Can you actually die of a broken heart and if so can it hurry the fuck up and finish me off.

In the least dramatic way possible, I would like to opt out of living/surviving. I don’t have it in me to do anything about it but this is exhausting, painful and pointless. I give up. Just give me the option of falling asleep and not waking up. A permanent coma would also be acceptable. Just take me out one way or another.

Appropriate sad Christmas song

I have cried in so many public places this week.

Waiting an extra hour (so far) for a delayed train I don’t even want to be on.

The winter storm gods have failed me and the trains are running per usual. 😩

Words cannot express how much I do not want to go home for Christmas festivities. Was hoping I’d test positive for covid somehow, but no go. Now I just wait and hope for this winter storm to show up the way they say it will and get my train cancelled 🤞🏻

Get in loser, we’re manifesting on the solstice.

Tarot tik tok keeps telling me my manifestations / wish fulfillment will be coming in soon! Going by the things I have been begging the universe for lately, this means I will soon be happy again, or I will d*e. A win is a win.

My New Year’s resolution is to become dead inside.

Trying on dresses for my work holiday party that I may or may not go to in order to distract myself from wanting to d*e.