Does anyone have a good Nessian fic rec where Nesta realizes that maybe she deserves better and Cassian realizes that "oh, maybe I need to rethink some things before i lose her from my life" ?

I'd appreciate anything honestly. The more I think of the canon, the more I get sad

MY TIME HAS COME

Theteaqueen is great for this because she does the most canon fix it stuff. Although she focuses more on Nesta angst. Cassian does have some good reflect/apologies in these three in particular

The best laid plans is also great, it starts with nesta accepting eris' proposal and goes from there. More Nesta focused

A bit harder to recommend but this is a collection of oneshots, many of which cover what you're asking for. Some of them tragic, most of them not. I dont know which chapters are best, but bejeweled fits

In a similar vein, moments is also a oneshot collection, and chapter 4 is a post hosab argument that might scratch the itch

Better man is the only modern au on here, but it is Nesta leaving cassian and him following her. Unclear as of yet if they'll figure their shit out, but it's very cassian pining centric

These savage storms is a very old one. It is simply a nessian argument (pre acofas) that checks the boxes of cassian going too far in an argument and then having to apologize for it

Falling slowly is a post acosf fic about cassian trying to woo Nesta. She doesn't exactly say she deserves better, that's emerie, but they're figuring it out

The relapse is still very early on. I love this fic and I think it's going to go where you want, but cassian is still in the fuck around stage

Extremely thrilled to finally post my big feast for @gwynrielweeksofficial 🖤 enjoy!!

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HOUSE OF SKY AND BREATH

1. Bryce & Hunt Waterstones

2. Ruhn Books-a-Million

3. Tharion Target

HOUSE OF FLAME AND SHADOW

1. Bryce & Danika Indie

2. Bryce & Hunt Barnes & Noble

3. Bryce, Nesta & Azriel Target

4. Ember & Randall Books-a-Million

5. Ruhn & Linda Walmart

Like Pristine Glass - Chapter Twenty-three

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oh my God. here we are. chapter twenty-three.

what is there to say but thank you all so much for reading?

beware, this chapter’s monster sized. around 10k. also…relatively graphic birth scene.

thank you all. so much.

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August 23 - Year of

In the end, it was not Cassian’s fault she made the decision to leave.

Later, much later, she would wonder if he blamed himself and she almost wished she could tell him otherwise. Because even in those last months they spent together, he was good to her. Better than anyone else had ever been. Sweet and teasing and kind. Such kindness. Who had ever treated her this way? Who smiled like this when she walked into a room? No one had ever been happy to see her. And from the way he looked at her and the things he said, she knew he felt the same way.

So he probably didn’t realize anything was amiss.

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Every time I read this fic, it warms my heart. The writing, the characterisation of these characters, the friendships, everything in this fic I adore!! Thank you for sharing your work with us, it’s so beautiful and real and raw.💜

Like Pristine Glass - Chapter Ten

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hey guys!! i am so very excited to be able to post chapter ten of like pristine glass so early. i wrote nearly all of it today!! 2.5k words!! i really thought that with my school load this was going to take me another two weeks!! guess 2020 is off to a great start for me; hope it is just as wonderful for you the whole way through<3

and thank you to my beautiful beta @thestarwhowishes!!

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October 30 - 4 years after

Feyre and Elain are silent at the room in the inn while they wait for Cassian to return. But he doesn’t. Not all night.

Feyre’s miserably upset at herself, running the whole thing over in her mind, again and again, wishing she had just not said anything. They were already on thin ice with her, and they knew that Nesta was letting them rush her, and that she’d be looking for any reason to pull herself and her children out of the agreement. And thanks to Feyre, she didn’t have to look very far.

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Who’s Counting: Part Twelve

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“Remind me why we’re doing this?” 

“Because you love your boyfriend?” 

“It’s a five hour drive.” 

“Because you love your boyfriend a lot?” 

