The Price of Truth (2/2)
Warnings: Fake death, grief, mourning, swearing, mentions of attempted suicide, angst ofc, and is that a reunion I see?
Summary: When Bucky Barnes’s life is threatened, SHIELD decides to hide him under the radar by faking his death. The issue comes when (Y/N) doesn’t have a high enough clearance to know the truth, and when telling the truth could result in the failure of the mission and the dangerous consequences for Bucky.
AN: Not proofread yet oops. I might write some drabbles regarding future moments with these characters if you have any requests! Especially if ya’ll want to see Bucky’s POV or their conversations regarding what happened. Any other requests for stories you might want, send my way! I might keep them for future inspiration so if you don’t get a response, that’s why :)
When Steve entered the Avengers compound, his body and mind were exhausted. He was weighed down not only by the physically demanding missions recently, but he was also struggling under the pressure he committed to as captain. It was his responsibility to take charge of his team even if it hurt him to do so at times. Because of this, guilt plagued him. It rattled in his bones to see his friends mourning, their grief sending them to completely disregard their own lives and care. It pained him deeply, and a knot in his chest pulled every time he had the opportunity to reveal the truth that would take away the searing pain of his teammates.
He only had to hold it in for this last mission if it went well. It had been a week since the incident, and he was trying to get this done as quick as possible before you, in specific, did anything drastic. So when he walked into the main floor of the compound, the living area completely empty, he let out a deep breath. The mission had taken two days to complete, but it was a success, and once he drew up the forms for paperwork, Bucky would be able to come back to the compound from the safe house he was located at. It would take everything to gain his team’s trust back after such a large lie, after such a destructive and traumatic lie, but Bucky would be alive. Besides, Steve himself was not the one who gave the orders for this mission. Fury himself directed Steve on this mission, only allowing him to know the inner workings of it. Steve had all but gotten down on his knees to beg for him to be able to tell you, knowing the impact this would have on your overall health and life, but there was no budging when it came to Nick Fury. In fact, you were the one person Fury wanted Steve to especially not tell. The reason Bucky was in so much danger was because the hostiles after the weapons were after any weapon, including the Winter Soldier himself, and a mole within SHIELD had been helping direct them to him. Your own grief and reaction to the incident would send a clear message to the mole that this was indeed real.
It was only when Steve would be leaving and could not keep an eye on you that he began to fear the worst. He had seen your self-destructive behavior, your lack of food intake, the lack of wound care, the self-isolation… So he told the one person he trusted with his life to watch you. Because if there was one person who was not the mole, could keep her composure to such shocking news, and continue to be stoic in her fake grief as much as she was in her true grief – it was Natasha.
After the meeting with the team, he had pulled her aside and told her what the mission was really for. These were the hostiles who had not actually killed Bucky but were after him. Their end goal was dangerous for humankind and adding the Winter Soldier to the mix wouldn’t have ended well. Bucky was actually safe, and he would continue to be until they were able to end the hostiles in the upcoming mission. If it all went according to plan, he would be home soon. He just had to beg Natasha to make sure you made it that long.