i am extremely well-adjusted and mentally healthy as long as nothing goes wrong ever at all even a little bit

it’s so insane we have to just keep showing up for work. no matter what is happening globally, locally, personally, you’re supposed to show up and act like the formatting on a report is actually really important and demands your attention.

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life really is so simple when you sit back and realise you don’t actually have to do a lot of things. i don’t have to be on my phone constantly. i don’t have to sit inside all day. i don’t have to reply to peoples messages straight away. i don’t have to have what’s in my fridge. i can go out and get groceries and make things that I’m craving. i can go on a walk. i can turn my phone off for a day or two. i can sit and read for hours on end. i can journal for as long as i want. i can mediate. i can cook. i can clean. i can breathe deeply. i can get myself a tea or a coffee. i can have meaningful conversations with my family. i don’t have to be in a constant state of “online”. i can disconnect. I’m not obliged to be here. my name isn’t being called out on a list. i can leave. i can take time away. i am allowed to live.

Sometimes I talk a lot and sometimes I don’t talk at all and somehow both are embarrassing

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JOY HAS A HABIT OF RETURNING. BTW

high functioning autistic people truly need to shut the fuck up about how offended they are by scientists trying to find the cause of autism so that it can be prevented and I'm saying this as a high functioning autist myself. it's so easy for you to go "uwu celebrate our differences! autism is awesome!!" bc you are not a nonverbal permatoddler who screams 12 hrs a day, physically assaults others, smears their shit on the walls, etc, nor are you the parent or sibling of one (if you were you would not be saying this nonsense). genuinely there needs to be a different word for high functioning autists (like how we used to have Aspergers...why is that not used anymore in psychiatric circles) bc the lack of differentiation between the two groups is literally warping high functioning people's perception of what severe autism actually looks like.

stop throwing a tantrum every time a single mother who's being beaten up by her own kid on the daily and has literally no help says "I just wish he was normal" as if that's unreasonable. how dare you judge these parents who are trying their best to cope with an impossibly stressful and demanding circumstance. oh and it's so funny how you hypocrites get so ornery when those parents speak over autists then turn around and do the exact same thing by speaking for those who can't speak for themselves on account of their 45 IQ, and assuming that they're going to somehow live a happier life in their current state than they would if they were neurotypical. you are totally devoid of basic empathy and I know you'll try but you can't blame it on your autism

I asked my psychiatrist why the Asperger diagnosis was given up, and he straight up answered "for political reasons".

I thanked him for his honesty.

autism and aspergers were lumped in together to save money. asperger people keep insisting they're normal and full functioning so aid gets cut for ALL groups of autists, since obv the severly disabled ones can't speak for themselves and have no lobby.

at least that's the reality in care, it's becoming harder and harder to get special aid and appropriate care for autistic people bc somehow "slightly socially akward person" became synonymous with "someone who only communicates by wailing like a cat and strangling other people, is overstimulated by basic everyday life stimuli and will wear diapers all their life"

the politicians controlling these aid regulations also believe that the latter will grow up to become the former when you surround the severly disabled, easily overstimulated, not socially interested child with enough healthy children, that scream, run and play rough all day, they think you can "cure" disability with "integration" and that special care is ableist :)

I don't think they actually believe that but that's the justification for cutting aid and closing special care daycares/schools/homes etc. and giving special needs people to regular facilities with staff not trained to work with them.

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