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I live on the net

@iliveonthenet / iliveonthenet.tumblr.com

We are made of patterns. My side blog for writing: my-trashy-writing.
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Anonymous asked:

hey, how have you been?

Hi, hey, hello!

Thanks for remembering me! ; )

Everything is pretty much fine on my end: I’m in a good shape both mentally and physically, I like my job, just today I started my two-weeks holiday. I’m also comfortable with almost all my interpersonal relationships. Cause it’s not like the relationship with my mother can get better. And I kinda complicated some stuff with a guy I thought I liked. I mean, I still like him but not romantically. 

Anyway, overall - it’s pretty good. I’m rather content with what I have and where I ended up with my life. Of course it can always get better but let’s not be greedy or something. ; )

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AO3 Filter Meme

Tagged by @kathwolfie​. Wow, looks like fun.

Rules: Go to your works page, expand all the filters, and answer the following questions!

1. What’s your first and second most common work ratings?

General Audiences (30) Teen And Up Audiences (14)

2. What’s your most common archive warning? Least common? Do you consider yourself an adventurous writer?

No Archive Warnings Apply (47)

Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings (11)

I used only these two.  And I don’t know about being adventurous. I don’t think so. I might have had some wild ideas but I don’t really realise them. Omegaverse might be considered adventurous for some people, though. I guess.

3. How many fics have you written in each relationship category? Is this more accidental, or do you have preferences?

M/M (58)

Well...

4. What are your top 4 fandoms by numbers? Are you still active in any of them, and do you tend to migrate a lot?

Haikyuu!! (47) Voltron: Legendary Defender (8) やはり俺の青春ラブコメはまちがっている。 | My Teen Romantic Comedy SNAFU (Anime) (2) Qualidea Code (Anime) (1)

These are all my fandoms. So I don’t think that I migrate a lot when my writing is considered. I do have a shitload of fandoms if we talk about consuming the content, though. As for being active - I’m not active at all, so, well, yeah... Though I want to write again for all of these so...

5. What are your top 4 character tags? Does this match how you feel about the characters, or are you puzzled?

Tsukishima Kei (41) Yamaguchi Tadashi (39) Kuroo Tetsurou (15) Sawamura Daichi (11)

Yeah, it definitely matches. Or maybe I would have switched Kuroo and Daichi’s places but it’s fine like this too.

6. What are your top 2 most used additional tags, and your bottom 2? What would happen if you combined all 4 of these into a fic?

Top Two: Angst (6) Sexual Content (4) and Alternate Universe - College/University (4)

Bottom Two: Established Relationship (2) Alternate Universe - Office (2)

Well, I think that would be pretty easy to achieve. Maybe some drama with graduation and finding work. Or a relationship between a student and an office worker.

7. How many WIPs do you have currently running on AO3? Any you don’t plan on finishing?

None. I post my fics only after I finish them. Though it’s not like I’m not thinking about sequels. 

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Get to know your writer!

Tagged by @kathwolfie​. Thanks again!

1. Pen or Pencil?

PEN. I hate pencils since grade school. 

2. Have you ever drawn your OCs?

I don’t think so. Though I remember that I’ve made a shitty mouse drawing in paint of Tsukishima and Yamaguchi tattoos from Feathers

3. Does your writing ever make you cry?

Yeah, when I want to write, have ideas but can’t write because that fucken shitty writers block.

4. If your muse was a person, what would they look like?

That terrified, bullied nerd who’s scared of everything around them. 

5. Which of your pieces would you choose to be remembered for?

That’s a hard question. Maybe Love Thy Neighbour or the night club au. Though... I really love how Let the Worst of Us Collide came out. HayaHachi is totally my type of a slightly fucked up relationship. How they need to work around each other, change for both the other and, most important, themselves. How they aren’t exactly honest and happy. I’m definitely projecting but I like it when characters try to find the most comfortable place in their personal hell. And, if I could say so myself, I think I nailed it pretty good here. 

6. How much have you written or worked on your WIP so far today

"Today”. Ayyy lmao. I haven’’t done anything for MONTHS.

7. Have you ever based a piece or a portion of a piece on a dream?

I don’t think so.

8. Do you prefer silence, a little noise (music, ambient noises, fan, etc.) or a lot of noise when you are writing?

Some music in the background. Either playlist that I think is suitable to the mood I want to portray or just some chillstep/wave/ambient and such music. 

9. Do you have any routines before you sit down to write?

Maybe choosing the music. And making some tea. 

10. Have you ever participated in NaNoWriMo or a Camp?

Nope. And the concept of NaNoWriMo doesn’t speak to me at all.

