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Do you feel me?
So true right now
So not being a baby or anything and putting it out there but mental health is shit.
I'm undiagnosed as depressed after various issues in my life, loss of parents, stuff with my little one a bad bad friendship being self employed and currently temp work meaning I'm unsure of when I'll get paid.
The reason I'm undiagnosed as many people will tell you is a) gp's waiting times and b) I'm not at the point where I'm liable to harm myself or others so I don't need to take up time where other people worse off may need it.
Today I had breakdown, our food shop got cancelled as we didn't have enough money in our account... That was it that was the straw that broke me and then everything I was keeping back from my other half just came out.
I couldn't do it any more, I needed him to help me, around the house with the cooking and meal planning with everything.
I had been trying to juggle so many balls and dropping them.
I had stopped being the person that my partner first met, because I had been trying to cook, clean, remind him of things look after my little boy every other weekend, and still be that woman.
A friend of mine who advocates people to talk about their mental health struggles actually told me to fix it myself... I didn't know what to say to him... I was trying to open up to him and he shut me out.
So I turned to my partner, I sobbed on his shoulder and told him I couldn't do it any more.
He told me that I should have spoken up, that he knows he hadn't been helping as much as he could have.
I told him that people expect me to be ok, that I'm used to keeping it inside.
Because that is how I cope.
In my mind people need me to be ok so that I can listen to their problems and fix them, so that I can be the cook, cleaner and diary for everyone.
But who fixes me? Who listens to me? Who reminds me to do stuff?
Who?
Today my partner said he needed to take more on his shoulders, we're a partnership that means we take equal weight.
It's ok not to be ok, it's ok to need help.
I'm thirty and I'm only just realising it's ok to need help from others.
Just choose that help wisely.
And finally, our trailer has been uploaded! If you guys could give this a lil checking out, that’d be grand!
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Q&A
Hey guys! So we are getting pretty close to recording our first lines, our team have a question to ask, would you like (if we get them to actually behave enough) a sneak peak at our characters in the form of a interview? If so get sending in your questions and we will wrangle the cast, they can be questions about their characters, questions to the cast, or to the writer. Closing date for questions are December the 20th. And don't worry if you don't know what's going on, short bios for each character should be up by the end of the month.
You can either drop us a message in our Ask Box, Or send them to our email address, with your name and question at: DEDproductions@outlook.com.
We look forward to hearing your questions!
Come on guys I'm really looking forward to answering your questions
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Hello and Welcome!
Hi everyone! This is a tumblr page for our upcoming podcast/audio drama series named DeadEnd Dave, about werewolves, the undead and Dave- a necromancer who’s just muddling his way through with his friend Ken. The story is set in the city of Plymouth, England and built around both local and global folklore.
We’re planning to make episodes on Anchor FM, as well as Youtube and other sources further into our planning. We hope you decide to give us a chance! Thanks so much, make sure to follow for updates and more!
So I've got a new chat up now thats a thing, it's called horror chat, real life short stories things like that
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Anonymous asked:
i feel dumb sometimes because i only know how to write fanfiction. i'm horrible at making characters myself and i get so frustrated because i don't have the creativity authors do - instead, i get upset at myself for not making an incredible story with incredible characters that i turn back to fanfiction again. i love writing fanfiction but i want to write my own things too. i just don't know how
A lot of people say that fanfiction is “easy” to write, but it’s really not. It’s a genre of its own with its own expectations and rules to be followed.
You might not be creating new characters, but in order to write fic you need to understand the canon characters well. You need to develop them beyond what is shown in canon, but still have that development intensely tied to canon.
You also need to be able to express relationships and emotions at a deeper level than in other literary genres. Because characters are at the core of fanfiction, their relationships and interactions as well as their internal motivations tend to be central to any story that you write. Other genres can focus in on the plot or chasing the Mcguffin, but in fanfiction that is often secondary to characterization.