Nesta rolls her eyes at Emerie’s response, but she throws her weekend bag in with the others, reaching up and closing the trunk. Emerie chuckles lowly at her reaction and moves to squeeze into the back seat of the car. Nesta gives herself another moment to sigh softly, but then she clambers into the driver’s seat, turning the key in the ignition. 

“Do you have the directions?” Nesta turns to ask Feyre who’s perched in the passenger seat. 

Feyre holds up her phone, the screen displaying the map, in answer. With that, Nesta throws the car into drive and they’re off. The directions lead them onto the highway, and then it’s just miles and miles of road ahead of them. Barren trees frame them on either side, the leaves holding on more to the reds and golds of falls the further south they get. Emerie, Gwyn, and Mor chatter away in the back seat, Feyre fiddling with the radio stations until she finds a song she’s satisfied with. 

They stop at a rest stop for lunch then are back on the road. When they get near the stadium, there’s already a line of cars waiting to turn into the parking area. The stadium that looms over them is larger than the one on campus. Banners all around display the logo of the NWSL team that plays in the stadium and photos of the players, but a large banner has been placed across the stadium’s entrance, declaring the NCAA College Cup. 

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Who’s Counting: Part Eight

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The first thing Cassian notices when he wakes up is his throbbing head. It’s somehow a dull ache everywhere, but there’s a particular pounding at his temples. His dry mouth is the second thing. He tries to get his tongue to cooperate and peel off the roof of his mouth, but it feels like he’s inexplicably swallowed cotton. The third thing Cassian notices is the pins and needles of his left arm and the weight settled there, followed very shortly by the scent of vanilla and jasmine filling his nose. His eyes snap open and he instantly regrets it, the sunlight sinking its claws into his brain, and now, the pounding is really everywhere. He tries to slowly open one eye at a time, and after a few blinks, he can somewhat handle the harsh morning light. 

Once Cassian’s eyes have adjusted, he takes in the person laying in front him, the culprit for his left arm being asleep since he currently has both arms curled around their waist. In an instant, Cassian feels a whiplash of confusion and panic. Luckily, they’re both fully clothed, it seems, so nothing too crazy must have happened last night. What even did happen last night? Cassian tries to wrack his brain, dredge the bottom of his sea of memories, but all he can remember is tequila. Too much tequila. Who let him drink that much tequila? 

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Rising from my fandom grave to say that if the next ACOTAR book has Nesta in any way supporting or fighting for Rice pilaf to be High King I will start burning books with the zeal of a fundamentalist in Texas.

That’s all.

Back to my obscurity.

(Chapter eighteen: Starfall part two. Nesta’s in Velaris, and the stars aren’t the only things falling.) (Prologue // previous chapter // next chapter)

Somebody was in her bedroom.

It was Nesta’s first thought as she opened her eyes in the darkness, able to see nothing but a single shaft of moonlight drifting through a gap in the curtains. Beside her Tomas lay curled on his side, still sleeping deeply even as Nesta lay still, hardly daring to breathe. There was a cool touch on her shoulder, a nudging presence that felt like a brush of cold air, and as almost silent footsteps sounded through the hush, she slid a hand beneath her pillow, curling her fingers around the dagger she’d hidden there.

Cassian’s dagger.

The leather was smooth against her palm, the weight of it a comfort as that wisp of cold air danced across her shoulder. 

It was what had woken her in the first place, the feel of something cold and insubstantial pressing against her cheek, but when Nesta opened her eyes, all she saw was darkness. Still— those slow, steady footsteps sounded, walking from the door and rounding the bed her husband still slept in. There was something familiar there, something about the wisp of air at her cheek that reminded her of something, of someone, but she couldn’t place it, and as the footsteps grew nearer, all she knew with any certainty was that she was not alone in that bedroom, that somebody else was lurking in the shadows.

Wow, the writing continues to amaze me. It perfectly captures the beauty of Nesta and Cassian’s love. Thank you for continuing to share.

