you tolerate it 
• I take your indiscretions all in good fun 
• I made you my temple, my mural, my sky - now I’m begging for footnotes in the story of your life 
• I’m begging for footnotes in the story of your life 
• You assume I’m fine, but what would you do if I break free and leave us in ruins?
• Believe me, I could do it 

• He did it
• Her husband’s actin’ different, and it smells like infidelity 
• That ain’t my merlot on his mouth. That ain’t my jewelry on our joint account 
• I think I’m gonna call him out 
• No, there ain’t no doubt 
• I think he did it, but I just can’t prove it 
• No body, no crime
• I ain’t lettin’ up until the day I die 
• Good thing my daddy made me get a boating license when I was fifteen 
• I’ve cleaned enough houses to know how to cover up a scene 
• She was with me, dude 
• They think she did it, but they just can’t prove it 
• Good thing his mistress took out a big life insurance policy 
• I wasn’t lettin’ up until the day he died 

• I see this for what it is
• All the years I’ve given is just shit we’re dividin’ up 
• I can’t face reinvention 
• There’ll be happiness after you 
• There was happiness because of you 
• Haunted by the look in my eyes that would’ve loved you for a lifetime 
• Tell me, when did your winning smile begin to look like a smirk? 
• I hope she’ll be your beautiful fool, who takes my spot next to you 
• No, I didn’t mean that 
• Sorry, I can’t see facts through all of my fury
• You haven’t met the new me yet 
• There’ll be happiness after me
• There was happiness because of me 
• I can’t make it go away by making you a villain 
• I pulled your body into mine every goddamn night, now I get fake niceties 
• No one teaches you what to do when a good man hurts you and you know you hurt him, too
• All you want from me now is the green light of forgiveness 
• After giving you the best I had, tell me what to give after that?
• All you want from me now is the green light of forgiveness. You haven’t met the new me yet and I think she’ll give you that

• Do you ever stop and think about me?
• A tiny screen’s the only place I see you now
• I got nothing but well-wishes for ya
• This place is the same as it ever was but you don’t like it that way 
• It’s never too late to come back to my side 
• You'rе a queen sellin’ dreams, sellin’ makeup and magazines 
• From you I’d buy anything 
• But are you still the same soul I met under the bleachers? 
• I guess I’ll never know 
• If you’re ever tired of being known for who you know, you’ll always know me.

• If I can’t relate to you anymore then who am I related to?
• And if this is the long haul how’d we get here so soon? 
• Did I close my fist around something delicate?
• Did I shatter you? 
• Sorry for not making you my centerfold 
• What’s a lifetime of achievement if I pushed you to the edge but you were too polite to leave me?
• Do you miss the rogue who coaxed you into paradise and left you there?
• Will you forgive my soul when you’re too wise to trust me and too old to care? 
• We were like the mall before the internet 
• Were you waiting at our old spot: in the tree line by the gold clock?
• Did I leave you hanging every single day? 
• When I got into the accident the sight that flashed before me was your face 

• Your touch brought forth an incandescent glow, tarnished but so grand
• I just sit here and wait, grieving for the living 
• My pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand 
• My pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand taking mine, but it’s been promised to another 
• Stop you putting roots in my dreamland 
• I wish to know the fatal flaw that makes you long to be magnificently cursed 
• Your opal eyes are all I wish to see 
• I’d live and die for moments that we stole 
• What would he do if he found us out? 
• Dare to sit and watch what we’ll become 
• It’s a goddamn blaze in the dark and you started it 
• It’s the goddamn fight of my life and you started it

• Dancin’ is a dangerous game
• I’m never gonna love again 
• I’ve got some tricks up my sleeve 
• Takes one to know one 
• Never wanted love, just a fancy car 
• You’re a cowboy like me 
• I’m telling all the rich folks anything they wanna hear 
• You’re a bandit like me 
• Never thought I’d meet you here 
• We could be the way forward and I know I’ll pay for it 
• The skeletons in both our closets plotted hard to fuck this up
• The old men that I’ve swindled really did believe I was the one 
• Now you hang from my lips like the Gardens of Babylon 
• Forever is the sweetest con

• I tried to pick my battles ‘til the battle picked me
• I was in the alley, surrounded on all sides 
• Long story short, it was a bad time 
• If the shoe fits, walk in it ‘til your high heels break 
• I clung to the nearest lips and long story short, it was the wrong guy 
• Now I’m all about you 
• Actually, I always felt I must look better in the rear view - missing me.
• If someone comes at us, this time, I’m ready 
• No more keepin’ score, now I just keep you warm 
• Past me, I wanna tell you not to get lost in these petty things 
• Your nemeses will defeat themselves before you get the chance to swing 
• He feels like home 
• Long story short, I survived

• Never be so kind you forget to be clever
• Never be so clever you forget to be kind
• If I didn’t know better I’d think you were talking to me now
• If I didn’t know better I’d think you were still around 
• You’re alive in my head 
• What died didn’t stay dead 
• You’re alive, so alive 
• Never be so polite you forget your power
• Nevеr wield such power you forget to be polite 
• I should’ve asked you questions 
• Should’ve kept every grocery store receipt cause every scrap of you would be taken from me 
• I know better but you’re still around 
• I still feel you all around

• It’s been a long time and seeing the shape of your name still spells out pain
• Yes, I’m doing better
• I don’t need your closure 
• Yes, I got your letter 
• Don’t treat me like some situation that needs to be handled 
• I’m fine with my spite and my tears, and my beers and my candles 
• I know I’m just a wrinkle in your new life 
• Staying friends would iron it out so nice 

• Gray November, I’ve been down since July
• I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone trying to find the one where I went wrong 
• I couldn’t be sure
• I had a feeling so peculiar that this pain would be for evermore 
• Guess I’m feeling unmoored 
• Can’t remember what I used to fight for 
• Can’t not think of all the cost and the things that will be lost 
• To be certain, we’ll be tall again 
• Is there a line that I could just go cross? 
• And when I was shipwrecked I thought of you 
• It was real enough to get me through 
• I dreamed of you 
• I swear you were there 
• I had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldn’t be for evermore