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Rules: 15 questions, 15 mutuals (i am so out of tumblr so idk)

Tagged by @kathwolfie luv ya, Bruh

1. Are you named after anyone?

No. Though my parents were debating if they should name me after my great-grandmother from my father’s mother side.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Yesterday while watching the newest Monsta X m/v (this comeback killed me like any other kpop thing never did).

3. Do you have kids?

Does 13 cacti count? 

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

I think so? I’m not exactly sure, tho.

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

If they wear glasses or not. 

6. What’s your eye color?

Darkish brown.

7. Scary movie or happy ending?

I don’t like scary movies in general. :v 

8. Any special talents?

Recognising seiyuu really fast by their voices. 

9. Where were you born?

Poland.

10. What are your hobbies?

Watching anime, reading manga (mostly doujinshi and bl) and sometimes books, wasting time, I guess. And rpg-type match three dots mobile games. 

11. Do you have any pets?

I wanna copy the answer about cacti here. 

12. What sports do you play/have you played?

Volleyball.

13. How tall are you?

166 cm.

14. Favorite subject in school?

Literature, math and social psychology. 

15. Dream job?

Tbh never had any and still don’t have. Just, you know, something that I won’t hate and that would allow me to live a good life.

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Dropping by with an update! 

My contract got extended, I like my job and my coworkers. My health is good, meds are working as they should, everything is fine. 

I don’t think that I’ll be back here to properly use this blog. But I’m still dropping back from time to time to, idk, check the messages or something. 

I’d love to go back to writing, though. @my-trashy-writing is extremely important to me but... well... I can’t write. I haven’t written anything since winter. And it’s not that I’m not trying... I just... simply... cannot write. Which makes me sad but I’m trying to not lose hope. 

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pfft, you can find something problematic with anything if you look hard enough. its best to just enjoy what you like.

Yeah, that’s totally true. I remember there being stuff about some Haikyuu relationships being problematic. As in - not even shipping but the canon friendships, lol

Though, well, I can see from where people might be coming at Banana Fish. Like, there’s child porn and rape involved. Though, in my opinion, it’s handled pretty well. And it’s not counted as fanservive or whatever.

Oh well, that’s internet for ya. There are much more fucked up and disturbing stuff and people still praise it, lol.

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that's great! glad that things have turned around for you. I haven't seen banana fish yet but its definitely on my to do list (as you can tell I am also slow with replies x_x )

Thanks, I’m quite content at the moment! ; )

Also - third episode of Banana Fish left me legit hysterical. For a lot of different. Seriously, a lot, not only because of That Scene.

I’m digging how the whole thing is kinda dark, heavy and edgy with some of it’t themes (and gay). But it’s also pretty fun with great action and plot (and gay). I already saw some people pegging it as problematic but, well, fuck this shit. I’m gonna enjoy it to the fullest. Sue me or whatever.

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cryselda skomentował(a) Twój post “Hey! Been awhile. You OK?”

oh dang this was a while back. I've also been absent from tumblr for a while. I'm trying to get back into it but who knows how that'll go. its good to know how you're doing though, so thanks for @ 'ing me! sadly I don't have snapchat so hopefully we'll both be able to hang around a bit more here together

Some things already changed - like my working situation. Or that my shoulder stopped hurting. And that, overall, my mental state got better too. So, well, things are on the right track at the moment.

tbh I’ve been thinking about coming back here after I catch up with the new anime season (HOLY FUCKEN SHIT BANANA FISH OWNS MY ASS SO HARD) but, well, I’m still kinda ‘meh’ about it, so, whatever, I guess. Maybe one day.

And we can still chat here (though I may be kinda slow with replies) or... idk other social media apps I use are messenger and whatsapp. And I have twitter but don’t use it.

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@kathwolfie tagged me. Thanks!

1. Summer or winter

2. Pizza or pasta

3. Black or white

4. Comedy or horror

5. Hugs or kisses 

6. Shorts or pants

7. Night or day

8. Bath or shower

9. Cats or dogs

10. Plain or patterned

11. Beauty or brains

12. Coffee or tea

13. Concert or play

14. Fiction or nonfiction

15. Elevator or escalator

16. Pork or chicken

17. Sleeping or eating

18. Hot or cold

19. Formal or casual

20. Pen or pencil

21. Sweet or spice

22. Jet or ship

23. Highschool or college

24. Walking or jogging

25. Alone or in a crowd

26. Love or money

27. Mammal or reptile

28. Bills or coins

29. Straight or curly hair

30. Drunk or high

31. Married or single

32. Ninjas or pirates

33. Zoo or aquarium

34. Flowers or chocolate

35. Lawyer or doctor

37. Car or house

38. Angels or demons

39. Christmas or Halloween

40. Slippers or barefoot

41. Pool or beach

42. Truth or dare

43. Blond or brunette

44. Cafe or Library

45. Debit or credit

46. Quiet or loud

47. Sun or moon

48. Thunder or lightning

49. Bed or sofa

50. Weird or normal

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simplyfx skomentował(a) Twój post “quick update - I HAVE A JOB”

