Are there any Polish fans of PB Choices: The stories you play game?

Just wondering

Never had a chance to say it

||| Doctor tells his new companion about Rose. No spoilers, all made up. Some weird AU, short story. |||

The day was rough.

I sat on the edge of the TARDIS, my legs dangling freely into the space. I was adoring the beauty of the uncountable amount of stars I could see through the opened doors. It’s been a while since I saw them for the very first time yet I was still amazed.

Quiet steps behind my back reminded me that I’m not on my own. - How’s it going? - Asked the Doctor as he stood next to me.

I got used to him. Most people would sit next to me to start conversation but not him. The Doctor I knew didn’t like hugs and always stayed kinda reserved. He was not unfriendly though. He was just… different.

- If you’d told me there is so much running with you I would’ve never enter this spaceship, that’s for sure. - Would you rather have your boring, stable life on Earth? - Nah, being threaten to get killed twice a week is way much fun. Doctor smiled a little but then he got visibly sad. - You will go back to it one day anyway. Your human life will come after you.

He took a long breath and started watching the constelation we were slowly passing by. I couldn’t resist to stare at him. He looked old but not as old as he really was. I didn’t even know how old he was - thousands probably. Thousands of years of travels and adventures. Thousands of years of knowledge and memories, images and sounds.

- Have you never got bored? - Bored? Bored with what? - Doctor turned his face to me and rose his eyebrows. - The Universe. You must have seen it all. - Oh no, no. There are still things I haven’t seen yet. And even if I saw the whole Universe, even if I saw each planet twice some things would still amaze me. - He pointed his finger at the star in front of us. - Also this constelation is one of the most beautiful ones. - It’s not suprising that an ordinary, short human life looks boring to you then. You must think we’re so… - Insignificant? - He interrupted. I nodded my head. - Oh, no. No, no. Well, humans, they are so temporary and fragile. So unimportant comparing to the infinity of the Universe! - I rolled my eyes but he didn’t notice it. - But for me… Each one of you matter. Every single one of you. - Is this why you never travel alone? - I asked quietly.

Doctor didn’t answer me at first. He kept looking at the stars but it wasn’t probably the stars he saw. His eyes held so much pain and sadness sometimes.

- I did. - He said after a while. - I did tried to travel on my own. - Was it that bad? - I tried to break the rules. - I was expecting something worse. - I laughted. - Like seducing some alien princess and starting an intergalactic war. - Well, that happened too, back in times. - Doctor said absently. - I’m not too good at being on my own, that’s all. - Why did you try it then? - They all leave. - He said. - They all leave and so will you one day. - He looked at me. - Some go because they want to. Some have no other choice. But I remember. Some may not agree but I remeber all of my companions, all of my friends… and they will never be forgoten. - It could be easier if you… you know. Let yourself forget. - Oh, I tried to, believe me. - He said impatiently. He got annoyed so easily sometimes. - But even if I forget, which doesn’t happen much, there is always this feeling that something is missing.

Doctor closed his eyes and stayed like this for a few seconds. I didn’t want to interrupt him asking more questions because the memories of his lost companions seemed to hurt him.

- I always keep reminding myself not to get too close. - Doctor said quietly. I was surprised that he decided to keep talking. - It never really works. His face looked very, very old. Old and tired. - There was… - He started sudenly with a completly different voice. - I’ve been in love a few times.

I raised my eyebrow. I knew the Doctor had a wife at some point but he never really talked about love or his previous relationships. He didn’t even want to admit that he liked me even though I knew he did. He let me wander around getting almost killed only to save me time by time, for months.

- Once I… I was young. I was so very young and full of anger, but she appeared in my life and changed me. - He smiled a little. - And then she left too. I had to let her go. I only regret that I’ve never really told her what I feel. Oh, so many opportunities… it wouldn’t change much though. - Didn’t she feel the same way? - I asked. Doctor gave me that “you are so rude sometimes” look but he answered me anyway. - She did. That’s why I tried to travel alone and that’s why I failed. I had to let her go and I was… I just wish I told her that I love her when I had a chance. It bothers me.

- Do you know what happened to her after that? - I asked as sensibly as I could. - She was happy I supose.

I laughted sadly. - Oh, Doctor. The Doctor and the TARDIS. The blue box full of sadness and pain. - And us both inside of it. - He turned to me. His eyes was sad but also warm and kind. I thought that I don’t really care if he ever says that he likes me because this look was enough for me. The way he cared about me said more than any words could. I smiled.

- And us both inside.

||| We all know the Doctor loved Rose but I was always upset that he never really said it. I just wanted him to admit it, to say it out loud - that’s why I wrote this short fanfiction. No action, no spoilers, I just needed him to say it.

||| Sorry for bad english - not my first language. Before you laugh at me and the fact that I have no idea where to put commas (I IMPROVISED OK), remember that at least I know the difference between “they”, “their” and there". |||

I’m seriously bored

Part two

New project, brb