Falling For Your Fools Gold: Chapter Masterlist

Main Pairing: Nesta/Cassian

Summary: 

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Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Epilogue 

Carynthian

For @nessianweek day 7 (but could also be a late day 6). So, ever since hearing about that SJM interview, with the original plan for the Rite in ACOSF, I’ve not been able to stop thinking about Cassian watching Nesta through a mirror. And thus, this fic was born— one where Eris isn’t captured, and one where Nesta climbs the mountain with her sisters and becomes carynthian the way she should have in canon. It’s almost 5k of pure angst but it’s okay, because there will be a part 2 at some point soon, full of nothing but fluff and a soft, fussing Cassian. Yknow, just to make up for all the heartache. (Also on AO3) (*update* - chapter 2 is here)

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Cassian had been wounded countless times in his long life. Acquired more scars than he could count, found himself on the wrong side of a keen blade more times than he cared to admit. Yet no injury, no wound, could compare to the pain of landing in Windhaven and finding Nesta gone.

Not just gone— taken. All three of them, his mate and his friends, plundered and left alone, thrust unwillingly into the Blood Rite.

(Chapter seventeen: Starfall part one. It’s a night Cassian has been looking forward to ever since Rhys came home, but it just doesn’t feel right without Nesta by his side.) (Prologue // previous chapter // next chapter)

Morning dawned, and with a muted thud Cassian’s fist hit the centre of the training dummy. 

The wooden frame rattled, the cotton he’d wrapped around his knuckles slipping as he flexed his fingers. Already, a numbness was beginning to spread, merging with the ache in his wings and his shoulders, mingling with the fatigue left over from a sleepless night.

He’d been at it an hour.

His breathing was ragged, his jaw clenched as tight as his fists, and even though a cool breeze licked across his bare skin, still he felt the strain in every inch of his frame— from his muscles right through to his centre, where suddenly there was a chasm, a void that hadn’t been there before. 

Velaris U - ACOTAR College Hockey AU

The Bargain - Gwynriel - Rated E - Completed 17 February 2023

The Hit - Nessian - Rated E - First Chapter posted 17 April 2023

The Shot - Elucien - Rated E - Drafting starts 1 April 2023

The Choice - Feysand - Rated E - Outline in progress

Untitled Jassa Novella - TBD

Art in the header was commissioned by me from @lemonade_doodles

Nessian 🔥 by @madschofield

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Stunning 😍

Rhys: Feyre hit me with a shoe.

Cassian: Nesta kneed me in the balls.

Rhys and Cassian: *waiting*

Azriel: . . . . . . . . . . . .

Azriel: Gwyn stabbed me.

Rhys and Cassian: *nodding their heads appreciatively*

(Chapter fifteen: Cassian’s determined to get his girl, whilst the past catches up to Nesta. TW: mentions of past abuse) (Prologue // previous chapter // next chapter)

He didn’t have a plan. 

Not really.

Finding himself caught in the jaws of an almighty storm, Cassian had parted ways with Azriel just a hairsbreadth from the gap in the wall, the rain hammering against his skin, numbing his cheeks, his fingers, and— he didn’t have a plan. He didn’t have anything— couldn’t even find the will to shield himself from the weather, being entirely too far gone to care about the chill that seeped through his leathers, the rain that slipped down the back of his neck. 

All he had was the ache inside, the pull that drew him, evermore, towards her.

Nesta.

The Girl (Part Two)

Notes: Sorry for any typos or inconsistencies, I wrote this in sporadic bursts on the train and I can't be held accountable for a tired brain. I hope you enjoy!

The next time Nesta meets Cassian, it’s in a coffee shop a week later.

She’s in the midst of a rare writing urge, the itch in the tips of her fingertips even if her hands are unable to actually fly over the keyboard.

It had been the glimmer of that urge which had gotten Nesta out of bed this morning well before noon. And Nesta had seized the feeling with a useless sort of hope. Because whilst the inspiration Nesta experiences now is never what it used to be, it’s something. So, Nesta had clung on to it, digging her claws in as she’d rolled out of bed with a wince.

SO GOOD!!