I'm glad you found a job you like :) I'm sure things are just turning out for the best :)

The pay is acceptable and raising it after some time is definitely possible so it’s not bad. The working hours are great, I won’t be working different shifts anymore! And it’s not that far to commute, to be honest it’s going to be the closest to home I ever worked. The people I already met seemed nice. So, well, yeah, I do think that, at the moment, everything looks good.

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simplyfx skomentował(a) Twój post “Hey! Been awhile. You OK?”

Hope you're OK :( I was actually wondering why ain't seen you in my dash for so long. Take care of yourself please. I respect your decision, you can always come back here when you feel like it. It happened to me too for a reason or another I was inactive for 4 months then I came back so I totally understand your point of view. Get well soon :)

It’s getting better. Definitely. I also got a job yesterday and I’m starting soon, so that’s also a plus. So I think that maybe things are finally on the right track.

I still don’t know about tumblr. Well, as I’ve said before - maybe one day.

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Hey! Been awhile. You OK?

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(I'll answer this publicly 'cause maybe someone else was wondering the same)

First of all - damn, you are lucky that you sent an ask since I got a notification on my email. I've just noticed that I have almost thirty messages on the chat...

Anyway, I'm happy that you decided to drop by and contact me. Sadly, the answer to seemingly such an easy question isn't exactly so easy...

Well, when it comes to my physical health - I'm more or less ok. My right shoulder started to act up a bit few days ago but otherwise, I guess, everything is fine. I recovered after the surgery without any problems, the scars are small and aren't really visible. I had a check up with my doctor and he also said that everything seems fine. Right now I'm on a pill that should further balance out my hormones so maybe the rest of annoying things will stop (especially acne; and so my hair won't fall out so much). Also! Thanks to the surgery I don't suffer during my periods! This is the best thing ever. I had to spend one or two days in bed and now I can go about my days normally! I mean, I still have to take one or two ibuprofen pills but this is all! In the past I was taking up to ten! And even then it was mostly to get out of bed and do things around myself, not to function like a regular human being.

Mentaly it's.. well... same old, I guess. Which is... not good. But also not That Bad(TM). It also got a bit better after the surgery but then I started searching for a job and, well, it plummeted down again. I don't really have much to say about the topic. :v

And as I've mentioned - I'm searching for a job. Well, it's a high time since I'm not working since the second half of January. So almost half a year now.

It's going... well.. slow. I've applied for shitload of ads but the response ratio is extremely low. Though I've been to around ten or so job intervies. There were some places that wanted to hire me but I ain't gonna work a job with a pay that I won't be able to support myself. At the moment of writing this I have two ongoing options: for one I was promised to be contacted today (though I don't have much hope for this) and as for the second - like an hour ago I got a call with an invitation for a job interview on Friday. So we will see.

And, as some sort of conclusion - the reason why I'm not active on tumblr.

Tumblr was suffocating me. The things I actually wanted to see really decrased (I couldn't really even find blogs relevant to my interests; well, I always liked nonexistent or dead fandoms) and the most active fandom was, well, not fun (and I also haven't seen the latest season yet, lol)

At first I had a terrible case of fomo but I got over it. And, tbh, I don't really miss tumblr as a whole. Well, there are small things like - when something big happens in one of my fandoms (mostly Haikyuu, that TsukiYama high five for example) - then I kinda sorta miss screaming about it and rebloging shitloads of almost identical posts about the scene. Or the few people I was in contacy with. Like you or @cryselda for example. I'm not deleting my account (especially my writing blog, I still have hope that I will come back to writing) and I'm not saying that I'll never be back at all but... I don't think I'll be active in the nearest future. Of course you all can always contact me or something (asks are better than chat since I get an email notification about them). And if someone cares - I'm definitely much more active on snapchat, so, idk, if someone wants my handle then hit me up.

Again - thanks for contacting me!

And sorry if the formatting is weird or there are any weird mistakes. At the moment I can use internet only on my phone and I hate using mobile.

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oh wow, tomorrow morning i have a job interview for a job i actually want 

wish me luck

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