everything is meaningless!!

am i suicidal or am i just being dramatic

honestly don’t know how much longer i can do this. tired and i’m not even here for me atp. i haven’t been in ages.

verge of a panic attack

idk why

i’d rather the emotions come than just tease me like this

don’t rly wanna b alive

but won’t do anything abt that, dw

won’t do anything abt anything, that’s the problem

i’ll be fine tm

but how many i’ll be fine tomorrow’s until i don’t see tm

eventually this exhaustion will kill me

or i’ll kill it thus killing me

idk

whoops

holy fuck i’m in so much pain rn

lol jk any attempts to get my life together feel like they’re impossibilities so ig i’ll continue to use this account to scream into the void bc i don’t think anyone ik irl follows me here

i really really really really really want to engage in some self destructive negative coping mechanisms. and nothings stopping me. but i also don’t want another permanent reminder of a feeling that’s temporary. at least for now. who knows. sigh. i have to be up in three hours and i can’t fall asleep. it’s so frustrating.

starting over and over and over and over and

rebranding myself as a spirituality/astrology blog bc i’m tired of being sad

interact to be moots!!!

are people still here?

i'm stil alive lol