You can practice the skills involved in original fiction through fanfiction writing, too. Plot structure still exists in fic. Original characters can be inserted into stories to work alongside canon ones. Create an AU and you’ll do worldbuilding. All of that is transferable to other types of fiction, too.
Is it a matter of lacking creativity? Or is it just that you already like writing fic? Fanfic scratches a different kind of itch than original fiction, and published authors often write fic too because of that.
There’s nothing wrong with writing fanfiction. There’s nothing lesser about it. It’s still writing and it’s still creative and it’s still telling a story that didn’t exist until you sat down and wrote it. That’s something to be proud of.
THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH WRITING FANFICTION.
There is some stuff on here and on AO3 I’ve read that is written more eloquently and with more love than award-winning novels. I shit you not.
Fanfic is fucking great. And depending on the type of fic you right, it may as well be original fiction- AU’s for example can often be so removed from canon that you can simply change the character names and a few key details and have ‘original fiction’. Give yourself more credit.
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HOW TO SPEAK WRITER:
- “my characters have a mind of their own!” - no i’m not mad and yes i know i made them up but i have no idea what’s happening anymore please save me
- “i’m going to write today!” - i’d actually rather wash the garden path but the house is already pristine and i’ve run out of excuses
- “this is still a rough draft so go easy on me!” - i have spent what feels like forever pouring my very soul into this but i worry it’s terrible and if you’re mean i may just cry
- “i’ll update soon!” - this is utterly killing me, i don’t know how to read anymore, what are words, help
- “i just had this idea and had to share it with you guys!” - this has taken me three weeks and countless hours please love and appreciate it
- “feedback appreciated :D” - please, i live for validation! i need comments!!
- “I’ve got writer’s block” - I know where I want the story to go, but I’m crippled by my own expectations and what i think other people’s expectations are
- “This was a good writing day!” - I was, somehow, able to avoid most distractions and wrote more than 5 words. It was still like pulling teeth
- “I’m excited for this project :)” - I’ve spent what feels like three lifetimes thinking, planning, and revising the idea, and now that I’m starting to work on it, I’m paralyzed by the certain knowledge that it’s not going to be anywhere near what I want it to be
- “My characters hate me” - I have done horrible things to my characters that, if they were real, would surely count as crimes against humanity, and despite loving them, I love hurting them more. My final shred of humanity has me feeling guilty…guess I’ll just have to stab my characters a few more times…
- “I’m not really feeling motivated” - I’m wringing out my very soul to write this story, and it’s left me exhausted. Random love will recharge me, otherwise I’m going to crawl into a procrastination hole for the next week
- “Send me asks” - I’m lonely and have writer’s block* (see above), and desperately want to interact with people. Please. I’m begging you, don’t leave me alone with my thoughts
- “writing isn’t really easy for me atm” i say that as if there’s a time when writing is easy for me
- “feedbacks are always appreciated!” pls how do i tell you that i need you to tell me what you think about this piece without sounding too annoying and needy i just want to hear y'all
- “this was fun to write” yes because i finally drilled in my head that i should indulge myself first and not think about what other people will like esp since the anxiety is limiting me from writing it exactly how i want to
- “a lot of stuff are coming fellas i can’t wait ;)” i can’t wait to find out how to bridge this Important Scene #4 to Important Scene#5 bc i am completely lost atm….i just want them to connect and go to the real action
- “no update comments please :)” they make me anxious and even guiltier over not updating fast. pls stop
- “who knows what will happen in the next chapters? :)” no one, i don’t know either
- “sorry this chapter is too long!” i feel like it’s 50% filler pls tell me you enjoy it so I’ll feel less guilty
Oh yes… :->
(But fortunately not all of them all the time…)
there are totally times when writing is easy, that’s when you lock yourself in your room and type like a creature possessed for five hours.
Personally, I really identify with: - “writing isn’t really easy for me atm” i say that as if there’s a time when writing is easy for me
I'm reblogging because currently this is soo relatable
Ok requested by @chibron Rose and Ten. So that was all they gave me to go on... Ok, I will run wild.... It's untitled mainly cause I did it on the fly.
Rose pushed the TARDIS door open wrinkling her nose at the smell of the gunk she was covered in.
She heard the doctor right behind her and turned to give him her most evil glare.
"What?" He asked
"Have you seen me?" She replied waving a hand from her head to her toes, to illustrate her disheveled and gunky appearance.
His eyes followed her hand
"Yes your Rose.. nothing out of the ordinary there."
She made some sort of strangled cry of frustration as she stormed into the vast hallway and to find a bathroom and somewhere to incinerate her clothes which were probably ruined beyond repair.
"He just doesn't bloody get it...!" She fumed as she walked
"... He comes out looking all pristine whereas I fall in a giant pit of God knows what, no 'sorry Rose' or 'Are you ok Rose?' Maybe Shireen was right and all men are the same."
The TARDIS for her part hummed in a way she hoped was comforting to the human girl.
Meanwhile underneath the TARDIS console, the Doctor was keeping busy until Rose was ready for the next adventure.
"How should I know what I said wrong old girl." He muttered around a bit of wire clamped in his teeth
"...I mean i didn't see anything wrong with her, as I said she just looked like Rose to me."
The TARDIS showed her dissaproval, small sparks missed the Doctors face by inches.
"Hey none of that now, well no I can't tell you why she's stomping down the corridor like a teenage Judoon."
He grabbed his screwdriver and pointed it at a bunch of wires, crowing when whatever he had done had the desired result.
Rose meanwhile had exited the bathroom happy to be a nice well scrubbed human pink color again instead of the disgusting blue green grey of whatever she had fallen into.
Dressed in fresh clothes she felt a little better, but still internally fumed at the Doctor.
This was now the seventh time in a row that he had escaped anything squirting, landing or being chucked at him... Not to mention the bodily fluids of two days ago.
The next planet they went to it would be him that got dirty... His imaculatly kept suit was going down!
She headed for the kitchen to make a cup of tea.
"Ahh she's in the kitchen now, I'm presuming that the shower made her feel better?" The Doctor asked his faithful ship.
"Oh, I see..." He replied with a gulp
"Doctor why don't we have any milk? We had some two days ago, if you'd just let me bring a cow on board.." Rose announced, seating herself on the booster seat.
There was a rather undignified noise that sounded something like 'No cows!' before the Doctor spluttered and hauled himself out from under the console.
Rose tried hard to stifle a laugh she really did, but to no avail.
The Doctor and his suit were covered top to toe in a dark green oily substance
"I.. I..." He began.
"I think you should go for a shower Doctor." Rose managed in between bouts of giggles.
"Oh you do do you?" He snapped "I have no idea why she did this to me!"
Rose chuckled.
Then it dawned on him, the TARDIS, his ship was unhappy at how he'd been treating Rose.
"Your both in it together, and this stuff stinks." He uttered before dashing off to find a bathroom.
"Thanks old girl." Rose muttered reaching out to put her hand on the console. "Paybacks a wonderful thing."
So in light of trying to make this tumblr page more active I am doing fic requests,
Doc who
Avengers/xmen
Actor X oc
And any others
Hit me up
reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)
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OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.
THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.
The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.
AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.
THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.
So it's a day before fairyfest and I'm still not packed, almost but not quite and this is what I chose to eat to get me through the day
Fairyfest
So on Friday I will be traveling to my favourite festival in the world. one I've been going to for six years now, it's the one that I got handfasted at last year. This year is extra special cause I get to take my almost four year old boy with me and we'll be setting up our bell tent for the first time ever. I'm super excited. I've got everything I need for my little boy but I've totally forgotten to buy things to wear for myself. So little bit of an explanation fairyfest is a three day festival, each day has a different theme there's workshops, live music, all sorts of stuff and usually ive sorted my outfits and this year I've focused so much on my little ones stuff I forgot about mine and the other halfs. So festival is on Friday and we have yet to pack clothes..... I'm super organised! I will probably be posting pictures on Monday of the festival, it's been going thirteen years and I love it